the space and time when you feel you despise the person who makes you feel so threatened you are losing yourself you cling to some ideal or spiritual concept of ’relationship’ that the other should fit into. it becomes a battle but the person never leaves because it is right. it is right for emotions and feelings to be all over the place. they hate you you hate them. the whole thing feels like it is a sham a stupid stage of fucked up actors and they all have such good parts. perhaps you feel screw it but deep in you you know you cant. you cant because you cant shatter the moon! you cant end your life because life IS what you want and the other person IS life. the other person completes the death river making your body new where feelings crackle with energy in places never awakened before. scared yes terrified you both float on dissolution of life. but the universe is their and it is magic just like the universe the two meet and the blackend energy of dissolution begins to crumble into flowing sparks and juicy forms that envelop the two and new understanding is born out of the push and pull start of the the circut. there is a bond beyond like or love or hate or attraction or repulsion. there is now creating them making new the two.
~blood of destruction~
go ahead baby
srike the first blow
drown the dream
inside of you
words you speak
not in open air
seething river of
darkenness
snakes and flowers
rolling on
you’ll take my heart
and leave my soul
floating on the black
river of death
i am pale watching
my eyes on fire
heart barely beating
body without mind
your voice a drug
making me dissolve
your heaven and
angels
crying
corrupted river
flowing on
my soul is dying
on the river of blackness
