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This isn't really my blog because I rarely write here. My blog is over on LiveJournal. I also have Facebook, Yahoo Messenger, AIM, and even MSN Messneger (yay Trillian). If you're interested, ask and you may recieve.

I worked at a library for many years. Now I work for a small direct mail company. The search for a career instead of just a job continues however. I went to college, it didn't work out, I was going to go back to another college for a different degree but wasn't able to, and now I don't really know what my future will be. I'm a nice guy, a good guy, and people have called me a straight edge (I'm not part of straight edge culture though). I like referential humor and make obscure jokes and bad puns. I am often blunt and sometimes sarcastic. I value truth over happiness. I feel most people don't really understand me. I'm trying to understand myself and the world and for what purpose I continue to live. I play Magic the Gathering and some tabletop minatures wargames and various computer games (mostly of the RTS genre). I love movies but watch very little TV. I love football, particularly the Miami Dolphins, and like to play football too. I like to kayak and own one. Despite living in Florida, I get to the beach rarely and when I do its usually at night (but its very nice then). I like history and know lots of random trivia. I read non-fiction for fun. I don't care for kids and have spent my life adamant that I will never be a parent. I'm religious in a sort of odd agnostic/psuedo-Christian way - I have strong morals which are similiar to Christianity and believe in the existance of a benevolent God, but agree with the agnostic viewpoint that the nature of God is unknowable to us as humans. I also have what a number of online tests tell me are at least vaguely Buddhist tedancies. I don't really trust the Bible because it was written by men and manipulated by a corrupt Church. Lax morality and the rampant sex in American culture bothers me, but the violence doesn't. I describe myself as a conservative reformist democratic socialist who thinks corrupt American politics, careless government spending, rampant capitalistic greed, and cowboy diplomacy are destroying America. Some people think I'm too judgemental. I want to be good at anything I really care about. One of my biggest regrets in life is making friends with people who were entertaining despite the fact that I didn't really like them as people. I don't like it when people smoke or use drugs and I have never done either myself. I hate the taste of beer (I drink other alcohol once in awhile) but often drink large quantities of soda and fervently hope I drink enough water that my soda drinking wont cause me kidney failure some day. I respect and admire self-confidence, honesty, and intelligence. I hate being lied to. I take relationships seriously and am frequently very nervous in them, but unlike alot of guys I'm not afraid of commitment. I get nervous about new things in general. I have a strange phobia about eyes.

I have a homepage that I need to get off my lazy butt and work on more.

"If you believe in forever, then life is just a one night stand."

"You've got alot of odd information in your head."

"Who dares wins."

"Ludo Ergo Sum (I game therefore I am)"

"Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds."

"I'd say the best meaning of life we can grasp is this: learn what you can learn; help who you can help; make a difference if you can; seek happiness without being immoral; and most importantly learn what it is to truly love someone and be truly loved in return."

Oh, you mean like another person? Someone intelligent, interesting, and capable of understanding me that is a genuinely good person. Especially if you're a single white female.

Honestly, if you read that rambling paragraph in the About Me section all the way through and didn't run away screaming then we should get along wonderfully.