Judy's Journey It's almost time for me to move. been packing. my son is coming in from NY to help me with last min packing and unpacking... Posted at 3:41 PM Aug 28 view more
I was born in The Bronx, New York and now reside in Coral Springs, Florida. I raised three children while their parents (me) were addicted to drugs and alcohol. My children followed my journey in addiction. I thought we were a normal family. It was pure insanity. I started using drugs and alcohol at the age of 13 and continued for 43 years. I did not stop until September 30, 1994. To my recollection I was in 17 hospitals, detoxes, rehabs, and institutions (jail). My first husband, Ralph, died never knowing a day of what it would be like living without drugs. My youngest son David died on August 14, 2001 from an overdose. He also had AIDS. My son Ralph who lives in New York is now in recovery and we have a strong bond that nobody can break. My daughter is another story. This is just a synopsis of my life. It was only by the Grace of God and my deep cries for help that reached the ears of God that I was able to surrender. About four years ago I asked Jesus to come into my life. I live a sober life today and try to live a Christian life to the best of my ability...
Who I'd like to meet: By telling my truth through my writing about my past and present life I am hoping to meet friends in recovery or friends trying to get clean and sober. Friends who are Christians and friends who just want to be friends.I am a survivor of sexual, emotional and physical abuse and I am against any kind of abuse including animal, child, and elderly abuse. I am also a two time suvivor of breast cancer only by the Grace of God...
I am strong, you know,Tried by expertsLeft lonely on bare floorsAnd hated by those who loved me.Nights of sadness have not taken away my life.Nor days of melancholy and madness.I am a quiet cave hidden in ocean rocks,A fir tree watching giant redwoods rot away.A patch of grass at the edge of a roaring river,A stone that has known the desert's heatand survived till the sun was gone.I am strong you know,Oppressed by tyrants,Abandoned on dark nightsand cursed by those who praised me.Winters raging has not bowed my head,nor years of loneliness and aging.I am a silent spring trickling down the mountains,A patch of snow refusing to meltA patient crack in granite rocks.A tree that was bent at birth has not fallen in the cold wind.I am strong you know,some kind of woman has somehow grown,I like the strength that lovers give,But I am strong enough alone..
To Whom It May ConcernSo now little man your're tired of grass, LSD, alcohol,cocaine and hashWhen someone pretending to be a true friend, said let meintroduce you to Mr. HeroineI'm so very powerful, I'm sure you've been told, pound forpound more expensive than goldI take you places that you'd never been, rob you of yourself-esteem, then grinYou'll shoot me in your veins on a daily basis, and as longas you have money you'll swear your in an oasisWhen your money runs out you'll sell all your things, thenyou'll even sell your moms wedding ringThe vomit, the cramps, the withdrawal pains, can only beeased by my little white grainsI'm grown in fields and manufactured to taste, but I'mnothing more than poppy seed wasteYou'll try to recover again and again, but you little man, I'myour biggest friendYou ingest me in your system once again, and it only getsworse, shoot me againI'll take your mind, body, soul and heart, and then you'llbe mine, till death do us part.WRITTEN BY MY SON DAVIDAUGUST 26, 1961-AUGUST 14, 2001
Vivian Gale created this video of David's poem
I give you this one thought to keep --I am with you still - I do not sleep.I am a thousand winds that blow,I am the diamond glints on snow,I am the sunlight on ripened grain,I am the gentle autumn rain.When you awaken in the morning's hush,I am the swift, uplifting rushof quiet birds in circled flight.I am the soft stars that shine at night.Do not think of me as gone --I am with you still -- in each new dawn.
Amazing Grace,How sweet the soundThat saved a wretch like me.I once was lost but now I'm foundWas blind, but now I see.T'was Grace that taught my heart to feelAnd Grace my fears relieved.How precious did that Grace appearThe hour I first believed.When we've been there ten thousand yearsBright shining as the sun,We've no less days to sing God's praiseThen when we first begun.Amazing Grace, how sweet the soundThat saved a wretch like me.I once was lost, but now I'm found,Was blind, but now I see.
And acceptance is the answer to all my problemstoday. When I am disturbed, it is because I findsome person, place, thing, or situation-some factof my life-unacceptable to me, and I can find noserenity until I accept that person, place, thing,or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutelynothing happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could notstay sober; unless I accept life completely onlife's terms I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to bechanged in the world as on what needs to bechanged in me and in my attitudes.
The Unhappiest PersonThe unhappiniest person in the world is thealcoholic who has an insistent yearning to enjoylife as he once knew it, but cannot picture lifewithout alcohol. He has a heartbreaking obsessionthat by some miracle of control, he will be able to do so.Some day he will be unable to imagine life eitherwith alcohol or without it. Then he will know lonelinesssuch as few do. He will be at the jumping off place.He will wish for the end.A.A. CAN and DOES show these people a solutionto their problem and its greatest recommendation is----IT WORKS!!!
Through You the blind will see. Through You the mute will sing. Through You the dead will rise. Through You all hearts will praise. Through You the darkness flees. Through You my heart screams I am free.
The Lord's PrayerOur Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name.Thy kingdom come, Thy Will be doneon earth as it is in heaven.Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our sinsas we forgive those who sin against us.Lead us not into temptation,but deliver us from evil.For Thine is the kingdom and the powerand the glory forever and ever. Amen!!
Only a few more steps and then God's power shall be seenand known in my life. I am now walking in darkness, surroundedby the limitations of space and time. but even in this darkness,I can have faith and can be a light to guide feet that are afraid.I believe that God's power will break through the darkness andmy prayers will pierce even to the ears of God Himself. Butonly a cry from the heart, a trusting cry, ever pierces thatdarkness and reaches to the divine ear of God!!I pray that the divine power of God will help my humanweakness. I pray that my prayer may reach through the darkness to the ear of God!!
Hello Judy, when i tried to friend you from that page i kept getting hung up. eeek. welcome to my page. looking forward to sharing life and philosophies! b
I'm truly honored to have you as a new friend. I look forward to getting to know you and to our friendship. Please stay in touch!
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Women have strengths that amaze men. They bear hardships and they carry burdens, But they hold happiness, love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream. They sing when they want to cry. They cry when they are happy And laugh when they are nervous. They fight for what they believe in. They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer When they believe there is a better solution.
They go without so their family can have. They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally. They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding. Their hearts break when a friend dies. They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left. They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love. They have compassion and ideas. They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.
Please pass this along to all your Women friends and relatives to remind them just How amazing they are.
Wisdom is when we know what we don't know by what we do know when we know what we know, and thats what we don't know is because what we do know, shows us that what we think we know we really don't know as well as we think we know because of what we dont know when we know what we know but we don't know what we dont know. In the internet, every minute there is 300 brand new words typed that is brand new human knowledge. To read every word that is typed in a 24 hour period would require on average between slow to fast readers, 8 years to complete reading. If someone thinks they know it all, there is a lot more that they need to know to know what they think they know so that they can know what they don't know. You know? Love you, John
PSALM 13:1 THERE IS NO RIGHT WAY TO PRAY. HONEST COMMUNICATION WITH GOD AND HUMBLE LISTENING FOR GOD CAN TAKE MANY FORMS. DON'T GET HUNG UP ON WHETHER YOU'RE PRAYING CORRECTLY.JUST PRAY! Love & Blessings, Lynda