About me:

Hello, the name's Melanie. As for what I am, it's really quite difficult to say, as I am not always one way or the other and hate having to state that I am, in fact, a certain way. Everything depends on who I am with, the situation, and really what kind of mood I am in. It's been known to change on a dime. I’m just a bitter, deranged soul, trying to live my life in the past of which I wasn’t lucky enough to be a part of. I strive to be happy, although it doesn't always work out. Consistently, one thing I can say I am is passionate. Passionate about the things I love, what they mean to me, and the ideas behind them. It may not always show through, as I keep to myself a lot, but it is definitely always there. I’m a very reserved, reclusive person, with an irrational fear of speaking, so I remain mousy and shy, a lot of the time just completely refraining from speaking at all (much more than any human should, leading people to believe I'm some stuck up snob). It’s just that I lack courage and confidence to be assertive. You will most likely never meet anyone as quiet as me.

As I said, I basically live in the past. I relate to it better than I can my own reality. I ain’t at all proud to be a part of this generation, but at the same time, I believe I’m here for a reason to keep an appreciation of the bygone days alive, and to do what I can to bring knowledge to the ignorants of the world. That, or at least some sort of awareness that yes, there was a world back then, and yes, it was grand. I do feel fortunate for the technology we have these days though, because without it available to feed my obsessions, I’m afraid I would be pretty lost. I mean, as sad as it may sound, I need my computer. My life is in here. It’s where I can socialize with those I really care about, create, research, discover, collect, and spend most of my $$. I’m a pack rat when it comes to photos. The Jpeg kind, as well as the old, original, tangibles. I love the feeling of holding something in my hands, knowing it came from a time 50, 60, 70+ years ago.

Well as I said, I am bitter and have very deep emotional anger about certain things, but don’t let that stop you from getting to know me! Erm... I try to stay generally happy on the outside, but the depression has been known to kick through. Especially lately. A word of advice: Don’t break an important promise to me. What may seem like nothing to you, could mean everything to me. I am a sentimentalist at heart. There are very few I think the world of. Very, very few. So when I feel forgotten by them,...what else do I have left? That is the one strike against me that can do the most damage, and it will eat at me in ways that you can’t possibly imagine. I’m a neurotic, occasionally selfish, and self-deprecating girl who just thinks too much. Negatively. A lot of times to the extent that I temporarily lose interest in the things I should love. Trying to break these nasty faults isn't easy, but I am trying.

Apart from all this, please do not think I am some emo, meanie-head who hates everything and everyone. I really don’t. More than anything, I love to laugh. I do my best to not take life too seriously, and possibly more than laughing, I love to make others laugh. What I’m probably best known for are my video creations of random, sometimes completely asinine, parody/tributes inspired by my favorite people and things. Not all are works of art, but it’s a hobby that I enjoy, which is all that matters. You can visit my YouTube account, or one of my other sites, using the links below.

In one word what am I? Awkward. And pretty much a dud to talk to in person. And no one likes talking to a dud. And seriously, neither do I, but unfortunately, I obviously haven't conquered it yet, so I’ll just continue to live this sad, introverted life. In all honesty, I'm easiest to get to know via any other means except in person. I always welcome new acquaintances, especially with those who share my fascinations, but be aware, I can be quite territorial when it comes to my MEN. If you’ve proven yourself as a worthy enough fellow fan, we’ll most likely get along fine, haha. =)