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We did it Jen. I took the test and I'm pretty sure I rocked it's face! And you were the only person I wanted to hug after. I just looked over into the passenger seat next to me when I got in the car and sai "We did it." I hope you were there and that you heard me. I miss you. Love you Jen.

Hey Jen,

I just want you to know how much I miss you. You were the sister I always wanted, even though we were at each others throats if we hung out for more than 2 days in a row. I miss the sound of your laugh, the taco bell runs.. and those nights talking about absolutely nothing at the beach. Theres times when I can feel you, and I'm not sure if I feel happy or sad. It feels like such a vital part of my soul has been ripped away from me...I walk around every day with an open wound that noone can see or feel. I can laugh, i can enjoy myself, but i just feel incomplete. I hope you are happy wherever you are, and I send you lots of love from high up on the mountain.



Jas

Hi Jen. I'm sure you know already since your hopefully watching us from above, but in case you missed it...I passed the first of 3 tests for my GED!! Finally, after ten years I'm doing it. I know how much you wanted to get yours and it really motivated me to get one for both of us. You've been a great motivator in all the positive changes I'm making in my life Jen. I would still be lost, if it wasn't for you so thank you so much!!! I wish you were here to see all the great things I'm doing but I guess the high five can wait. But you better have it ready when I get there. Love and miss you. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Just got back from the memorial service for you and all other Hospice patients that died this last year. I havent really stopped crying since I walked through those doors. It was a nice service and I'm glad I went but I dont know that I'm ready to be unselfish enough to think of how your life is still going on in another realm. Because I know how much we all wish you were still here. I love you so much and I miss you more then I can stand sometimes.

Once in a while I'll hear a song or hear a joke that will make me sad because I'll think of how you would have laughed at it. But then I smile because I think of how you would have laughed at it. Jason is now in Cub Scouts. I know you're very proud of your Godson. Your last blog mentions me. I can't even begin to tell you how sad I am we never had that drink. But I am so grateful our last words were "I love you". I didnt even have that with my own Father. I know you are in a better place. We will have that drink one day. And more laughter. Maybe even a midnight run to Dennys for girltalk and Mozzerella sticks.

My Angel Janie, I Loves ya so, how much you'll NEVER EVER KNOW!!! Thinking of you & missing you like crazy girl! I ALWAYS HAVE THIS PAIN IN MY HEART since you have gone away. A void that will never be fullfilled on the face of the earth but hopefully the moment I enter the heavens above. I will be happy when I can see your face & tell you how much I have missed you & how sorry I am for not having a chance to say goodbye!! I think of your laugh SOOOO much dude & that is one freaking thing for sure that makes me crack up laughing!!!!!!! Your laugh always got my ass going!!! lol!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! XO

I was just thinking about you and although you are not here with us. I feel that you and Mitch are watching over us! I miss talking to you and us laughing over the stupidest shit. I miss you!

Hey, there!  I never noticed these comments before.  Boy, am I MySpaceDumb, LOL.  This book was released in March, and the next one is in August (The Path of Razors).  Thank you for asking!

The other day I went to Outback and had that dessert we used to get. I hadn't had one since we last went there so many years ago. It was great, but wasn't as special. No sarcastic humor involved this time. ;)

Hey Jen. It's Father's Day tomorrow. I know dad wishes you were here to celebrate with us. Just know were still always thinking of you. miss you. xoxo

Love you Jen. Could definately use your help about now. This is sooooo hard. xoxoxoxo

I haven't been able to stop thinking about you Janie, continuing too replay our convo I don't understand why?!?!?!?!????? Then I woke yesterday thinking of your laugh as soon as I opened my eyes!!! IT WAS CRAZY, I THINK I WAS DREAMING ABOUT YOUR LAUGH AS WELL I THINK... I mean, "I NEVER REMEMBER MY DREAMS DUDE", except for like when I was pregnant so that was fucking wierd I MUST SAY!!!! "I had that thought though right away that you were telling me & EVERYONE not to worry AT ALL, "YOU ARE HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY, IN PEACE & on your journey!! I had this feeling of pure LOVE run through my body & started balling of course, you know me!!!! I'm so freakin emotional it's CRAZY!!! Anyway, I have been SOOOOOOO SAD JEN, beating myself up!!!!!!! I WILL MISS YOU LOTS!!! YOU WERE MY GIRL!!!!! I'M SORRY, I SHOULD OF BEEN BY YOUR SIDE!!!!! I NEVER REALLY GOT TOO KNOW EVERYTHING IN DETAIL ABOUT HOW BAD YOU WERE!!!!!! I spoke too you & I should have known!!!!!!!!!!! I MEAN I KNOW WE WERE PLANNING TOO GET TOGETHER BUT TIME FLEW BY & THEN THIS!!!!!!~~~ It's like::: WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKK, WHYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! Sorry too ramble on here as I always did when we talked, LOL!!! :0)~ SORRY!! I'm glad you will suffer no more!!! Hey, HAVE FUN IN HEAVEN BABY!!! I will think of you SOOOOO often, you were GREAT MAN!!!! I was laughing my ASS OFF thinking of riding out in your blue station wagon LMAO, all of us!!!!!! TOO FUNNY, we use too cruise!!! GOOD TIMES!! So SORRY AGAIN LOL!!! Just droppin through though to show ya some LOVEY GIRL & DROP A LINE====>I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!!! XOXOXO