jess mooяe
www.myspace.com/jessicam00reits seriously still novemberMood: i miss you
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jess mooяe
- Rutland, Vermont, US
- Last Login: 11/28/2009
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Interests
Heroes
Tyler Robert Beardmore
it seems like there's not much left to say after almost 3 years together, but i still seem to love him more and more everyday. though he's nearly 2,000 miles away from home for basic/AIT training during the next few months, i still feel so close to him. what we have isn't like any other love i've ever seen. truly, i don't think anyone understands, and i don't think anyone ever will. i look at other relationships and how they "love" each other too. and then i think of us and how truly happy we are with each other and i wonder, maybe nobody really knows what love is. if people think that cheating and fighting and lying is love, then they really don't know what love is. i want everyone to know what love really feels like, and lately i feel like i'm the only one who really knows what it is. but that doesn't matter. all i know is that i love tyler robert beardmore with all my heart, and if everyday for the rest of my life was spent waking up next to him, i would be the happiest and luckiest girl in the world. i know we will last forever.
10/28/06, lover
Details
- Status: In a Relationship
- Hometown: Rutland
- Orientation: Straight
- Zodiac Sign: Libra
- Smoke / Drink: No / No
Schools
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Mill River Usd #40
- North Clarendon,VT
- Graduated: N/A
- Degree: High School Diploma
- Clubs: Key Club, Yearbook Editor
2006 to Present
Comments
Nov 28 2009 5:24 AM
Nov 27 2009 6:44 PM
Nov 6 2009 12:45 PM
Nov 3 2009 11:00 PM
Oct 30 2009 9:13 PM
HAPPY [ALMOST] HALLOWEEN, JESS!
Oct 30 2009 4:46 PM
Oct 30 2009 4:45 PM
Oct 22 2009 11:33 PM
Oct 13 2009 1:09 PM
welll
i wished you happy birthday and that i love you ahhaha :)
how was your birthday?!
Oct 13 2009 12:17 AM
did you get my text
I LOVE YOU<3333
Oct 12 2009 1:14 PM
Oct 7 2009 12:36 AM
Oct 6 2009 12:21 AM
Oct 5 2009 4:43 PM
Oct 5 2009 11:44 AM
Oct 5 2009 12:57 AM
Oct 3 2009 5:34 PM
Oct 2 2009 1:06 AM
Oct 2 2009 12:38 AM
it made me realize a lot.
thank you so much, Jess.
seriously.
Oct 1 2009 5:23 PM
last night, he barely talked to me...
he texted me at like 2:30AM saying
"Sorry, Kristina called, She's pregnant. Don't tell her I told you."
Then I said back "I don't talk to her"
And then hours later, He randomy said to me
"Goodnight. Sweet dreams. I love you."
Then today,
I texted him saying "Morning. I hope you slept well. I love you."
Hours later he texted me saying just "Morning"
Then I texted him back saying, "You alright?" And he said "Yep"
And I tried to talk more to him through texts, But he didn't seem like talking to me.
So I just no texted him saying, "I'll let you go, you dont really seem like you want to talk to me right now. i love you"
And he said back, "i just really dont feel liketxting. love you"
and i responded with, "ok.. :/ sorry?"
and he said nothing back to me..
:((((((((((((
Oct 1 2009 3:41 PM
I do need to talk to someone... Anyone... you...
As you may know, I moved to Washington. I'm dating my first love that I fought for for well over a year, His names Josh.
Right now, I'm back in Vermont. Me and Josh had an apartment together in Spokane, Washington.
However, It was as impossible as impossible can get to get a job.
We eventually lost our apartment, He was forced to move back to Chewelah with his mom.
And I was forced to move back here to Vermont, With my mom.
Josh and mines mom's are very similar... They both are alcoholics. Which makes this distance even harder upon us.
However, There's another issue, Which is me...
Jess, I've been here for 6 days now... Every morning I awake without him, I can't do it.
There's been a sharp pain in my chest ever since I've been here.
I have up to 4 sever panic attacks a day.
I can't eat. For every morning I awake I physically feel sick.
And when I try to eat I feel even more sick.
And I can't keep the food down at all.
Josh and I used to shower together... Now that I have to shower alone... I have panic attacks in the shower...
I call for him... And deep down I know he's not here, But I still call for him.
And recently, I have put his cloths onto a pillow, In which I feel insane for doing, Because I sleep with it pretending it's him, But when it comes to sleeping I can't sleep without dreaming of him or of us. Every night I sleep in his cloths. They've lost the scent of him... And it just hurts.
He wants me back in Washington, I have the money for the ticket back there.
However, His mom will not allow me to stay at her house, And we do not know why.
So he wants to try to get a job and another apartment, And when he does... I can go back there he said.
But I'm so scared that in the meantime, I may die from all the pain and stress and stuff.
Or he'll cheat and never tell me.
Sep 30 2009 11:00 AM
Sep 22 2009 5:19 PM
Sep 15 2009 4:04 PM
Sep 12 2009 3:26 PM
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