J. Cao

About me:

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Depending On Experience... the seat of knowledge to which taught me well. I've learned alot of me and who I want to be through my past and present. Alot of people say the past is the past and it's not worth it to lurke in your past. But you know what... For me... my past is a great deal to who I am and what i am today. I left my past behind me yet "AS I ACKNOWLEDGE I LEARN TO ACCEPT AND GROW TO UNDERSTAND". My daily happenings has taught me to be on the outside looking in and the inside looking out. I see things in a medley of perspectives... I don't just look both ways (right to left... left to right) before I cross the street... I look what's behind me and what lays ahead of me as well. Some say as much as I put my mind & heart out on the table i'm vulnerable to catching an infection of parasites that'll eat away at my heart and mind until i'm left with nothing. I say... they can run away with my mind to give them more insight in life and possibly come to grips with thier selfishness... hold my heart and crush it so the blood stains their hands. But... there's one part of me they can't take away from me and that's my soul. My soul which radiates life... through my eyes... my smile. My soul can help rebuild what they've taken away. For those who already know me and built a friendship that is worth preserving with me... they are able identify me not only physically but emotionally and mentally as well. Therefore to the best of myabilities I have shown them the best of me so i'm not just a JOHN DOE to them. For those who don't know me or starting to get a feel of who I am... you can point me out in the crowd... say he looks familiar... basically just identify me physically. But when someone asks you do you know him... all you can say is... No i don't but i'm itching to get to know him. So therefore i'm just another JOHN DOE to you until you get to know me. I WANT ALL THE PRESSURE TO GO AWAY BUT I KNOW IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN... This world lives in greed... "people screamin it's all about me..."
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Status: In love
Here for: Networking, Friends
Hometown: Oxnard
Orientation: Straight
Body type: Slim / fat
Ethnicity: Asian
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn
Children: Someday
Smoke / Drink: No / Yes
Education: Grad / professional school
Occupation: GOD ..