Conjure One Endless Dream-
Maroon 5 This Love-
Lia One-
Evanescense My Immortal-
Disturbed Numb-
Red Hot Chili Peppers Otherside-
Duran Duran Ordinary World-
Maroon 5 She Will Be Loved-
Nelly Furtado Man Eater-
P Diddy Feat & NicoleCome To Me-
3 Doors Down Here Without You-
Conjure One Extrodinary Way-
Nirvana Lithium-
Godsmack I'm Doing The Best That I Can-
Gary Jules Mad World-
Akon Ft Eminem Smack That-
Maroon 5 Sweetest Goodbye-
Nine Inch Nails Right Where It Belongs-
Serina Paris Baby Look At Us Now-
Shakira Hips Don't Lie-
Disturbed Liberate-
Gwen Stefani Wind It Up-
Nelly Furtado Say It Right-
Red Hot Chili Peppers Californication-
David Byrne Like Humans Do-
Justin Timberlake I'm Bringing Sexy Back-
Fergie Fergalicious-
3 Doors Down Kryptonite-
Christina Aguilera Hurt-
Duran Duran The Chauffeur-
No Doubt Sunday Morning-
Duran Duran What Happens Tomorrow-
Enya Fire and Ice-
Enya Celtic Rain-
Nelly Furtado Promiscuous Girl-
Nirvana Come As You Are-
Lone Star Amazing-
Creed My Sacrifice-
Drowning Pool Bodies-
Julian Lennon Believe-
Secondhand Serenade Maybe-
HelloGoodbye All of Your Love-
I Am Ghost This is Goodbye-
Will Ackerman Annes Song-
Savage Garden Truly Madly Deeply-
Movies
Television
Ghost Hunters-
House MD-
The Closer-
The Mind of Mencia-
South Park-
CSI-
Haunted America-
Anthony Bourdain No Reservations-
Most Haunted-
Myth Busters-
Deadliest Catch-
Dirty Jobs-
Family Guy-
Books
Louise L. Hay- Heart Thoughts-
Louise L. Hay- You Can Heal Your Life-
Neale Donald Walsch- The Complete Conversations with God-
Donna Williams Nobody Nowhere-
Sylvia Browne Life on the other side-
Sylvia Browne Contacting your spirit guide-
Sylvia Browne If you could see what I see-
Sylvia Browne Phenomenon-
Leslie Rule Ghosts among us-
Leslie Rule Coast to coast ghosts-
James Van Praagh Heaven and Earth-
Sanaya Roman Opening to channel-
Sanaya Roman Spritual Growth-
Sanaya Roman Personal power through awareness-
Faith Javane Numerology and the divine triangle-
Linda Goodman Love signs-
Patricia Cornwell Portrait of a Killer Jack The Ripper Case Closed-
Stearn Robinson The dreamers dictionary-
Jane Austen Pride and Prejudice-
John Piper The hidden smile of god-
William Cowper Selected poetry and prose-
William Cowper The poems of William Cowper-
William Wordsworth The Collection-
William Wordsworth The Major works-
George Gordon Byron The Love Poems of Lord Byron-
George Gordon Byron Letters and Journals-
Nextext Stories and Poems of Edgar Allen Poe-
John Keats The complete library-
M. Scott Peck The road less traveled-
National Geographic Atlas of the world-
Anne Rice Interview with a vampire-
Anne Rice The Vampire Lestat-
Anne Rice Queen of the damned-
Anne Rice The witching hour-
Anne Rice Lasher-
Anne Rice Blackwood Farm-
Anne Rice The tale of the bodythief-
Anne Rice Memnoch the devil-
Anne Rice A Cry to Heaven-
Sylvan Joseph Muldoon Projection of the Astral body-
Denning & P hillips Practical Guild to Astral Projection-
John Edward After Life Answers from the other side-
Sarah Rossback Living Color Master Lin Yuns Guide to Feng Shui-
Douglas M Baker The Jewel in the lotus-
Napoleon Bonaparte The love letters of Napoleon to Josephine-
David Lowenherz The 50 greatest love letters of all time-
Billy Collins The trouble with poetry and other poems-
Margie Palatini Piggie Pie-
Denning & Phillips Practical Guide to Psychic Self Defense-
Naomi E Donner Discover your temperament through color-
Barbara Brennan Hands of light-
Kevin J todeschi The Akashic Records-
John Edward Developing your own psychic powers-
Ann Rule The Stranger Beside Me-
Ann Rule Small Sacrifices-
Sylvia Plath The bell jar-
Anne Frank The diary of a young girl -
Gary Larson The Complete Far Side -
Gary Goldschneider The secret language of birthdays-
Don Miguel Ruiz The four agreements-
Dean Koontz From the corner of his eye-
Anne Rice Lasher-
Anne Rice The Witching Hour-
Douglas Adams The hitchhikers guide to the galaxy-
Anonymous Go Ask Alice-
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Books I want to read and cant believe I havent:
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Harper Lee To kill a mocking bird-
Mark Haddon The Curious Incident of the dog in the night time-
Rachel Trezise The Catcher in the Rye-
Jacqueline Susann Valley of the dolls-
Robert Penn Warren All the kings men-
William Golding Lord of the flies-
Judy Blume Are you there god its me Margaret-
Ken Kesey One flew over the cuckoos nest-
John Steinbeck The grapes of wrath-
Heroes
Anyone who is spiritual, or talented... people who are loving and accepting, people who overcome great obsticles to reach their dreams. These people are my heros. A gifted child, a wise old man, a young female surgeon, a homeless person struggling to 'make it' without resorting to drugs, a mad scientist who doesn't care what people think because he has a dream or a vision to make the world a better place, the angels that save us every day, the homosexual teenager who faces his strict parents and comes out of the closet, immigrants who had the courage to face the struggles to follow their hearts and dreams, and the friend that reaches out and holds your hand when you never said you needed it. These are my heros. Plus more... listed below.
When I met Joe, I never knew the kind of relationship we'd end up having. I remember when I first saw him on Second Life, dancing, a tall, strikingly beautiful albiet quite spooky pasty white vampire with a long silvery white mohawk, I was in awe. He danced near me with a wet t-shirt on and black leather pants... I never saw anything like him before in my life, and when I closed in on his face and saw his red snake eyes I thought my god, I'm done for! I knew he was going to be the one I was going to vote for this late evening in early January 2005. Our first night together we just whispered to each other a lot, we went to the top of some waterfalls on a sim that I lived on with my roommate and we hung out, I remember him taking photo after photo of me... and me just smiling because I understood that urge to take photographs, I also was constantly snapping photographs of my friends and admiring the beauty I found in the art of photography. It was about a week of IMs back and forth before I finally realized why he kept removing me from his buddy list and then rerequesting my card. I kept thinking my goodness, either I keep saying the wrong things and upsetting this kind man or he has emotional problems... it wasn't long before I realized the reason he kept removing my card is because he didn't keep cards of many people, very few in fact and he apparently didn't think I was serious about getting to know him, that and the fact that he was really attracted to me, and he just would rather not be hurt again, by another girl. So, as the days past that first week we hung out in private one night for a very long talk, which was really nice. I remember him saying how he could not believe I was there with him... in his arms... how sweet I thought, as I learned more about him. But it wasn't until I told him that I only wanted a friendship with him that things began to turn in my heart and in his, where I sat countless hours one day with a group of other friends at a party but could not get my mind off of him... he was all I could think of and I realized I had made a terrible mistake. More than anyone it was this man, who I thought of only as a friend who I longed to be with, and not there at the party with all of my friends that I had known for over a year. At the end of the party, everyone left... but me.. I hung around... waiting for something to happen... just standing at the edge of a pool, when he IM'd me.
"I want you to want me,... I need you to need me" and like an angel from heaven he floated down in front of me from the sky... I fell to my knees and knew at that very moment, I would never ever tell him "only friends" again.
To this day he is my everything... and my hero. For any man who has a heart like his is worth everything in the world to wait for and a man like him ( which you know nothing of him or his life ) is stronger a person for everything life has delt him and all he has gone through. Joe... for you this is here, and for you I write this...
You are... My Hero.
In the past few years, I have changed a lot for the better. There was a time when I wanted to please everyone, and I have learned that to do this is unwise. I know, that I cannot please everyone. Instead, I have decided to walk away from those who are impossible to please, certain people, and leave others behind if they were associated with them. These days I still come into contact with people who do and say things that are unacceptable, and when I meet these people I know straight away to avoid them, and to cut all ties with them before they get too close. Maybe I seem offish these days to many people who used to know me as very outgoing and bubbly.... I may seem more serious, and shy now, but it's because I am more cautious. I do treasure those that are close to me, and once I treasure someone and make up my mind that they're special. They remain so. Even some of these people I may have cut ties with but it's always for the best if I do. Don't misunderstand my need for separation if you feel that you have done nothing wrong. However, if you feel you have, and you realize why I've backed away from you...respect that.
No Matter What
No matter what you do in life….
No matter how nice you are….
No matter how kind you are….
No matter how much you try not to hurt people….
Someone will always see you differently.
No matter if you’re charitable…
No matter if you’re humble….
No matter if you’re helpful, and patient….
No matter what…
Someone will always see you differently.
They will perceive you in a bad light…
They will do everything they can to hurt you…
They will blame you for everything that goes wrong in their life…
They will judge you.
No matter what….
No matter what you do….
So keep your spirit alive by knowing…
That you do the best you can…
That you have good intentions…
That you love everyone the same…
and care so much.
Don’t let someone bring you down…
or blame you…
or try to hurt you…
judge you…. or maim you…
Let it roll off your shoulders, if you can….
If not, Cry your eyes out in your pillows…
Forgive them and forget it…
You can’t change the way others are….
Only yourself…
No matter what….
Don’t let them make you forget …
Who you are….
and what you have to give to this life…
Every life path is filled with obstacles… keep your chin up.. and avoid them as best as you can…
This is your life, and you know how to love…
Chose love…
Leave hate, and the haters behind…
This life depends on more souls like you…
Don’t let them break you.
Written by;
Rhonda Lillie
Other INFP's are my Heroes too.
I'm an INFP:
INFPs present a calm, pleasant face to the world and are seen as reticent and even shy. Although they demonstrate a cool reserve toward others, inside they are anything but distant. They have a capacity for caring which is not always found in other types. They care deeply-indeed, passionately-about a few special persons or a cause. One word that captures this type is idealistic. At times, this characteristic leaves them feeling isolated, especially since INFPs are found in only 1 percent of the general population. INFPs have a profound sense of honor derived from internal values. The INFP is the Prince or Princess of mythology, the King's Champion, Defender of the Faith, and guardian of the castle. Sir Galahad and Joan of Arc are male and female prototypes of an INFP. To understand INFPs their cause must be understood, for they are willing to make unusual sacrifices for someone or something believed in.
INFPs seek unity in their lives, unity of body and mind, emotions and intellect. They often have a subtle tragic motif running through their lives, but others seldom detect this inner minor key. The deep commitment of INFPs to the positive and the good causes them to be alert to the negative and the evil, which can take the form of a fascination with the profane. Thus INFPs may live a paradox, drawn toward purity and unity but looking over the shoulder toward the sullied and desecrated. When INFPs believe that they have yielded to an impure temptation, they may be given to acts of self-sacrifice in atonement. The atonement, however, is within the INFP, who does not feel compelled to make public the issue.
INFPs prefer the valuing process over the purely logical. They respond to the beautiful versus the ugly, the good versus the bad, and the moral versus the immoral. Impressions are gained in a fluid, global, diffused way. Metaphors and similes come naturally but may be strained. INFPs have a gift for interpreting symbols, as well as creating them, and thus often write in lyric fashion. They may demonstrate a tendency to take deliberate liberties with logic. Unlike the NT, they see logic as something optional. INFPs also may, at times, assume an unwarranted familiarity with a domain, because their global, impressionistic way of dealing with reality may have failed to register a sufficient number of details for mastery. INFPs may have difficulty thinking in terms of a conditional framework; they see things as either real or fancied, and are impatient with the hypothetical.
Hueneme High
Oxnard, CA
Graduated: 1987
Student status: Alumni
Degree: High School Diploma
Major: Psychology
Minor: Art & Photography
Clubs: Yearbook. Choir.
Oxnard Housing Authority Oxnard, California US Volunteer-Office Assistant Resident Initiatives Program
Summer 2007- Current
Oxnard College Oxnard, California US Office Assistant Cal Works
May 2008- Current
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My Newest Video Blog on December 24th, 2008 at 3:30am
Videos from our WEBLIVES Documentary Series are available for viewing on this page. Just scroll down to the bottom right of this site to watch Episodes 1-11. Or click my Videos section if that's easier.
This is a photo of Joe and I on the train from Newtown Powys Wales to Manchester England UK. This was our last 24 hours together before I had to fly back to the USA.
Here is a video I made to say hello to all of my myspace friends... (just click play to watch it)
You might want to turn off the music that starts to play lower in the page first though :P
Current News:
I'm currently attending Oxnard College in Oxnard, California as a full time student majoring in Sociology.
I began in Spring 2008. I went for the Spring Semester, Summer Semester, and am now starting the Fall Semester.
I've been having a lot of fun! A list of the classes I have completed and are currently taking are listed on the left side of my Myspace under schools. I'm going for my AA/BA is Sociology. I plan to transfer to California State University Channel Islands after I am done at OC. I'm thinking of doing a double major, because I'm basically almost done with everything I need for my AA, except for Math, and since I am going to be taking Math classes through fall next year, I'm going to try and fit in another major so that I can be a double major. I'm debating on the second major, however the ones that look good to me are Art, Health and Psychology. I may lean on the Psychology side, since one of my main interests is Mental Disorders.
Rhonda Lillie & Paul Hawkins are also known as Heart Wishbringer & Joe Stravinsky from Second Life. Second Life is a virtual world, where people can come together and meet no matter where in the world they are. We joined Second Life in 2004, and met in January 2005. We fell in love and opened a virtual shop where we were able to create content in game to be sold to other avatars. Our love story reached the media in 2007 and weblives decided to make a documentary about us. Our documentary can be seen at www.itv.com under the heading WebLives and the subheading Second Lifers. The documentary covers our story, of how we met, and married online over 3 1/2 years ago, even though we had never met until July 19th, 2007. This is part of my story... here at Myspace... but there is more to know as well. :) Stick around and read a bit here and there. Also, go see the videos I uploaded and the pics I uploaded.
Here's the link to our documentary series:
Weblives
Love;
Shines on our lives,
from so many....and in so many ways...
Warm and giving...
Caring and kind.....
Love, which seems so hard to find....
It's all around us...
In our days, in memories...
In moments past;
The hug someone gave you,
The pat on the back....
But love it seems glows from the heavens
Brighter when,...
It comes from within us....
This love from all, starts within...
The outward radiance of love for life...
When we love ourselves...
It seems everything is more bright.
So, love it is all around you in all things....
And, we feel it's warmth, it's happiness more...
When we share it...
Deep from our hearts... to all others... at all times...
Love,... and live... our lives.
I hope that the radiation from love penetrates all who read this to the core and feel the vibrations there, deep within begging to be released... and to be shared with everyone we come into contact... as the everlasting warmth that the glow of love brings.
I hope you have a great day... and with all my love, I wish you the most loving thoughts for yourself.
The more we love ourselves... and the more we love,... the
more our beautiful inner light glows.
This is me: Heartshinegirl (Always motivating, and sending love).
Here's a video I made on Dec. 24, 2008
The above Video was taken on 12/24/08 3 days prior to leaving for Wales.
This Video was Captured on February 23rd, 2009
The Personal Side of Me:
I don't know what more there is really to know about me other than I'm a really introverted person, (Myers-Briggs Type: INFP ) but most people do not know that about me. I always hear that I am in my own little world, well... yes, that is true. I guess I prefer it there. Often I live my life trying to cope with it, I have never felt like I fit in anywhere, but I try. I worry a bit too much about things that I shouldn't worry about... and it often makes me stressed. In a perfect world, I wouldn't need to make excuses for my actions, and I would simply slip into the shadows where I wasn't noticed. I tend to procrastinate because I don't want to or am not ready to do or try something, this isn't because I do not want to do it or try it but I'm too afraid to do it, or be put into a situation to try something. Compare me to a black cat, hiding in the corner, well that's me. I live life painfully, as days pass I only hope that they will get better. Sometimes I just wish it would all go away. Time changes everything they say that but I believe courage changes everything. Not time. Time can go on forever, but until you get the courage to do something about your situation, nothing will change. I know this all too well. Anyways... the only thing anyone needs to know about me is that I am nonjudgmental, and sensitive. I do not like enemies and try to make everyone I can happy with me even people who don't like me. I think it's because I want people to know I am a good person, even if every action I take is not the one they would have taken. Please don't judge me by comparing me to you. I'm not you. I'm me... and it's lonely inside me.
The Real Me and The Online Me:
My real name is Rhonda Lillie and I live in California. For the past 4 years I have been involved in a virtual world called Second Life where I met Paul Hawkins, a man from Wales. Our avatars met on January 11th, 2005 in a club owned by one of his friends. This was of course a virtual club. On this night, I never would have guessed that I would meet a man that would fill my heart with so much love. I never would have guessed in a million years that anyone could fulfill my heart the way he did. How was I to know what I had been missing for so long in my life, when I wasn't even looking?
I have the saying up on this myspace that says: "You don't know what you've got until it's gone, but it's also true that you don't know what you have been missing until it arrives."
That was exactly what I realized when I met Paul.
In this virtual game, my name is Heart and his is Joe. We usually call each other by these names, as a term of endearment now, because we both know each other as Rhonda and Paul, but still prefer to call each other by our avatars names. It's kind of how we got to know each other so it makes us feel that these names are very special to us.
There's too much to tell in here, but if you are interested in knowing more just keep reading, and you'll learn a lot about us.
Click the book above to go to Amazon.com to check it out. This is the book that Joe and I have our story in.
Links where I am online:
( or, you can google me as Rhonda Lillie or Heart Wishbringer or heartshinegirl if you really want to.)
I would be happy in the rain, anywhere... anytime.
One day
I will meet you
and we wont be alone anymore.
Update: We Met.... and I don't feel alone anymore. :)
What Myers-Briggs type are you? I'm an INFP. Find out what you are at: Myers-Briggs Type It's completely free and you can know your type in only 4 questions. :)
I'm often asked which religion I am, and I always tell people the truth. I don't go to church, but for a long time I did, as a child I was raised Mormon, and then in my teens I went to different churches testing the waters, and my favorite of them was the Buddhist religion. Then, in my twenties I went back to the Mormon church and was even baptised in 1993. While being 8 months pregnant. I really wanted to attend and follow the church but within a short time I realized that although I really loved the teachings about family and loved the people in the church I realized I was really feeling "not worthy" in so many ways. I mean, I did everything wrong... I cursed, I drank caffeine beverages, I watched all the wrong movies, and basically... broke every rule, so I realized I do not want to conform to any religion and although religion is a great thing and very good for many people I found it very suffocating and very against all that I am. I'm really really bad at "Conforming" because in my mind/opinion god loves me anyways, and I believe that with all my heart. So,.. I have no church, when I pray, I pray anywhere that I am, and on the beach and anywhere. :)
I do like this site though : http://www.novus.org/home/index.cfm
Who I'd like to meet:
:: Joe Stravinsky ::
This is me and Joe... I'm a very short avatar and he's a very tall one... he's probably the tallest avatar in the game.. I would bet on it. At 7 foot 9 inches tall with the tallest legs, and body height in the game, as well as the tallest hair and the tallest heels on mens boots that you can get... this is my Vampire... my Joe...
And, I am quite small for a woman in the game, most of them are tall thin lanky models with long legs... I prefered the short little athletic built body for myself. Although I am not a tall avatar... I do get noticed...
Together we make up "Hearts Desire" and together is the way in which we work best.
So, it is my dream... then to meet "Joe".
Do you think you know me?
I'd love to invite you to answer these questions.... see how well you really know me, you might be surprised!
Go on, I dare you and after... why not make your own and dare me too!
Joe and I finally met in London on July 19th, 2007. He proposed to me on the same day at an Italian Cafe on the river Thames after we ate a wonderful dinner. The first 24 hours that we were together was nothing short of Wonderful, but we had a hard time finding 'alone' time. The very moment I landed at Heathrow Airport in London I was hooked up to a microphone by Emma from ITV ( Films of Record ) as we were being documented by film for our series on WebLives at www.itv.com. So, needless to say our meeting wasn't very private. Matter of fact we had no time alone for the first day we were together. Movie cameras, reporters, and photographers filmed us meeting, and recorded our cries of joy when we met! We held each other for a good 30 minutes and didn't let go. I thought I was going to faint from the excitement of it all, and Joe didn't want to look up from my shoulder where he kept his face hidden in my neck. I kept kissing him and holding him, it was really nice for the both of us to finally be able to touch each other after being virtually wed for 2 1/2 years. And, to make the proposal even more beautiful.. he proposed to me in the rain... as it began to rain on us just after we finished eating, and we were sitting outside in the rain eating at this Italian Cafe... and he proposed right there... and he knows how much I love the rain! How romantic is that?!
Here's the ring he proposed to me with and the description of it.
The word cariad has deep meaning in the Welsh language and is an expression of love. It means beloved, sweetheart or darling and is derived from the Latin word carus. This Cariad Engagement ring cradles a superb 10 point, princess-cut diamond. The high quality, 'G' colour, 'VS' (very slight inclusion) clarity diamond is set in an inimitable white gold 'CG' claw which is fashioned into a slender 9ct yellow gold shank. This exquisite ring contains a touch of rare Welsh gold mined from the mountains of Gwynedd and carries the unique Welsh Dragon and Clogau Gold hallmarks - the perfect symbol of your engagement.
hi rhonda =) i had'nt seeen you around campus this week. so sorry im not able to make it on halloween =( it sounds like fun n randall sounds oooh so yumi! im volunteering at a halloween party for the kids at the lighthouse and then im taking my son trick or treating...so by the time im done i will be so tired. no fun. anyhow i wanted to let you know in advance. enjoy your weekend girly =)
HAPPY B-DAY RHONDA..HERE IS A LIL TASTE OF HOW WE CELEBRATE OUR B-DAYS IN MY HOME TOWN IN MEXICO WITH THIE TYPE OF MUSIC... HOPE UR ENJOYING UR B-DAY AMIGA ...U KNOW.. BEST WISHES FO'YA ALWAYS
Hey Rhonda! Thanx for the add. I was excited when I found yall on here. I sent your sister a request too. For facebook & myspace. Hope we can catch up soon. I saw the pics of your girls. OMG time has passed fast. Did you see my 3 kids?
hi rhonda =) just thought of u and wanted to say hey. keep me updated on your p.e. regime. when you show up 2 skool in the fall looking like a porn star i am gonna be soooo jealous! you already got beauty and brains but bodacious curves wont hurt none lol!
