Justin
Justin Benjegerdes
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HIT ORANGE BELT IN TKD! YAY!
Male
24 years old
FOREST CITY, Iowa
United States
Last Login: 11/27/2009
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Mood:
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Justin's Interests
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| General | Computers, Technology in general, DJing, Music, performance, and spending time with family and friends. | | Music | Anything but Grunge, Rap, and MOST hip hop. so basically everything from Classical, to classic rock, hard rock, jazz, swing, country, and VERY LITTLE hip hop. | | Movies | TOO MANY TO NAME | | Television | Don't watch much tv anymore | | Books | From A Friend of Mine...
There comes a time when one must make undesirably difficult decisions. It is at this point in time when one feels they would rather run away to a secluded area of comfort & peace then to face one of the most difficult decisions in their life. The fear from knowing what will happen, or even worse NOT knowing, can overcome you, devour you until you no longer feel as though you are yourself. You feel as though your life has turned upside down, inside out and backwards. You begin to feel as though you have no control over the situation, that no matter what you do… you will lose.
In all of my travels and all of my journeys, I have never truly faced the grim darkness, the mortifyingly absent abyss they refer to as death. I have always cheated my way through death, stopping it in its tracks, hiding from it, tricking it. To me cheating death has always been a game. A game with winners and losers.
I used to laugh in deaths face, but today I tremble before deaths feet. I have come to the realization that there is no “cheating” death. There is only one determining factor as to who lives, and who dies. The one factor that overrides every known physical and scientific force in this multitude of universes… the Creator.
So today I lie here trembling before the end, being told of a new beginning, but I am not comforted by this fact. This does not change the fact I do not want to make the decision laid out before me. Looking around at everyone and weighing the options I saw I truly had no real choice. The choice had already been made for me, I just didn’t want to accept the outcome. With tears in my eyes, I took the cold metal clipboard, signed my name and right then and there, I broke down. I walked over to him, just lying there, not moving, not making a sound. He looked so peaceful. I took his hand, held it close to my heart, turned to the doctor and nodded. That was it. It was over. My brother was gone. Silence. Pure peaceful silence.
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| | Heroes | I would have to say my father. When I look at him and the life he has built for himself, it makes me understand what it takes to get the things you truly want in life. That even though there may be hardships from time to time, it is how you manage your choices, a loving family, and faith in God that help you pull through. This is what I have learned from my father. I am very proud to call him Dad. I have grown up with him, worked along side him, and he has helped me start my own new life. And everybody who knows him knows I have to take credit for well over half the gray hairs on his head! But sorry Dad, I can't give you all the credit. For all the times I was affraid to come to you directly, weather it be I was affraid I would upset you, or I just didn't want to hear "no" (lol) there was always someone there, I could talk to freely about anything, without having to worry about a lecture. Mom was always there to listen to me, help me out when I didn't know how to talk to you about some things (I'd tell her, she'd go talk to you, then come back and tell me the outcome [I used that one a lot]). If you weren't home or just if i needed someone, Mom was always there to listen. Sometimes she was more of a best friend then my friends actually were. And for that I'd have to say my mother is also my hero. Working together they made me who I am today, and I couldn't be more blessed than to have the family I do. Thank you Both. |
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Justin's Details
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| Status: | In a Relationship | | Here for: | Friends | | Orientation: | Straight | | Hometown: | Manly, IA | | Body type: | 6' 0" / Average | | Ethnicity: | White / Caucasian | | Religion: | Christian - other | | Zodiac Sign: | Scorpio | | Smoke / Drink: | No / Yes | | Children: | Someday | | Education: | College graduate | | Occupation: | Johnston Autostores / New Revolution Entertainment | | Income: | $30,000 to $45,000 |
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Justin's Schools
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North Central Jr-Sr High School
Manly, IA
Graduated: 2004
Student status: Alumni
Degree: High School Diploma
Clubs: Jazz Band, Show Choir, Athletic Manager, Technical Director
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Justin Just finnished up a fantastic birthday weekend with my fiance! Posted at 7:33 PM Nov 22
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I have a fantastic group of friends that keep me on my feet. Friends and family are by far the most improtant thing to me. I'm with quite possibly the most wonderful woman in the world. She is absolutly amazing! At this point in time I think my life is pretty well set on the right track right now.
I am a computer technition by hobby, a DJ for secondary employment, but I Primarily work for Johnston Autostores in Algona, IA. It's quite a drive, but believe me... I can make it fun! I also work on the Forest City Ambulance Service. I am also blessed with the ability to get just about any small engine running in a short period of time. Some people call me a jack of all trades, but I'm just the Benji lol!.
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