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(i scribble too many random secrets.)
dating
i’ve dated too many models since i was 21; it only
confuses me. i love the most beautiful woman whom i remember ever speaking to me; a woman i love is speaking to me again. impeccable women fascinate me; intelligent women captivate me; when an educated women speaks, it is like sunshine on my ears. i terribly miss every past girlfriend; only when i’m not dating someone.
living
my children are the product of the time that i spend with them.
working at home epitomizes quality of life;
i’m home when my children go to school, every day;
i’m home when my children come home;
i go to the gym every day in the middle of the day; whether or not i
want.
i see my friends and family whenever i want;
i work when i want, i play when i want, i eat when i want, and i sleep
when i want.
i go eat out whenever i want, or i cook whenever i want;
i travel with my children whenever i want;
my recent trips were the caribbean, europe, and minnesota;
i’ve just returned from las vegas, salt lake city, and wisconsin;
i’m planning three trips in the next six weeks. i'm in florida today.
i have a rare freedom.
The LORD blesses me for decisions i’ve made.
childhood
i’m the same age as brad pitt and johnny depp.
my parents stayed married; i’m not afraid. i was raised in a loft apartment with cream brick walls and hard maple
floors; i was raised downtown, in coffee shops, health food co-ops, and music
stores; i was raised on the steps of the state capital, and political rallies in
the park; my grandmothers let me play at their horse farm and lake house.
my mom made my wooden toys, stuffed animals, mittens, and my
lunch box;
my mom worked in a factory, and still she canned garden food.
my dad taught me to drill straight, paint straight, shoot
straight, and go to church;
my dad taught me to play chess, debate, and publish logically; and find wildflowers.
a newspaper interviewed me about the economy when i was 11. i’ve snowmobiled, played hockey, and raced on a cross country
ski team;
i’ve ice-fished; i own my own snowshoes; i’ve camped in the snow and listened to howling wolves while i
slept; i’ve seen moose and bears in the minnesota
wilderness; i can survive in the forest in the winter. i’ve lived in my car, a car which cost $275; i moved into an apartment flat with a lake view. i
as a child i always rode the city bus by myself for 10¢. i’ve hitchhiked and picked up hitchhikers; i give money to homeless people even though i know i shouldn’t. i’ve been beaten to the ground daily by a gang of indians; i’ve written advocating racial equality, gender equality, and economic equality. i grieve over the loss of my dad; but my grandma and mom love me. i talk to my brother almost every day; i once shared an apartment flat with my younger sister.
marathoning
i ran a mile in about 4:30, two in about 9:30, three in about 15:30; i ran five miles in about 27:30, and ten in about 60:00. i ran a marathon last year; and will run one this year. i won 6 conference championships; i made it to state; area coaches voted me all-conference three times; my teammates voted me mvp three times.
travels
i've flown one thousand times; i’ve been to the caribbean nine times in three years; i’ve been to the ukraine, romania, hungary, and slovakia; i’ve been to central america; i’ve been to italy and mexico
very recently;
i’ve been on a bus, a taxi, a train, and an airplane all in rome. i want to take someone to tahiti and paris; i want to take my children to jerusalem and doubravka. i’ve lived in minneapolis, st. petersburg, tampa, milwaukee, and kansas
city; i’ve lived in voree and lake geneva. i work from new york to california; most often in salt lake city, las vegas, and phoenix. i believe that zion is in jackson county; i’ve lived on mormon road. i’ve lived where i had a grapefruit and orange tree in my backyard. i’ve lived on the water. i don’t like boats, swimming pools, or fishing; i’m building a lake house; i’m afraid to start.
guy-stuff
i own fine guns in the calibers of .22, .25, .38, and .45; 9 mm; and
12-gauges; i have the equipment to make my own bullets. i have my own drill press, table saw, and router; i used to be a professional woodworker. i bought my first suv in 1993 and my first vw in 2008. i disproved carbon-14 dating when i was 14; my adult i.q. was 150 when i was 15 and it has not been measured since. i invented the electromagnet propelled and levitated train; i didn’t invent the internet. i have a beer label from a brewery named for my great-great-grandfather; i have an oil painting of my great-grandfather painted by my grandfather; i have a mainframe computer built by my father in the 1960s. my favorite childhood smell was black rubber curing in our kitchen; i like the smell of melting tin/lead solder on my electronic games; i like the smell of the chocolate factory filling my hometown; i like exotic hardwoods, quarried stone, fine metal, and handmade glass.
employment
i’ve founded a publishing company named after someone else.
i’ve been a doorman, bellman, and chauffeur at the “playboy resort & country club.” i ran a bay-side sushi restaurant before sushi was popular; i’ve taught wine classes; i’ve managed
the top dance club in florida; i’ve been a dishwasher, and waiter; i’ve
been a director of restaurants. i burn hardboiled eggs.
food
i’ve taken naps as long as i can remember. i’m always hungry. i eat breakfast at midnight. i’m allergic to yeast, wheat, milk, and eggs; my favorite breakfast is an egg and cheese sandwich. my favorite dinner is wild-caught salmon, cooked medium. i do not like vegetables, and i eat them anyway; i do not like sweets, and i eat them anyway. i dislike pork so much that i bought nopork.org; i like blue jeans so much that i bought fitjeans.com.
economics
i’m an successful economist but not a respected
economist. today’s economy scares me.
i wrote this before the economy scared everyone else. i predicted the fall in oil prices and the rise in gold prices. i have more money in the bank today than i’ve
ever had; i’m only thankful.
values
i read the king james bible when i was 11; a playboy bunny had a crush on me when i was 18; i reread the new testament in a broom closet when i was 18; i played backgammon with a playboy bunny only when there was no work for us. i’ve never stolen a library book. i’ve estimated my expenses but still paid my taxes, and even skipped deductions. it’s not that i date younger women; i’ve dated 29-year-olds since i was 21. my best friend is more than a half century older than i am. parenting is my most important quality. i value marriage and i have integrity. i have authenticity.
goals
i want to learn to play the piano on a michigan
island; i want to learn to fly my own plane over lake michigan;
i want to learn to sail my own boat on lake michigan; i want to shipwreck dive under lake michigan. i want to run for congress in wisconsin’s 1st
congressional district. i have no hope to do everything that i want. i must finish writing twelve books. i intend to surf in the next year in hawaii and never surf
again. i’ll never have time for golf and similar pastimes. i have inspiration, and a mission in my life.
satisfaction
i’ll never have time to finish everything that i’ve started. i spend most of my time doing things for other people; people always think i should do more for them. i feel guilty for never doing enough; i feel guilty for doing too much. i text while driving; i wrote this while driving. i’m content, but want more time; my impatience has waned with each lost year.
heights
i roofed a church; i restored a house built before wisconsin was a state; i like the architecture of barns, silos, and windmills; i fell airborne out of a hayloft. i do not like air travel; i missed a flight that later missed the o’hare airport for a foggy crop field. people are curious about my expensive suitcases and transported artworks. i like maps and gps.
my height is almost 6'-2".
hurts
i get hurt when i love a woman; i get hurt when i give to people; i still give to people when i get hurt;
Jesus blesses me when people hurt me; Jesus rewards me for adversity; my heart will always be shredded; at least i have a heart. my heart has hurt so bad i thought it was unbearable;
my heart has hurt so much that i thought God had stopped listening. i’m a different person today than a year ago but my integrity never wavers. people who hurt me are never blessed; someone who cheated on me is being cheated on now.
fears
i worry that someone will discover that i know nothing about
entertainment; i know nothing about sports, music, television, or movies; i know something about science, politics, religion, and geography. i worry that stupid people will think that i am stupid; i never care that professors constantly ask me to give them knowledge. i worry every day about my son being accepted as bright and coordinated. i want more children like the ones i have. i don’t like sleeping alone anymore.
education
i was in college when i was 17 and grad school when i was 32; i’ve researched at harvard, yale, and princeton; i’ve sat for a week in the new york public library, and the boston public library. i’m more likely to read a newspaper from 1838 or 1848 than 2008. i’ve never had a college course in history, art, or literature; somehow i’m famous for my knowledge of historical art and rare books. a president of the u.s. did something personally for me; i did something personally for a mayor of my city. i have tens of thousands of books, manuscripts, and b&w prints; i’ve bought a one million dollar book more than once.
church
i do not like defending myself. i go to a church so small that it has 24 hickory chairs and an outhouse; the true church is persecuted by people who think it is wrong to be so
few. i think mega churches will have a mega gate: “for many there be which go in thereat” (matthew 7: 13-14)
is monumental. snowflakes and stars increase my faith.
i do not live for today, i live for eternity.
i believe woolly mammoths actually roamed north america;
i believe that jonah was actually swallowed by a whale. my favorite scripture is: “if ye love me, keep my
commandments” (john 14:15). paul does not make me unaccountable, according to the actual words of Jesus.
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