Who I'd like to meet:

What is in the past...we must accept...it can not be changed...it is ridiculous to fight over what has already happened.

We must instead...work TOGETHER...on what IS happening...and what WILL happen.

Lets not seek blame for HISTORY...but accept responsibility for the present...and plan for the future!

Heavy Fed
March 2008

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Anti-Racism...not Anti-Racist, Anti-Hate...not Anti-Hater!

I used to infiltrate hate groups for the fun of it...but always turned over any and all evidence to the FBI...I never worked for them in any official capacity...though I was offered the chance to several times...I was just not into following rules...I was just too much of a radical.

Heavy Fed
September 2007

Heavy Fed can be reached at: HeavyFed@yahoo.com

Heavy Fed throughout his life worked "with" and not "for" many different Police agencies including but not limited to the US Marshals Service, the DEA, the FBI and various other local and state law enforcement agencies...
but he was never paid, he felt it was his duty.

He traveled around North and Central America as a self styled Lone Ranger after being released from the US Navy, getting involved and stopping crimes ranging from Murder to Petty Theft all across the land.
His travels took him to Alaska where he worked as a Commercial Fisherman, there he earned enough money to do what he wanted in his off time. In his off time, he fought crime...in his own way.

In 1997 after his father was diagnosed with Liver Cancer Heavy left Alaska for the last time to return home.

After Heavy's father died in November of 1998 he was incredibly upset with Shell Chemical who he blamed for his fathers death.
In the 1970's Heavy's father had worked in the Shell Refinery located in Deer Park, Texas. Shell provided vats of Benzene for their employees to wash their tools in each day before they went home to their families.
Heavy's father came home each day in his Benzene soaked clothing exposing the entire family to this toxic chemical.
Heavy's mother washed his father's work clothes every day and is now suffering from the extreme effects of Lupus.

Heavy carried with him this intense anger and soon began roaming around looking for something to take it out on.
It was 1999...Y2K was fast approaching...Heavy knew if something big was going to happen in Texas...Austin would be a prime target...and Heavy knew from experience where to look for extremists...after all he had spent quite a lot of time with his father attending "Gun Shows" and other functions where he had run into them before.
He was approached and recruited by a National Alliance member (a neo-nazi organization) early in 1999 at a Gun Show in Austin, Texas. Accidentally.
Heavy knew right from the start what he was getting into and relished at the opportunity to infiltrate this secret organization.
Initially Heavy did not share their racist beliefs but
soon, after months of consuming mass amounts of the National Alliance's disinformation and propaganda, Heavy playing racist for many months got so into it that he began espousing their racist ideologies as if they were his own.
Playing the part, as only Heavy Fed can do.
Heavy Fed explains, "Basically what I did was play a slightly ignorant but yet worldly white man who was not quite yet a racist, I let them nurture the hate in me...I watched hours upon hours of their propaganda videos...went to every meeting...volunteered to work gun shows recruiting...my own mother believed I had turned racist...in fact my whole family believed it...I had to make everyone believe it and this caused many fights...and this was a big stretch for me...I mean I had in fact spent most of the prior 5 years of my life living down in Mexico, Guatemala and El Salvador...then suddenly I'm a hate everyone but whites racist?...You can bet I should have won an Academy Award for that. I just went with it, I really let myself go, I believe I actually felt hate, in my heart...I mean I could taste it...and the taste made me sick...and the sickness I felt...made me even angrier...which made me an even better candidate for what was to come next.
In the end I had the National Alliance believing I was salivating to do something to "Save" the white race. You see, that's what they are looking for...all these Hate web sites...trolling for easily influenced people...young white suburban kids mostly...with contempt for everything and anyone around them...just looking for someone to take that hate out on...hating gives them purpose. Their race gives them reason and a sense of duty...a duty in their minds to save their dying race."


Then late in the summer of 1999, Heavy saw Eminem's video "Guilty Conscience" on MTV and was blown away by Eminem's artful use of prose.
He went out the very next day and bought his CD.
Heavy listened to that CD at least 20 times the first day and before long was buying other artist's CD's as well.
Never before did Heavy ever find anything that made his mind click the way rap music did.
He often found himself listening to his Rap music while participating in National Alliance functions keeping his rap CD's in Hate music cases.
Heavy began feeling himself pulled in the Rap direction.
He was planning on leaving the National Alliance, nothing was happening anyway, he had been hinting at "Looking to do some "Real" work for the Alliance" without any true bites, but just as Heavy was about to leave he was approached by another member and offered a job at a company that serviced air conditioners for large buildings.
Heavy went in the next day for an interview and was greeted by a man with a name right out of the Civil War.
This man invited Heavy into his office and began telling him how happy he was going to be having another White man working for him. He said he had Mexicans working for him that he was looking to replace with a few Alliance members if he could.
This man played "Cat and Mouse" with Heavy telling many racist jokes to assure himself that they were "On the same page."
Then things turned ominous as this man began talking about having the blueprints to many of the large buildings he serviced including some sort of FBI interrogation building.
He asked Heavy if he would be interested in taking a job where he could have acccess to this building for the National Alliance.
Heavy said "You bet" shaking on the inside.
The man joked some more and then started talking about Timothy McVeigh and what a good soldier he was. "You have an opportunity here Charles", the man said.
By this time a cold wave that began at the base of Heavy's spine had taken up residence on the back of his neck.
Heavy knew then that he no longer wanted to play racist but left agreeing to return to start work the following Monday.
Instead he went to the FBI.
Those members of the National Alliance had plans on blowing up that FBI building for Y2K...in fact the National Alliance had a multi-state bomb plot going on where they had plans to bomb at least two Federal buildings in at least two different states, all set to go off for Y2K to cause a major panic.
Heavy stopped them.

Heavy Fed----The reason Y2K was a non-event!

Rap music had taken him from the clutches of hate and delivered him into a world of love and music.


.................. As human beings we have an innate desire to belong to a group...however...your inclusion into a group should never come at the expense or the suffering of another. If you have to do something...or say something...that costs another...for you to be accepted...then you are selling yourself short...and the expense is far too great.

"We as people of the Earth need to come together... and see not our differences...but our similarities...as caring human beings... we should put down our weapons and open our arms to love one another...and rejoice at the paradise we create."

Heavy Fed
January 2007

"Hate dooms both the hated and the hater."
Heavy Fed 2006

I have not yet given up on my Country...I have not yet given up my freedom...and I will not relinquish my right or my sworn duty to oppose those who seek to destroy my Country or it's freedoms be they friend or foe, enemies foreign or domestic.

Those that are willing to fight with me are welcome, those opposed...are damned.

Heavy Fed..
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