Linz LupHyde

Who am I? Occasionally I was personally confused, who was I? But together with passing of time, slowly I began to understand who myself. I was the only daughter in my family. They spoiled me, gave what was wanted by me, and more considered me important than the older brother and my brother. Despite this, I was educated with discipline especially if being linked with the problem of the religion. The influence in the family circle made me become the child who had a gentle attitude, the hero, critical, sensitive, was easy to be touched, and want to make a sacrifice for the other person. But had the side that occasionally I did not like in myself, I could have not refused the person's other request. Was annoying very much must do the actual matter did not want to be done by us. But I indeed could not refuse. It was daily that I like the adolescent generally, playing and discipline in studying. But since that time, since that night my life not be the same again. At that time I sat in the class bench 3 junior secondary schools. I did the task of the school till late at night. So that the atmosphere is not too quiet, I lighted radio to listen to songs. At 01:30, a song was turned. And for the first time I cried because of a song. I was personally surprised why that could happen. My tear streamed down and my heart pounded quickly. I really liked the song that was turned. And the song was entitled Hitomi no Juunin. The song that really extraordinary! The beautiful melody wave and the voice that sliced the heart. Really the most beautiful song that had been heard by me all my life. Tomorrow when that was the same me deliberate listened to radio in the hope of could listen to the song of Hitomi no Jyuunin again. And the Lord granted my request again. Exact in the hour that was the same the song was turned, and again and again my tear streamed down. Since that time, for the first time also I felt I fell in love. Love someone that in fact I did not know who he. Slowly I began to find out everything about the song, was begun from his band. Evidently his band was L’Arc~en~Ciel. The band that his songs were often listened to by me. But possibly because could the vacuum, therefore I had an opportunity to not recognise the owner of the song. That most made me be attracted was vocalist. I really liked his voice. I really liked him. Possibly because beforehand you were still small, so I did not understand had the feeling liked that was different. My feeling to HYDE really was different from all the feelings liked that had been experienced by me. With very fast the leading figure succeeded in controlling me. I could not really be free by him now. How could it be that. Someone who could make me say love words that had never been said by me! His voice drugged me! It seems empty if a day did not listen to his voice that was beautiful and really be different from that was other. The HYDE voice had unique. Could not was ignored by me that HYDE very handsome. Really the noose that captured. His face was very perfect! Really like the angel! I most liked when seeing him smiled! Really beautiful! I did not suppose had the smile was as beautiful as that in this world. And why the smile could be as sweet as that? I was really surprised! Apart from handsome, HYDE also very pretty. I was convinced his face that place that was caused because of his face that was too appropriate! Love HYDE! But I had heard a sentence: Not perfect that caused us to love someone, but the love that caused someone to be seen perfect. That happened to myself. For me, HYDE was the very perfect noose! Not the defect in himself. However, that was most important not that. HYDE was the person who was most influential in my life! Because of HYDE, I became like this. HYDE changed myself 180 degrees. I who beforehand really was different from me that now. That was seen in the Change in my clothed style, my look method concerning something, my method in considering something, my method have an attitude, my method spoke, and that was biggest his influence was about my sensitivity. Became someone who was very sensitive. That made me be able easily to understand the feeling of the other person. Many people who often told his problem to me, because they felt comfortable when telling the problem to me and I could always appreciate them. Then I always tried to dismiss my opinion was related with the problem that was dealt with by them. The biggest step that was carried out by me was me took the route that was the same as HYDE, that is the design. I want to felt close to him and HYDE always gave me the spirit when I experienced the difficulty with his songs. HYDE really the very astonishing noose. During in also I was struggling for him. I want to very much met him. With himself! With HYDE! The person who was most significant in my life! The person who too much was loved by me and loved! The person that really all of them for me!