'I have a Social Disease. I have to go out every night. If I stay home one night I start spreading rumors to my dogs' - Andy Warhol
'I feel confident I should have been a rebel Angel had the opportunity been mine' - John Keats
Music
My music tastes vary considerably because I use music as a wonder-drug to alter my moods. I’m a huge believer that music can influence emotional states and even ultimately have an effect on physical behaviour. I’m a rock chick at heart, but I think I’m softening with age :-) My current drugs of choice are:
Million Empire (go listen to these guys, they're awesome), H.I.M, Muse, My Chemical Romance, the Used, The Flaming Lips, The Smashing Pumpkins,The Arcade Fire, The Killers, Juliette &the Licks, Lady Gaga, Cyndi Lauper, Death Cab for Cutie, Green Day, Gwen Stefani, Do Me Bad Things, Harry, The Network, Rammstein, The Dresden Dolls, The World Inferno Friendship Society, Dieterich Buxtehude, Domenico Scarlatti, Frédéric Chopin (nocturnes only), Ludovico Einaudi, The Offspring, System Of A Down, The Ramones, Cat Power, Nouvelle Vague, Foo Fighters, Blondie, LeatherMouth, the Chilli Peppers, Placebo, The Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Damien Rice, Queen, Marilyn Manson, The 69 Eyes, Antony and the Johnsons, Goldfrapp, Blink 182, Weezer, Rocco Deluca and the Burden, Anathema, The Ataris, Goo Goo Dolls, Lacuna Coil, Head Automatica, QOTSA, Stars, Aqualung, Fall Out Boy, Death in Vegas
.....and anything played on Honey, my Guitar...
‘I'm just a musical prostitute, my dear’ - Freddie Mercury
'Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are’ – Kurt Cobain
'Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit and never let them take you alive’ - Gerard Way
'It's horrible when you're giving a microphone a blowjob and it's giving you negative feedback' - Ville Valo
Movies
The Lost Boys, Donnie Darko, True Romance, Shaun of the Dead, Who's Afraid of Virginia Woolf?, The Hunger, A Clockwork Orange, Nosferatu (1922), Pulp Fiction, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (1971), Snow White and the Seven Dwarves, Lord of the Flies, The Pink Panther series.
'My mother said it was simple to keep a man, you must be a maid in the living room, a cook in the kitchen and a whore in the bedroom. I said I'd hire the other two and take care of the bedroom bit' – Jerry Hall
'The secret thoughts of a man run over all things. Holy, profane, clean and obscene, monsters and angels, grave and light: without shame or blame – Hobbes, Leviathan
Books
Research related blather most of the time. I write almost every day so I don't have much time to read for fun...well, that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it!
'I slept with faith and found a corpse in my arms on awakening; I drank and danced all night with doubt and found her a virgin in the morning'- Aleister Crowley
'How blessed are some people, whose lives have no fears, no dreads, to whom sleep is a blessing that comes nightly, and brings nothing but sweet dreams' – Bram Stoker, Dracula
'Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in
the process he does not become a monster. And when you look into an abyss,the abyss also looks into you' - Nietzche
'Never imagine yourself not to be otherwise than what it might appear to others that what you were or might have been was not otherwise than what you had been would have appeared to them to be otherwise' – The Duchess, Alice in Wonderland
CURRENT MOON
'An infant is a seed. Is it an oak seed or a cabbage seed? Who knows? All mothers think their children are oaks, but the world never lacks for cabbages' - Robertson Davies
Heroes
Charles Baudelaire, Lord Byron, Bram Stoker, Anne Rice, Jean-Paul Satre, Jean Paul Gaultier, Mario Prada, Vivienne Westwood, Freddie Mercury, Ville Valo, Wayne Coyne, Billy Corgan, Jack Daniels, Quentin Tarantino, Morton Smith, Daffy Duck, Anubis, John Donne, Dr. John Dee, Eliphas Lévi, Paracelsus, Dita Von Teese, Bettie Page, Immodesty Blaise, Marlene Dietrich, Mae West, Frank N Furter (from ‘The Rocky Horror Picture Show’) and Marvin the Martian.
'Death be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadfull, for, thou art not so,
For, those, whom thou think'st, thou dost overthrow, Die not, poore death, nor yet canst thou kill me' - John Donne
Welcome to my personal webpage. I am a professional pianist/musician, artist's muse, sugar fiend, heels junkie, academic researcher,
subculture loving woman-child...
....a delicious cocktail of the very profound and the utterly ridiculous…
B flat major, red nail polish, the art of Albrecht Durer, Hieronymus Bosch, Francisco Goya and Gil Elvgren, the Burlesque, ancient languages, Egyptian art, the Secret Gospel of Mark, desserts that come in ‘chocolate’ and ‘big f**k off size’, americana, the short stories of Edgar Allen Poe, the playwright Edward Albee, hypnotism and suggestion, Rockabilly art, Chartreuse and lemonade, steampunk, Gary Larson's 'Far Side', vampires, funfairs and penny arcades, playing Chopin nocturnes, vaudeville, skyscraper heels, abyssinian cats, guitar feedback, oddballs and curios, Danny Elfman, Apollonius of Tyana, Roquefort cheese, hammering a decent sized church organ and plugging in my amp
I intensely dislike:
Homophobes, Boxing Day, toast, D. H. Lawrence and academic arsiness
I have old fashioned values, but modern morals
I see beauty (and comedy) in the most terrible things
I prefer the company of cats
I believe that the body is simply an instrument through which we experience the world. We should therefore be experimental with it and not seek to preserve it unnaturally
I believe that the Devil, not God, sees your every move
I have a silly and sometimes obscene sense of humour
I find conventionally good-looking people boring to look at
I feel most alive in the unfamiliar
I have spent the evening in a Masonic Temple on several occasions
I could quite happily survive on Kinder eggs and Haribo sweets :)
I love to play the piano alone in the dark but it creeps me out
I am prone to an excessive use of exclamation marks!
I love to make people laugh
I believe that you should either wear heels or go barefoot
I like to be intrigued, but not terrified
I never, ever, weigh myself
I don’t have any tattoos or piercing, apart from the infamous ‘vampire bite’ on my left side ;)
I am equally repulsed by superiority and inverse snobbery
I compromise fairly
I believe that religion can be marvellously liberating or horrifically debilitating
I do not believe in any of this ‘let go of the past and look to the future’ bullshit
I feel devastatingly guilty if I accidentally step on a bug, but I think that humans are essentially selfish, self-righteous, foul, pestilent sacks of bile and gasses and I would happily and without hesitation, press the big red button and blow us all to buggery...
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Thank you for crossing my threshold, stay as long as you like, say hi or sign the guestbook to let me know that you passed through.
Pleased to meet you,
This above all:
to thine own self be true,
And it must follow, as the night the day,
Thou canst not then be false to any man
- Polonius, Hamlet, Act I Scene III
Me playing Metallica's 'Nothing Else Matters' on a church organ (see blog for more pieces....)
Who I'd like to meet:
Artists, musicians, performers, scholars, writers, old friends, new friends, generally friendly folk and anyone not afraid to venture from the mundane.
I’m talking to the guys here - No, I will not fancy you and I do not want to go for a drink sometime. I’m here to swap thoughts, dreams, giggles, friendship and good music. Not body fluids. It is highly unlikely that I will add you if a) you are single and obviously dating, or b) I suspect that you are a chick-collector (ie your friends lists consist purely of young women). Sorry to be harsh, but I’m sure that most gals reading this would totally agree with my sentiments.
Also I don't normally add people who have their profiles set to private unless they contact me first.
Ciao, my sweet and delicious Helen!!!!! How are you? All is going well? Have you passed a great weekend? I'm so glad to see you, today! I've opened my page today, after almost 10 days.........thanx too much for haven't forgotten me!!!!! I'm fine, my dear Friend, and busy, really busy........as you've seen about my absence! I'm not working in my factory, but I'm really busy to find something to do....... I spend my time in my syndicate, and perhaps in january there will be news....... beautiful news, I hope! Here all is ok........ with my family and with my life........ the winter has arrived, and the cold too...... and also christmass is arriving....yeah!!!!! I want wish you a delicious day and a wonderful week, sweet Helen...... never I forget you!!!! See you soon! hugs and black kisses!
Ciao, my delicious Helen! How are you, my dear Friend? How has begun the new day? I'm fine, and also today I'm ready to begin the day in the right way: with a smile in my face! Today I've got a little free time in the morning for be here and write you, but after I'll be very busy.... and tomorrow will be difficult I'll be online, because I'll pass all the day in the office...... tomorrow will start the new weekend, sweetie, and I profit of today for wish you a delicious day and a fantastic weekend!!!!! See you soon! I miss you!<bR
....after the funeral nation tour 2009 with Vader and Marduk I'm still alive.........my bones are still in pain, but I'm alive... and really glad!!!!! Here some pics of my metal night in Rome.....with Friends and some of Marduk! I wish you a great day and a fantastic new week, my Friend!! See you soon!!! I miss you too much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hugs and black kisses!!!
I want wish you a fantastic and delicious weekend, my sweet Helen, full of love and joy, but always remembering the terrible event of the twin towers....we must remember....... See you soon! hugs and black kisses!
Ciao, my sweet and delicious Helen! How are you today? You're better? Are you ready for the new weekend? What you'll do? I'm ready, as always......... I don't know what I'll do..... time is strange..... the sky is full of clouds, and I hope soon will rain...... but also yesterday time was so, but there wasn't rain.... only a terrible heat.....and you know, if time will be good, there will be time for a walk in the forest, with my family, of course!!!!! Well, I want wish you an enchanting day and an irresistible weekend, my fantastic Helen!!!! See you soon!!! hugs and black kisses!
Ciaoooooo!!!! Finally I see you again, my delicious and unforgettable Helen!!! How are you? All is better with your arm? I'm really sorry for this.....I hope you don't suffer too much......I've missed you too much, sweetie!!! Today the day has begun in the right way? I'm well, a little tired but I'm well.... writing to my Friends is a good way to begin good the day....Friends are important, always! Here is still hot, too much hot, and this make the day vary hard....... I hope soon will arrive the fresh air!!! The sky is full of clouds............where is the rain? I want wish you a great day,my enchanting Helen, full of fantastic things!!!!! See you soon! I'll love your visit, your fast visit!!! hugs and black kisses!!!
Dreaming my weekend in the fresh air in my mountains, my sweet Friend, I wish you an unforgettable weekend, full of all you love and make you happy!!!! See you soon! I miss you too much.... where are you? hugs and black kisses!
Hope you're feeling a little bit brighter and your arm doesn't ache too much... ah! that made it sound as if I didn't mind it aching a little bit... but I don't... want it to ache at all, not don't mind if I did ache (even a little) ... bloody hell, communicating with other people is difficult isn't it???
Haha - and there's me thinking that that cloak of vulnerability was a carefully constructed and deliberate lure to make us men feel all manly! ;) ... you needing a pick-up?? Never!!! :D Yes, please do pass on my compliments (can never remember if it is with an 'e' or an 'i') to Rob. I tried to post a comment, but it won't let me unless I'm a friend. But I am genuinely very impressed with his work. I mean talk about making silk purses from sow's ears.... ouch! I see you haven't forgotten how to administer chinese burns!!!
Wow!!! H!!! The new photos by Rob are INCREDIBLE. You look absolutely stunning in them - and far too sexy for anyone's good!! :P I LOVE the ones where Rob has caught you in them - that fatal combination of such strength and vulnerability.
Ciaoooooo!!!!! How are you, my incredible Friend? All is going well? Finally is still weekend!!! Yesterday I was in Rome for meet my english brother Agamoth of Abgott, as you can see in my pic.......time was too much hot, and the travel really a massacre, but has been fantastic have a day for my Friend!!!!!! Unfortunately he lives so far........grrr!!!!! Today begin an other weekend, and today begin my holiday too..... I'll be offline for about two weeks.....I don't know what I'll do or where I'll go, but I hope you'll don't forget me.......and you'll wait my return!!!!!! I'll think of you, don't worry!!!!!! Well, I want wish you a fantastic day, an incredible weekend and a unforgettable august!!!! See you soon! hugs and black kisses!!!
Time To Pick Your Poison: Heaven in High Heels or Hell on Earth.
Welcome to the darkest summer in the history of Birmingham burlesque, and the culprit behind this black summer? None other than Gehenna of the Silk Stocking Striptease Show. However, never fear, bringing the light to the event will be Angel LaVey of the Silk Stocking Striptease Show. Whether you want something, light and comical or dark and deviant, the 9th Silk Stocking Striptease Show will have something for you. Pick your poison, light or dark, we have it all and we guarantee to satisfy your cravings.
The Silk Stocking Striptease Show Nine will be taking place on the 8th of August 2009 at The Flapper Pub. Tickets will cost you £7.50 in advance from www.birminghamburlesque.com and will be on sale until midday on the 8th of August. You will be able to buy tickets on the door at £9 each, subject to availability. The doors to the show open at 7:30pm and the show will begin at 8:30pm.
The Silk Stocking Striptease Show is sponsored by WWW.SMELLYOURMUM.COM offensive slogan t-shirts.
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