Rest in peace, Big Proof {4/11/06}
You're still missed. {We won't forget about you}
Music
There’s only so many ways I can say those two words
I know you don’t want to hear them but it kills two birds
With one stone. I’m sorry. I couldn’t contain it
Like a beast in a cage I couldn’t restrain it
I hope this isn’t sloppy or choppy but its all off top
Like I can’t say what I think and this is a lost thought
My mind is racin and full of static can’t change the station
I can’t think of anyone I’d rather be with in this situation
You’re not alone cuz I’m always with you whether you know it or not
I’m like a fugitive in my own mind and its your fault I haven’t been caught
Cuz you bring me back to my sanity damn near every day
I hear your voicemails and let it play just to hear what you say
Your voice is like the cure to a self introduces toxin
It’d be easier to ignore my problems, but that’s not an option
You help me face them and for that I’m forever grateful
Hateful towards those who hurt me you never labeled
I was always a person to you not an idea or a thought
I was like an ideal and that’s what I was taught
You brought me back from misery
It’s something like a mystery
How this skinny white girl could battle a giant with no fear
When I was too scared to stand I knew you were here
I’ll take the front and you can take the rear
No homo cuz I know you think I’m a fuckin queer (hahah)
I just want you to know that it will be ok
And I’m never gonna leave you alone… no way
You don’t have to feel this way because really nothing’s changed
Joelle trust me, it’s still the same
I won’t try too hard I know what I say
You don’t have to worry about anything because I’m here, ok?
I know who you are, and I always have
I thought you wanted something I couldn’t grasp
I’ll take a second out just to give you one more look
You’re an adorable white girl who can barely cook
You don’t wear pants just to make a statement
As a little girl you busted your lip on the pavement
You make jew jokes to cheer up all your friends
And decided to take one in, probably til the end
Despite her flaws or anyone else’s you look past
And even though you play tough you break fast
It’s a complicated definition that I’m spittin
But it’s all natural in a freestyle position
You’re perfect to me and I’ve always told you that
You’re my best friend and sister and I’ll never take it back
You think you’re a loser but I think you have self respect
And we’ll argue about it I’m sure but I’ll win most def
Damn this thing is getting long as hell, you’re not that tough
To describe and define maybe I’ve said enough?
Yeah I think you get the point and I’m always ready
To make sure you’re viewing yourself steady
And you’re not losing focus on the bright side
And I might lie about your hair just to make you stop cryin
I love you more than anything and anyone
You’re my everything and my everyone
Can’t let you go so I stress you ho
And since I believe in God I can bless you though
Cuz you deserve more than you get and I try to make up
Makin you happy is like the best hobby to take up
It’s not a dream so you can’t wake up
You’re stuck with me forever so suck it up
Nothing you can do about it
And I wouldn’t wanna do without it
80 hour convos make my night complete
And I’ll always be here for you until my life depletes
♥
Written by your future boss, James Royall. (Iloveyou.)
Movies
8 MILE ♥
Aviator, Blood Diamond, Disturbia, Finding Nemo, Gia, Happy Feet, Harry Potterrr 1-4, Just Married, Little Black Book, Lords of Dogtown, LOTR 1-3, Mr. and Mrs. Smith, Napolean Dynamite, Pirates of the Carribean 1-3, The Departed, The Notebook, The Princess Diaries, Thirteen, Thirteen Going on Thirty, Titanic, Tristan and Isolde, Troy, She's the Man, Step Up, Uptown Girls, V for Vendetta.
Television
America's Next Top Model, Everybody Loves Raymond, Fairly Odd Parents, Friends, Made, MTV Juvies, making fun of people on Next, Roseanne, Scrubs, Southpark, any stand up comedy, True Life, Will and Grace.
Books
1984, Aimee, FEARLESS series, Georgia Nicolson series, Harry Potter 1-7, Illumination Night, Keeping Faith, Mercy, My Sister's Keeper, Perfect Match, Plain Truth, Smack, The Amber Spyglass, The Curious Incident of a Dog in the Nighttime, The Golden Compass, The Ice Queen, The Memory Keeper's Daughter, The Mermaid Chair, The Nanny Diaries, The Pact, The Secret Life of Bees, The Subtle Knife, 'Tis, Vanishing Acts, You're Not You.
If there's a book I want to read, but can't find,
I'll write it.
Heroes
If you've ever made me laugh while I was crying, If you've ever made me cry while I was laughing, If you've ever made a perfect memory for me, If you're true to yourself, If you don't make excuses for anything you love, If I've ever paused and been thankful to have you in my life, If I've confided in you, If you listened, If I've reached out to hold your hand, If I haven't been afraid to be a loser around you, If I consider you my family, If the phone rings and I hope it's you, And if you love me,
then you are my hero.
Hey Joelle, Just letting you know that the comment you left on my blog made me smile and made my day..or night...since it's night time now. :P Thanks for being you. *loves*
oh no, no fishnets?!?!? how is joelle going to exress herself??? ahhhh the insanity.
good luck with wachusett. im glad im outta there. its so weird not having all those stupid rules. but its pretty sweet. where do u wanna go to college?
Hey mojo. Im in spanish right now bored out of my fucking mind. I'm really starting to think I'm too smart for college. I mean this is how it is in all my classes. This school might be for dumb kids after all. *Sighs* At least it's an easy grade aka not waste of my money. Anyways I just thought I'd say yoooo since I now realize I have internet access in this room. I'm going to be doing some negative learning I can feel it (drop in the 187 on an Undercover Cop beat)... Sorry, couldn't help it, I'm black. Anyways I guess I should be paying attention or something so I'll talk to yopeace
