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you have brought me so much joy that i thought i could never feel again- you made me feel a pulse a heart beat within a chest, that for so long has been vacant-and empty... you make me complete -this smile that you see is real- not just a facade covering a blackened void.... i love you natan with all that i am------ you are beauty- you are grace- you are violence and pain tenderness and pleasure you are the flower that blooms in my mind i will cherish you untill the day i cease to exist in this world thank you for giving my life meaning again----- i am your humble servant your partner your lover your friend evermore.........................But i threw you the obvious, and you flew with it on your back, just a name in your recollection, thrown down among a million same. difficult not to feel a little bit, disappointed, and passed over.... when i've looked right through, to see you naked and oblivious, and, you don't see me. but i threw you the obvious just to see if there's more behind the eyes of a fallen angel, the eyes of a tragedy. here i am expecting just a little bit too much from the wounded. but i see through it all and see you. so i threw you the obvious to see what occurs behind the eyes of a fallen angel, eyes of a tragedy. oh well. apparently nothing. you don't see me. you don't see me at all.