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8/19/08
I'm already the object of attention for more people than I can handle. I should probably start doing my homework. Cody sent me a message today that really gave me hope for humanity. My roommate ate my soup. Gr.

8/18/08
First day of college = Pretty darn interesting. I shouldn't have stayed up until two last night. The drive to Augusta dragged on forever.

8/17/08
I'm gonna build a fire in the middle of August. Burn your pictures and go for a drive. Down to the Savannah river and watch the ink from your love letters fade. Come back home turn that old mattress over. Pour out my heart, try wakin' up sober. Gotta change it all tonight, I have to do whatever it takes.

8/16/08
Today might just possibly haunt me for the rest of my life. Memories of this summer are filled with you, just like you said, "You were my summer." Everything is laced with you. My clothes, my house, my car, the drive to Augusta, everything. Damn, I'm going to miss you.

8/15/08
I will stick by my decisions no matter what. I don't regret any choices I make. If I do, I have to live with them. It's hard, I know. I can do it, I know. Everyone else is feeling the same as me, I know. My heart just isn't in it. I'm sorry, I just need a break.

8/12-14/08
Boone, North Carolina. I love the mountains.

8/11/08
It's only been the first day and cross country is killing me.

8/10/08
OMG, I'm so nervous.

8/9/08
"So I was playing ninja outside last night at one in the morning and for some reason, I felt like you'd drive down the road any minute and so I kept telling myself wait five more minutes. And then it'd pass and I said, another five. And it passed and so I waited and an hour passed and then two hours and then three. I'm crazy. I can't function. I don't know what's wrong with me... We've got to put this behind us. It's going to be hard but we'll do it together. We have too. I can't live in a fantasy world."

I'm so scared. You just don't understand, I'd rather make the fantasy a reality any day.

8/8/08
I really wonder why I still care at times. I was never connected to him. I just gave him something that I wanted him to have. That I wanted to have. (I'm so selfish at times.) I liked it. I liked us. But it was all in my head. It was never a real thing. And now, I have something real. I have someone real. Someone that's worth everything. Someone who makes me feel like I'm worth everything. I love the kid. I hope my wish comes true. Because I'll be wishing the same thing for the next two years.

8/8/08
Wow, where have the days gone?

8/7/08
Ugh, I look fat in our new uniforms. ):

8/6/08
I miss him. ):

8/5/08
Only my second night in Augusta and the entire police force has been on my ass. Wtf.

8/4/08
Last night was not a surprise. You've gotta love my family.

8/3/08
When it comes down to it, when everything tastes like defeat and the road is paved with black ice, and the promised words cease to matter because no one follows through. But you don't blame them because you would run away too. When you've been running so hard for so long that you've lost your sense of direction and can't remember which way you came from. As hungry as you are, food has lost its appeal and everything good makes you sick because you feel like you don't deserve it, and all you want to do is sleep forever.
When it comes down to that, just know that i'll still be here.

8/2/08
"I don't know what you wished for but it's got me freaked the fuck out." The Dark Knight ruled.

8/1/08
It’s impossible to tell how important someone was, And what you might have missed out on, And how he might have changed it all, And how you might have changed it all for him.

7/31/08
$1000 worth of college supplies. Woah.

7/30/08
Stupid Dutch.

7/29/08
So today, I went to bed at eight this morning and got up at eleven thirty, three hours later. Then, Matt taught me how to fix his truck and change oil. Then, we went swimming to get the dirt off and out of the heat. And finally, I went shopping at wal-mart and left my fucking prescriptions somewhere and I have to buy more now. ::sigh:: Somethings I'll never learn. I love my best friend. (:

7/28/08
I crack jokes at innapropriate times.

7/27/08
Last night was... interesting.

7/26/08
My best friend rules my world. Perks pool = Blast!

7/25/08
Orientation. Yay!

7/24/08
Driving for three hours today by myself sure was fun!

7/23/08
"He's the only guy friend of yours that I've ever trusted." "What about Steele?" "I didn't trust him."

7/22/08
"I wish I could tape my voice and put it in your head when I'm gone. I'd tell you that you can do it, baby. Just keep going. You've got it in you. Keep pushing, baby. You have people to support you. All of your friends are here and cheering you on. You can do it!" (7/19/08)

7/21/08
Well it's hard to say what it is I see in you. Wonder if I'll always be with you. Words can't say, I can't do enough to prove, it's all for you.

7/20/08
Hypothetically if you were point A and theoretically if I was point B, we would be, we would be frantically melting into one massive point that could overcome anything.

My faith in you could move these mountains I am driving through. It's times like these when I wish I could teleport to you 'cause then I wouldn't have an issue.

It's just my luck to get up getting stuck to everything you are. So tonight, I'll sit and pick apart your pictures and overanalyze your words. The truth is that I've never fallen so hard.

7/19/08
Cross country practice, Going away party, Night swim.

7/18/08
I miss my best friend. ):

7/17/08
Guys trying to talk to me is one thing. Guys that I can outrun trying to talk to me is another.

7/16/08
Hiking!

7/15/08
I hate the dentist.

7/14/08
I did it. I got off my lazy ass and ran eight miles. I'm happy.

7/14/08
Deanna York ♥ Only the good die young

7/13/08
It's funny how a single statement comes true when you're not paying attention. I love you. Written form, not spoken. "Despite my feelings we can never be anymore than friends..." It sucks to be me.

7/12/08
Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe in. Breathe in.
I like dances. (:

7/11/08
"Caramel in it's natural form is very good for you. Just try it." "This pills is meant to be swallowed not chewed." "Just try it!" "Okkay.."

7/10/08
Adelaide Isabella! She's beautiful.
7lbs 2oz. 19in. 10:24 am. (:

7/9/08
OMG, WARPED TOUR! XD

7/8/08
"It's like weed strapped to your legs!"

7/7/08
Game night. Woot.

7/6/08
Lazy day.

7/5/08
I ate so much today. I ♥ Joe's Crab Shack and Barnes and Noble.

7/4/08
Fuck porch steps.

7/3/08
I'm completely out of shape. Fuck me, again.

7/2/08
Holy shit, she really is psycho. Fuck me.

7/1/08
"You're making it really hard for them." "Why?" "Because you're so hott and they aren't allowed to look at you." "Psht, what makes you say that?" "They told me."

6/30/08
I'm so glad I'm quitting my job.

6/29/08
I love how spontaneous he is. That was the only highlight to my day. Oh, and the random texts I was getting. (:

6/28/08
"I only had four hours of sleep last night, and seven hours the night before, and seven hours the night before that, and the day before that I worked, and I worked the day before that, and the day before that, and the day before that! I'm tired! Shut up!"
"Is your family like this at home?"
"OMG, we've never all lived under the same roof. Mom! No wonder we're so dysfunctional!"

6/27/08
Today was absolutely spectacular. It was everything a day should be. You've helped me accomplish one of my dreams and now I want to travel the world and see other sights like today. It was so beautiful - breath taking really. You're amazing. Rocky Horror was pretty nifty, too. (:

6/26/08
I could spend every day like today and never get tired of you.

A: "It's weird, ya know? I never wake up for anyone but I get a single phone call from you and I'm like okay, give me an hour, I'll be over soon."
M: "Yeah, I was talking to your sister and I was like, 'I'm starting to think that Angie likes me.' And she nodded and said, 'Where did you get that idea from.'"

6/25/08
I'm slightly scared of what the future holds.

6/24/08
I will punch the next person who stabs a knife in my back.
"If we were to get married, I could make you the happiest woman alive."

6/23/08
He's becoming a regular in my life. I'm glad I can call him a friend. A true friend. I need so many more of those in my life. I don't know what I would do without him.

6/22/08
There are bigger and better fish in the sea. So why do I always end up with you? Well,..that chapter of my life is over and as much as I didn't want things to end this way it has, too. I'm ready to find someone else.

6/21/08
Please dear lord, tell me you're worth it. Don't do this to me again.

6/21/08
First day of summer. I'm pretty much moved in now. Woot!

6/20/08
Movie time. I've done nothing but watch movies all day today. Oh, besides being called the "ultimate tease". Yeah, whatever.

6/19/08
I don't recall doing anything today.

6/18/08
Well, my years worth of confessions finally exceeded the text limit. So here goes to starting fresh! (: Today was one of those amazing days of summer. Even if I had little sleep and it ended with a black eye. I tried to learn how to drive stick shift but it was a little.. er.. bumpy. "Now that we're this far away I feel safe in telling you where we're really going. I'm kidnapping you and taking you to Savannah!" Good times. Good times. Nine hours. Wow.