horseback riding. music. love. texting. just having a good time, in general.
i looove photography. hopefully i can aspire to be at least halfway decent someday, haha. personally, i would love to work with bands or in the music industry at the very least. because at the end of the day, music is where my heart is.
The name is Rachel. && I don't give a fuck what you think about me. Yes, I am really 22 years old. Do I look younger? Because I get told that a lot. :] Three cheers for being old enough to be alive! Let me first start off by saying that I am trying to change. In the sense of, for years, I have been shut down... shut off to the prospect of any kind of affection or even adoration from the opposite sex. && you know what? I dare say it's time for a change. It's easier said than done, but I am going to do my best. Gone are the days of me hiding away from the thing I want most in this world: LOVE. As far as MySpace goes, I try to talk to everyone [ stalkers && creepers excluded ] so please feel free to message or comment me. I promise I am a nice gal. But please refrain from talking shit to me. Don't even bother telling me I am fat... or ugly... or that I post too many bulletins. You don't get anywhere in life by trying to hurt my feelings and make me feel like shit. Are you going to put any of this bullying crap on a resume? No. So don't effing bother. It's a bit cliche, but if you have nothing nice to say to me, don't say it at all. And yes, I do post a lot of bulletins some days. Get over it && just delete / block me. Don't talk about me like you know me, because odds are... you don't. I am not ashamed of my past && I don't tell people in order to attain sympathy. I tell people to enlighten... and perhaps to prove that I have experienced some dark things. My father has had nothing to do with me most of my life, he ignores me whenever we are face to face and pretends I don't exist. The reason? Beyond me, your guess is as good as mine. He has always been dissapointed that I was born a girl, so whatever. I say this just because my little brother [ who I love to death, don't get me wrong ] got all the attention he could ever need from him. My mom passed away a few years ago from a heroin overdose. I had to deal with my mother lying and stealing from me most of my life. Because of her, we lost everything. Money, possessions, even our home. I never want to be like that, but all that I went through made me stronger in the end. I miss her some days, but the good memories with my mother we're very few and far between. Perhaps one day I will have my own family that will adore me as much as I adore them. Like I said, I have no idea where my path will lead... && I don't want to. I want to be surprised!
"(519): and then she said I drew a line on her forehead with my cum and whispered "Simba"-TFLN
"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer. Not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness." - woody allen.
WHAT I LOOK FOR IN A GUY:
Let's be clear right up front, shall we? I want a man. Not a little boy. Boys don't know what they want. It's true, nobody on Earth is perfect. We all make mistakes. But I really do not have time for your crap. If your looking for someone to play little childish games with... then I am not your girl. Trust me, there are toooons of easy marks out there. I want someone who isn't going to be afraid to express their feelings with me AT ALL TIMES. Starved for romance? You betcha. I'm an all or nothing kind of girl. I want you to lean over and kiss me every once in a while, just out of the blue. I want you to be unafraid to reach out and take my hand. At home or even in public. I want you to not be afraid to show others that you are with me && that I am with you. I crave arms around me, ticking my back while we lay in bed with each other. But as much as I want my significant other to do all those things to and for me... I also want someone isn't shy about allowing me to display the same acts of affection in return. I want to write you cute little notes and slip them in your pocket. Kiss your neck playfully. I want to be able to walk up to you while your having a conversation with the boys, slip under your arm and not have you embarrassed. Loyalty is a big thing for me. It doesn't matter how good looking you are... because that isn't what matters to me. Yes, there is some form of physical attraction that has to be met... but I am not going to date you simply based on the terms that your good looking. If you can't keep your dick in your pants, then I don't see us working out. I probably won't even go near you. Trust me, I have a lot of guy friends, so I am up to par on all your tricks and lines. I dont have a lot of dating experience, so you will have to forgive me. I have trusted others in the past with my insecurities and fears, only to have them stomp all over me and my heart. A bit dramatic? Yes, but heartbreak is never easy. I am saying this because it may take me some time to fully open myself up to you. If I am interested, you will know... I am not shy about my feelings. But even though I may like you, I will still shy away from the having the title of "girlfriend". Yes, I am scared, but moreso... because I don't want to end up crushed all over again. Perhaps I am holding out for a hero. Someone who is going to wait for me... who will climb over all of my walls and still have enough stamina at the end of the day to sweep me off my feet. NO DRUGS! If you do drugs, that's instantly putting you out of my dating zone, lol. Weed is tolerable, but that is pretty much it. I don't do any kind of addictions. Drinking, drugs, ect. I am over that part of my life && I don't want anymore of that nonsense. As far as looks go? Hmm, I dig the "emo / scene" look a lot, but that isn't the only "style" I diggg. I have found myself attracted to quite a different array of males, preps, jocks, ect. Haha, that kinda just made me sound like a hoochie. I'm not, swear. Most of all? I want someone who is going to do things with me, NOT FOR ME.
i just read your about me, and let me just say that you are an inspiration to me. you had/have alot of good points, and I can deff side with you on how my dad is the same with me and my younger brother.
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