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I change on a weekly basis. I try to live and learn through my struggles. I have my own problems that I deal with on a regular basis. I do some things that can be deemed self-destructive. I seem to live a double life. There's only one person that knows it all, and I plan to spend the rest of my life with him. I hate vulnerability and I fear that people will dislike me.

I don't regret any mistakes that I have made in my life, instead, I try to learn from them the best I can. My goal in life is to always help people who have had the same or similar struggles as me, but worse luck. It took me a while to realize what I've wanted to do in my life, but I've finally figured it out.

On a similar note, I have not discovered who I am yet. I am changing everyday. I am not who I was yesterday and I will wake up different tomorrow.

I'm an introvert, and a lot of people are turned off by that. I have a small group of friends and family who mean the world to me. I spend a lot of time in my head. My therapy is in words and music. I may breakdown, but I will never break.

That said, I can be difficult at times, a handful, over emotional, a pain. And all this is an understatement. But like Marilyn Monroe said, if you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best. If I consider you close to me, I will stop the world for you, so I like to think it's worth it to deal with me when times get tough. ..