"And All That Could Have Been"
breeze still carries the sound
maybe i'll disappear
tracks will fade in the snow
you won't find me here
ice is starting to form
ending what had begun
i am locked in my head
with what i've done
i know you tried to rescue me
didn't let anyone get in
left with a trace of all that was
and all that could have been
please
take this
and run far away
far away from me
i am tainted
the two of us
were never meant to be
all these pieces
and promises
and left behinds
if only i could see
in my nothing
you meant everything
everything to me
gone
fading
everything
and
all that
could have been
could have been
please
take this
and run far away
far as you can see
i am tainted
and happiness
and peace of mind
were never meant for me
all these pieces
and promises
and left behinds
if only i could see
in my nothing
you meant everything
everything to me
"In This Twilight"
watch the sun
as it crawls across a final time
and it feels like
like it was a friend
if its watching us
and the world we set on fire
do you wonder
if it feels the same?
and the sky is filled with light
can you see it?
all the black is really white
if you believe it
as the time is running out
let me take away your doubt
we can find a better place
in this twilight
dust to dust
ashes in your hair remind me
what it feels like
and i wont feel again
night descends
could i have been a better person?
if i could only
do it all again
but the sky is filled with light
can you see it?
all the black is really white
if you believe it
and the longing that you feel
you know none of this is real
we will find a better place
in this twilight
"Right Where It Belongs"
see the animal in his cage that you built
are you sure what side you're on?
better not look him too closely in the eye
are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
see the safety of the life you have built
everything where it belongs
feel the hollowness inside of your heart
and it's all right where it belongs
what if everything around you
isn't quite as it seems?
what if all the world you think you know
is an elaborate dream?
and if you look at your reflection
is it all you want it to be?
what if you could look right through the cracks
would you find yourself
find yourself afraid to see?
what if all the world's inside of your head
just creations of your own
your devil's and your god's
all the living and the dead
and you're really all alone?
you can live in this illusion
you can choose to believe
you keep looking but you can't find the woods
while you're hiding in the trees
what if everything around you
isn't quite as it seems?
what if all the world you used you know
is an elaborate dream?
and if you look at your reflection
is it all you want it to be?
what if you could look right through the cracks
would you find yourself
find yourself afraid to see?
"Somewhat Damaged"
so impressed with all you do
tried so hard to be like you
flew too high and burnt the wing
lost my faith in everything
lick around divine debris
taste the wealth of hate in me
shedding skin succumb defeat
this machine is obsolete
made the choice to go away
drink the fountain of decay
tear a hole exquisite red
fuck the rest and stab it dead
broken bruised forgotten sore
too fucked up to care anymore
poisoned to my rotten core
too fucked up to care anymore
broken bruised forgotten sore
too fucked up to care anymore
poisoned to my rotten core
too fucked up to care anymore
in the back
off the side
far away
is a place
where i hide
where i stay
tried to say
tried to ask
i needed to
all alone
by myself
where were you?
how could i
ever think
it's funny how
everything that swore it wouldn't change
is different now
just like you
would always say
we'll make it through
then my head
fell apart
and where were you?
how could i
ever think
it's funny how
everything you swore would never change
is different now
like you said
you and me
make it through
didn't quite
fell apart
where the fuck were you?
"The Becoming"
i beat my machine
it's a part of me
it's inside of me
i'm stuck in this dream
it's changing me
i am becoming
the me that you know he had some second thoughts
he's covered with scabs he is broken and sore
the me that you know he doesn't come around much
that part of me isn't here anymore
all pain disappears
it's the nature of
of my circuitry
drowns out all i hear
there's no escape from this
my new consciousness
the me that you know he used to have feelings
but the blood has stopped pumping and he is left to decay
the me that you know is now made up of wires
and even when i'm right with you i'm so far away
i can try to get away but i've strapped myself in
i can try to scratch away the sound in my ears
i can see it killing away all of my bad parts
i don't want to listen but it's all too clear
hiding backwards inside of me
i feel so unafraid
annie, hold a little tighter
i might just slip away
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
it won't give up it wants me dead
and goddamn this noise inside my head
"Wish"
this is the first day of my last days
i built it up now i take it apart
climbed up real high, now fall down real far
no need for me to stay the last thing left i just threw it away
i put my faith in god and my trust in you
now there's nothing more fucked up i could do
wish there was something real
wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i'm the one without a soul
i'm the one with this big fucking hole
no new tale to tell
twenty-six years on my way to hell
gotta listen to your big time hard line bad luck fist fuck
don't think you're having all the fun
you know me
i hate everyone
wish there was something real
wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you
i want to but i can't turn back
but i want to
"Something I Can Never Have"
i still recall the taste of your tears
echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears
my favorite dreams of you still wash ashore
scraping through my head 'till i don't want to sleep anymore
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing
and i'm starting to scare myself
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i just want something
i just want something i can never have
you always were the one to show me how
back then i couldn't do the things that i can do now
this thing is slowly taking me apart
grey would be the color if i had a heart
come on tell me
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing
and i'm starting to scare myself
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i just want something
i just want something i can never have
in this place it seems like such a shame
though it all looks different now,
i know it's still the same
everywhere i look you're all i see
just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be
come on tell me
you make this all go away
you make this all go away
i'm down to just one thing
and i'm starting to scare myself
you make this all go away
you make it all go away
i just want something
i just want something i can never have
i just want something i can never have
