Ok,
I just got back from 7 days and 6 nights of testing at The Cleveland Clinic. My cancer is not only back but its back with ANGER (my doc put it this way). My entire back now is eaten with this crap as its made its way-in only a couple of months!-into my muscles, ligaments, and even into my ribs. I now have several tumors on my lungs also. The back and lungs CANNOT be surgically removed! Chemo will NOT work, only slow it down but can also hurt me terribly and still not fully work. Radiation...Too much of a risk-too many areas-too large of a spread. I also have fluid on my heart and my buttocks are also infected with cancer to where I can no longer sit.
I have been given 3-6 months to live.
I do not know what to say nor to ask. I only ask that if anyone is serious about God and prayer (no mocking) then ask for a miracle. If not, ask God to please allow me to die a QUICK and PAIN-FREE death soon, ok? I am in too much pain and agony right now to even eat despite the pain killers I am using.
People will say what they want but until someone feels pain literally from head to toe then you'll never understand! I hope for death soon. Please ask God to simply have MERCY! He is supposed to be, first and foremost, even before judgment, MERCY and LOVE! Ask Him to PLEASE kill me quick instead of me coughing, choking, puking, westing away to nothing.
I do not know why He has allowed me to get burned at age 2,. to suffer years as a child in the hospital instead of playing outside with my friends. I do not know why He has allowed me YEARS of psychological torments as a result of my appearances. But after exercising and taking care of myself, I CANNOT get my head around this cancer shit! I am only 36!!!!
It was nice knowing some of you and I will be deleting contacts and certain business associates also soon...I don't want to waste your time on this. Get on with your lives!!
Good bye y'all!
Hayden
scared
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hayden i only new a short while but the man i met the first time was a big inspiration you was truely a salt of the earth person al though we all must face death someday because where there is life there is death to follow like i said i didnt know hayden as well as some of you but all i ever heard from everyone who did know this man was that he was a great person and you know that to me says it all so many times we are fooled by imposters who say they are your friends but in reality there not just a mist soon to be drifting away i would like to say this to the family of hayden gods speed and remember only the good parts of this mans life while here on earth i knew his brother danny we worked togather and may godd bless you all during this time of greif
sincerley
ranger rick caudill wmdj radio .
WHAT A STRONG FELLOW.......YOUR WORK WILL LIVE ON, MY FRIEND.....YOUR LEGACY WILL INSPIRE US ALL.......FOREVER.
JERRY MOORE
Just heard the news this morning. I know you're in a better place, and someday I'll meet you there and we'll talk about God and horror movies rock n' roll and all that cool stuff we both love.
Until then, Rest in Peace Hayden.
Miracles can happen. I've seen them happen. Incredible things, life changing, giving, things.
One is on the way for you.
You're in my prayers, as you are in so many others. You're in my thoughts. I wish you pain free days and nights. I wish you health and contentment.
I wish a very long life.
All my best
Rose
Hayden, you know I am thinking of you and praying for you. I have said it before and I will say it again,you never know what God has in mind but he has his reasons for everything. If he does decide it is time to take you home I know it has to be only because he is jealous that we get to enjoy your company instead of him. Luvya always,Angel
Hayden,
don't know if you remember me or not. I graduated with Jamie. I lost my mom to cancer November 25, 2003. I moved back to P-burg for a few months to care for her. On some level I understand what you are going through. I watched the person I loved more than any other suffer through it. I held her hand when God came to get her, and it was truly a powerful moment. His presence filled the room and my body, it was strong and peaceful. Months after she was gone she marked a page in my bible, well that sounds crazy I know, but nothing else would explain why a paper with her name on it marked the page with my favorite verse on it. I didn't put it there, I didn't even know where it was in the bible, I just knew it as a song Ms. Frazier taught us. I had even sang it to my mom when she was sick. Well it gave me comfort at a horrible time in my life and I want to share it with you.
"The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you; the Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace" Numbers 6: 24-26. This is my prayer for you.
The Lord works in mysterious ways that we are not meant to understand, just part of being human I guess. But there is a reason you are here, and there is always hope. I will pray for you to be healed and for God to hold you in His hands.
Hayden,
My friend's prayer group sent me this e-mail, after a call out to pray for you:
"NO problem too big for our God to handle! Consider it done! The Word is out and Alive!
Okay, all you prayer warriors, we know what to do!!!! In the mighty name of Jesus!!!
God bless us all!!"
My family also prayed for you at dinner last night.
While I was in my hot tub at 11:30 last night, I saw a falling star/meteor. I gave the wish to you for a miracle.
Blessings and good wishes,
Jenny
Hayden,
It pains me to hear this news. Know that we both (Jeanne and I) love you very much and will be praying for you. It has been an honor to be your friend and know that you've always inspired us to follow our loves and challenge ourselves in new ways. We truly appreciate you, your friendship and your inspiration.
If you need anything at all my brother, you contact us, we're just an hour north.
Peace and love be with you.
Brian & Jeanne
aka
The Cleavers
Hello Hayden, I am John Stephens sister Cindy, I'm not sure if you remember me or not, but like all the others have said, you have been a true inspiration to others. I know that you have suffered your entire life, but I truly believe that God has used you in a way that none of us yet understand. Many people care about deeply. I want you to know that I have seen God work many miracles and it could still happen for you. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers always. I pray that you will no longer suffer and that we will one day meet again. May God bless you and keep you.
Cindy (Stephens) Artrip