Christina Dolwick

Im getting sick of all these people trying to add as many friends as they can..Like its a popularity contest..It's stupid and childish..So therefor I'm going to start deleting some "friends".. I have way too many that I don't know at all or don't even talk to or havn't even spoke one single word too.. It's pointless to have all those people so Im going to start deleting them..If you would like to stay then message me and tell me...Please don't do this if you have no intentions of doing that. Thank You.

Well....Let's see here... I'm 21 years old. Finally. Haha. I live in Billings MT... I moved here May to be with the love of my life. To finally be together....Forever. Speaking of which, No many how many times I say it, it don't seem to matter.. But no I am not looking for anyone else.. I don't want to have any "fun" or "playful games" or however you all tend to put it, with anyone else. I found and have all that I ever want and need. So, no thanks.. Don't even bother me if that is what you're looking for.. No need to waste your time and try or ask, cause it won't happen.

Okay, now on to other things..I'm a very shy person at first but at the same time I don't give a fuck what people think of me... It usually gets twisted around.. Most people, who don't take the time to get to know me, think I am stuck up or what have ya..but that's not it at all. Which brings me to..that is why you don't judge people before you get to know them. I really don't like or can't stand people who are like this. It just goes to show how immature people really are and can be. As well as that, I can't stand Liars, Thieves, Fakes, Cheats...etc..you know. If you can't be yourself and earn your own shit then you're nothing..Just a piece of shit. If you have to lie or steal to live your life or whatever then you're just a waste.. Pathetic to put it easy..If you are one of these people, I will know it within 10 minutes of talking to you.. It's not hard to see. It comes natural and very easy to me to tell if someone is a fake. So don't even try it.. I tend to have more guy people "friends" I like to hang out with than girls. Girls get to bitchy and whiny and I can only take so much of it.. I like doing guy things.. Which of that most girls wouldn't do or even want to..Dirt track racing (takes more skill than Nascar), Almost all sports..you name it; I'll play it. Don't like watching them as much cause I get bored with it but doesn't mean I don't like it. I also like welding, fishing, camping, cars, playing Counter-Strike: Source.. Typical guy shit..you can figure that out rather easily. I'm an active person. I like doing thing's and staying active. When I was a kid I was one of the boys..I talked to maybe a couple girls at the most and the rest were all guys. I did everything they did..which probably explains why I am the way that I am. Even the way I think.. I think more like a guy than a girl..If that is good or bad, I don't know. I'm a rather small person, if you know me you know this.. I'm kinda tall but yet skinny. I'm about 5'7''ish or so, and about 105 lbs. (last time I checked). No, I'm not fucking bulimic or have any eating disorder. I hate people who think someone has an eating disorder just because they are skinny. Realize, sometime it's just natural. Some people have a very high metabolism. Well, obviously I'm one of them. It's not my choice.. I can't gain weight for shit. I've tried and still am but am left to gaining nothing.. I actually just lose weight when trying to gain it. Even though I'm small, I am tough. Physically and Mentally. I have a very high tolerance for pain; a lot more than most people I have ever met.. Kind of have to be though.. I suffer from Daily Chronic Headaches/Migraines 24/7. I've had them for about 4 years now; just one big constant migraine.. It hardly ever goes away and when it does its temporarily..very few things help it such as some pain pills..So if you hear or see my say I'm taking a vicodin or such..This is why. I don't take them for the high even though it is nice sometimes.But who wouldn't think so right? But that is all just me. Most people don't understand that, how I can be so small but strong too. So therefore I have surprised many people..I've been in quite a few fist fights, more being with guys than girls...none of which I started. I don't start fights..but I will finish it. I take shit from no one.. I can give a fuck less who you are. Big, small, guy, girl. Whatever. If you deserve it, you'll get it coming to ya.. But I haven't lost a one of them. I doubt I ever will either..I am too smart to lose..Might sound a bit cocky but if you know me then you know it's the truth. I know how to protect myself..simple as that. I have the knowledge and mentality to win, what most lack.. I don't have much confidence in myself but then again I do.. It's hard to explain. But I don't have confidence in myself cause I know I can always do better that what I'm doing. It's like I can never do good enough..so I'm always going for better.. And I do have confidence in a way..cause I tend to do well and be good at everything I do. Again..might sound like I'm being cocky but if you know me..you know it's the truth. It's just the way I am. I am very competitive. I will do what it takes to be good and do well at everything I do.. Most of it is all mentally, which most people fail to know and see. People get mentally drained which causes them to fuck up more so than physically. You can do anything you set your mind to. I tend to be better at guy things than most guys... Albeit, things like basketball, football, fishing, or video games..cars..I was one of the best welders in my class out of both second year and first year students, as it was my first year and only..This is what I have been told by those others..there was only one other girl besides myself. I love proving people wrong. Especially if they tell me I can't do something.. I will do what it takes to do it and throw it back at them. That tends to stop people from doing it. I love it. So tell me I can't do something.. I might come off as being cocky by what I'm saying....But I am the complete opposite. I won't be a cocky person unless its due..if I earn it. And I'm still not very cocky at those times..I dislike people who talk shit and don't do anything about it or to back their words up..all mouth.. which is about 98% of people who are always running off at the mouth. They just front cause they are scared. Action first...then you can talk your shit when you deserve too..Otherwise just shut the fuck up and quit wasting peoples time and making yourself look like a dumbass. I tend to tell it how it is...If anyone likes it or not.. Most don't, but I don't give a fuck. Everything I believe in..there is a reason..I don't do things cause everyone does it or whatever. I do my own thing.. I don't like stupid/dumb people.. which tends to eliminate most people. I have very few close friends..2 or 3 at most.. and one "true" friend. Which is my Fiancée..He is someone I can always trust completely..I know he will be there through everything, no matter what, until the end. He would never betray me or give up on me. And he loves me for me..not what he wants me to be.. They say you can only count your "true" friends on one hand..I believe that is the truth to the fullest. Like I said..I have one. and will always be the one. I don't trust very many people. You have to gain my trust..You just don't get it. I have been fucked one too many times and it won't happen again..If you lose my trust you will never get it back. Just the way it is. I can be a very big bitch only when needing to be..so don't piss me off or do me wrong. Which brings me to..People who try pissing me off who thinks it is fun or who have nothing better to do..They tend to get more pissed than they ever tried getting me to be in the first place.. It's quite funny. So don't try it. I don't want to upset you. I love pissing people off who deserve it..and are open to it. The weak. Like I was just saying. It's great. I can't stand people who think they have to be the center of attention constantly. It's annoying.. They need to grow the fuck up. Why do people like making their self look dumb? Cause they're enough of 'em out there. I can be quite a smart ass at times, well almost all the time.. and especially if you piss me off.. I can probably be the biggest smart ass you could ever meet......again only when it is deserved or I am joking around with people... Something else that gets me.. People you can't joke with.. The ones who take everything you say seriously. I am very sarcastic. If I see this weakness in anyone I'll use it to my advantage. It's funny when people who get pissed over nothing, for no reason. It gets me going. So don't show your weaknesses.. It will get you every time. I tend to watch people.. Learn from them and their mistakes. I've learned if you just sit and listen you will learn a lot. Instead of always being the one talking and running your mouth. That's why I am usually the one just sitting back watching and listening to others. When I am in large groups of people....like I said.. I'm usually the quiet one. I sit back and watch everyone else and how the others do things. Not only do I learn from my own mistakes. I learn from everyone else's. I don't fear many things. Only things such as losing the ones closest to me..Things that aren't in my control.. Nothing like heights or the dark.. I don't have any fears like that. People with those types of fears, it's all in your head; mentally things. You just psyche yourself out. That's all. People let it be a disadvantage to them.. I'm just the opposite... I use it to my advantage.. I think differently than most people... and thus far I haven't seen any disadvantages of it. If I don't like someone they will most likely know it. I won't try and hide it. I'm not a hypocrite. I hate when people preach against shit then turn around and do it. I hate when people tell me how to live my life and what to do when they can't even control their own life and it's a wreck. What makes you think you can tell me what is best for me when you cannot even figure out what is best for yourself? I also hate when religious people who tell me I am going to hell because I don't agree with their exact views on things. When in fact they are the biggest hypocrites walking the Earth. They preach against the very thing they so very well believe in. How stupid can you be? Which brings me to say. Don't believe everything you hear and only believe in half of what you see. Yes, add 2 and 2 together and you will get what I am saying. I'll believe in it, maybe, when I see it.

But now hopefully you will understand me more now and know why I am the way that I am. Which is very few people. Many people can't figure me out. If you would like to know more or want to know anything else, don't be afraid to ask. I'll tell you. .. ..