I just got back from 7 days and 6 nights of testing at The Cleveland Clinic. My cancer is not only back but its back with ANGER (my doc put it this way). My entire back now is eaten with this crap as its made its way-in only a couple of months!-into my muscles, ligaments, and even into my ribs. I now have several tumors on my lungs also. The back and lungs CANNOT be surgically removed! Chemo will NOT work, only slow it down but can also hurt me terribly and still not fully work. Radiation...Too much of a risk-too many areas-too large of a spread. I also have fluid on my heart and my buttocks are also infected with cancer to where I can no longer sit.
I have been given 3-6 months to live.
I do not know what to say nor to ask. I only ask that if anyone is serious about God and prayer (no mocking) then ask for a miracle. If not, ask God to please allow me to die a QUICK and PAIN-FREE death soon, ok? I am in too much pain and agony right now to even eat despite the pain killers I am using.
People will say what they want but until someone feels pain literally from head to toe then you'll never understand! I hope for death soon. Please ask God to simply have MERCY! He is supposed to be, first and foremost, even before judgment, MERCY and LOVE! Ask Him to PLEASE kill me quick instead of me coughing, choking, puking, westing away to nothing.
I do not know why He has allowed me to get burned at age 2,. to suffer years as a child in the hospital instead of playing outside with my friends. I do not know why He has allowed me YEARS of psychological torments as a result of my appearances. But after exercising and taking care of myself, I CANNOT get my head around this cancer shit! I am only 36!!!!
It was nice knowing some of you and I will be deleting contacts and certain business associates also soon...I don't want to waste your time on this. Get on with your lives!!
Good bye y'all!