traveling is important to me it is in my nature the Saggatarian in me to explore, discover and adventure. i also really like photography, i have been taking photos for the last 15 years or more; my flickr.com page is www.flickr.com/photos/know_one33 the better pics are private but there are some available to all: enjoy
It is also important to me to take care of myself and exercise not just my brain but also my body.
i love to ride my bike and i used to play soccer for 12 years; being healthy is very central to my life i hope to engender that quality in others, and to help circumvent the march towards death and self-destruction that so many are mindlessly trudging towards...
i am heavily involved in psychedelic shamanism but do not think that you have a monopoly on what that means, i will give you a big clue: it does not have anything to do with drugs or substances, it is the way called mystery a tribal Tao if you will...
i like to help people break the old chains of puritanism in themselves which tells themselves that they are unworthy of being loved or of loving themselves...and to help people accept their sexuality, that it is not wrong or shameful or 'sinful'
the point about sexual healing is to come to terms with your own sexuality whatever it may be and accepting it wholeheartedly without judgment or condemnation, for womyn to stop seeing themselves as sexual objects and to not engage in relationships only for the sake of safety or security. it really hurts me when a sister stays with a man she doesn't love and who doesn't love her only because she is afraid of what could be 'worse' if she is alone...
i think that being alone can be very healing and cleansing if done in a way that is honest and doesn't come from a place of self loathing, self pity or escapism...i myself love to be alone and to be around people either way!!!
Music
i think that more people should have more of the sacred, the sublimity, and the surrender that can come with a humble and complete appreciation of what music is, and that it is one of our greatest gifts.
Nietzche said that without music life would be a mistake and i have to agree with that, there is much more that i would like to say about music i feel that i have a deep respect for what a blessing it is and i hope you do as well...
there is not enough room here for me to expound on all the bands that i love but here is a few Amon Tobin, Alizee, Atmosphere, Aesop Rock, Armsbendback, Aphex Twin, Autchre, Air, Alice in Chains, Alice Cooper, AM Radio, Aphrodite, Armor for Sleep, The Art of Noise, Avalanches, Asain Dub Foundation, Blackalicious, The Black Eyed Peas, Badly Drawn Boy, Beck, Belle & Sebastian, Bjork, Boards of Canada, Broken Social Scene, Buck 65, Bush (not the so called prez), British Sea Power, The Black Heart Procession, The Beatles, Bone Thugs and Harmony, Cake, Camper Van Beehtoven, Cold Play, The Color Red, Counting Crows, Cowboy Junkies, Chevelle, The Crystal Method, Cypress Hill, Cat Power, The Cranberries, Calexico, Coil, The Dandy Warhols, Danzig, Dashboard Confessional, De La Soul, Dead Prez, Death Cab for Cutie, Deep Forest, Dj Shadow, Dj Clue, Dj Spooky, Dj Dara, D12, Daft Punk, Delerium, Dorkweed, Depswa, David Grey, Dead Can Dance, Earlimart, The Eels, Enya, Enigma, Evanescence, Everything but the Girl, Elliot Smith, Eminem, Faith & The Muse, Faith & Disease, The Fiery Furnaces, The Fire Theft, Fischerspooner, The Flaming Lips, Floyd Jones, Flogging Molly, Franz Ferdinand, Frontline Assembly, Funker Vogt, Future Loop Foundation, The Futureheads, Garbage, Godsmack, Gwar, Guns & Roses, The Ghetto Boys, godflesh, Goldfrapp, Gorillaz, Haujobb, The Helio Secquence, Handsome Boy Modeling School, If Thousands, The Innocence Mission, Interpol, Iron & Wine, Jacob the Baker, Jets to Brazil, Jawbreaker, Jurrasic 5, Kanye West, Keane, The Killers, Kings of Leon, Kings of Convience, Lacuna Coil, Lamb, Lamplighter, Leftfield, Linkin Park, Live, The Long Winters, Loreena McKennit, The Magnetic Fields, Marylin Manson, Maroon 5, The Mars Volta, Maru Mari, Massive Attack, Mates of State, Mellow, Mercury Rev, Miss Kitten, The Misfits, Moby, Modest Mouse, Mogwai, Morcheeba, Mos Def, The Muffs, Muse, Mushroomhead, My Life w/ the Thrill Kill Kult, Nada Surf, Nas, Natalie Merchant, Neutral Milk Hotel, The New Pornographers, Nightmares on Wax, Northern State, The Orb, Papa Roach, Pedro the Lion, People Under the Stairs, Philip Glass, Pigface, Pinback, Pink Floyd, Placebo, Plasticman, The Polyphonic Spree, The Postal Service, Praga Kahn, Queen, Queensriche, Radiohead, The Red House Painters, Red Stars Theory, Rilo Kiley, RJ D2, The Rolling Stones, Rouge Wave, The Rubber Duckie Experiment, Rush, Sanford Arms, The Sea & Cake, Sigur Ros, Silkworm, Sleater Kenny, Sleepytime Gorilla Museum, The Smashing Pumpkins, Snow Patrol, Sparklehorse, Stars, Stellastarr*, Switchblade Symphony, Switchfoot, Swollen Members, Talib Kweli, Talvin Singh, Therion, They Might Be Giants, Tool, Tricky, Velvet Acid Christ, The Velvet Underground, Vendetta Red, Ween, Weezer, West Indian Girl, The White Stripes, The Wise Guys, Wu Tang Clan, XTC, Year of the Rabbit, The Zutons and much much more
i like more films than movies esp independent
here are some of my favorite movies they are in no particular order
Apocalypse Now, The Thin Red Line, The English Patient, Ghost Dog: Way of the Samurai, Glen Gary Glen Ross, Ameliee, Adaptation, Equilibrium, Hero, Kill Bill, House of Flying Daggers, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Kung Fu Hustle, Akira, Vampire Hunter D, Ninja Scroll, Amerikan Beauty, The Legend of 1900, Sideways, Iam Sam, I Heart Huckabees, Waking Life, Sideways, Ghost in the Shell, What the #@^%* do we know, Schitzopolis, Minority Report, The Matrix, The Lord of the Rings Trilogy, Aliens, Office Space, Sin City, Pleasantville, Predator, The Big Lebowski, Raising Arizona, The Butterfly Effect, Snatch, Donnie Darko, Twin Warriors, Romeo Must Die, Spaceballs, The Minus Man, Along Came Polly, The Devils Advocate, Constintine, Total Recall, Terminator 2, Instinct, The Game, Whats Eating Gilbert Grape?, The Ninth Gate, Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas, Oceans 11, Full Metal Jacket, Eyes Wide Shut, A Clockwork Orange, Dr. Strangelove, The Cell, The Silence of the Lambs, the Minus Man, Falling Down, Batman (the first one), James Bond and some of the older ones with Shan, Hilander the first one, Stargate (the movie not the show), Existenz, AI, I Robot, LA Confidential, A Beautiful Mind, Gladiator, 12 Monkeys, Hellraizer, The People vs Larry Flint, When Night is Fallen, Better Than Chocolate, Bound, Chocolat, The Last Samuri, Star Wars but i like the orginals better, Your Friends & Neighbors, and many others most recent awesome movie was THE FOUNTAIN so amazing
i have read so many books that its hard to remember them all here is a list of some and for anyone who wants to know
Power vs Force by David Hawkins a look at the hidden determinates of human behavior...
my absolute favorite book is Siddhartha by Herman Hesse i could write a book on why i love that book it is that good and one of the only books i have ever cried to, not because it was sad but because it was so beautiful it left me KNOWING that i am Siddhartha, that you are Siddhartha and that we are all on the path of Siddhartha and nothing we can do will make us stray from that path...more on that later...
other books by Hesse i have read are Damien, Steppenwolf, The Glass Bead Game, Rosschild, and Narcissis and Goldmund. i plan on reading everything by him he has written
Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert Hienlin, one of the most powerful science fiction books ever written it literally spawned a generation and initiated a movement that is vast and still going on to this day
The Lucifer Principle by Howard Bloom,
Prometheus Rising...The Cosmic Trigger I,II,III, Quantum Psychology, The New Inquisition, and the walls came tumbeling down, Illuminatus! by Robert Anton Wilson,
World of a Thousand Colors...The Majapoor Chronicles...Tower of Glass...Valantines Castle...Valantine Pontifix by Robert Silverberg,
Beyond Good & Evil...Thus Spake Zarathustra...The Gay Science by Nietzche,
Fear & Trembeling...The Sickness Unto Death by Soren Kiekagaurd,
The Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis,
The Lord of the Rings Trilogy J.R.R Tolkien,
Nothing in this book is true but its exactly the way things are by Bill Frizel,
Remember BE Here Now by Ramm Dass,
Behold A Pale Horse by William Cooper,
The Ancient Secret of the Flower of Life by Duronvelo Melkezedek,
Ishmael, My Ishmael, The Story of B, Beyond Civilization by Daniel Quinn,
i have read every book by Carlos Castenada
Play of Conciousness by Swami Muktananda,
Dandelion Wine...The Martian Chronicles, Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury
Sugar Blues by William Dufty,
The Art of Shen Ku by Zeek,
Awaken Healing Light of the Tao by Mantak and Mantewan Chia,
Dune by Frank Herbert
Flow my Tears the Policeman Said by Philip k. Dick,
The Dancing Wu Li Masters, and the Seat of the Soul Gary Zukov,
Enders Game by Orson Scott Card
The Tao of Physics by Frjita Caprov
Emotional Intelligence by Daniel Golemann
The Souls of Black Folk by W.E.B. de Bois
The Wind in the Willows by Kenneth Grahame
The Undiscovered Self...Memoirs, Dreams, Reflections by Carl Jung
No boundary, a brief history of everything, and Integral Spirituality by Ken Wilber
and so many more i just cant remember them all right now
Heroes
There are many people that i admire but few who i can call heroes
Alex Grey he is a transcendental artist who draws spiritual art with people and places depicting the lines of energy and attraction...you can look him up at alexgrey.com...
i very much admire the Dali Llama and he is a man i would really like to meet he is one amazing human being and he has made me cry on more than one occasion and anyone who can bring me to tears is someone that i really care about or someone who is extremely powerful im not by nature an overly emotional person but that does not mean that i am unfeeling or detached from my emotions i am sensitive and caring and a lot of people have told me that i am empathic...
Nietzche even though i don't agree with what he says about girls and i dont justify his rhetoric i still admire his work not necessarily the man himself i have read almost everything he has written...
Robert Anton Wilson he is someone i wish more people knew about he has written so many books and is creative and imagintive and yet pragmatic and sensible i was very moved by the book 'Promethus Rising' it is a book that will change your life if you let it simply put it is about being free and breaking from the chains that you cannot see...
Inga Muschio for her daring and boldness for the book CUNT which in my opinion is one of the books every woman should read it made me laugh, cry, think and it also made me mad i cant fully describe her work any better than she can but it is a powerful work...
Gandhi, the Dali Lama and all those who seek to unite
the philosopher/mystic Ken Wilber is an amazing human being and one that i have come to appreciate as a vitally important visionary of our time, i have read 3 of his books and i plan on reading every book he has written in time, so far i have read 6 of his books
About me: to Know the One is to Be the One iAM such a One(the word proniac is the antithesis of paranoiac it means someone who is convinced that unseen forces are conspiring on our behalf)
who am i? i am an abysmal mystery not to myself but to most people...i do not intend for people to be afraid of me but i am at the same time not going to go out of my way to explain myself or justify who i am to anyone...i am 28 in this body and my story is long and difficult to explain.
i am an intergalactic hitchhiker (no not the movie) and i am here on a mission from my real home. i am polyamorous not a slut, and currently i have no lovers. i am not looking for someone to complete me but i do need the Goddess in my life.
i am spiritual by nature and i know that we all are its just that some of us are not as aware of that fact as others...i cannot say what the most important concept is to me but i have a list it goes COMPASSION, WHOLENESS, ONENESS, BALANCE, UNITY, HUMILITY, LOVE, REVERENCE AND AHIMSA (which is one of the 8 limbs of yoga it means non harming, both to self and to other sentient beings)...
i do worship the Goddess and i know i owe her my life and wellbeing she is my provider and protector...i know that i live in an existential multiverse where life is a serious joke, and i am a joker in a world full of clowns. (the difference between a joker and a clown is simple, when a clown makes you laugh you laugh briefly and then you forget but when a joker makes you laugh you laugh and then you remember forever, a joker laughs at and with the absurdity of the absurdity, a clown at and with the banality of the banality).
i do not write much poetry anymore instead i have decided to imbue it in my life and become myself a living poem...a living, breathing, walking crime...
i think that life is a gift to be received not a task to be taken or a test to be passed nor a race to be won...i cannot tell you what the innermost core of my philosophy is because to do so would be to shit on it...
my occupation is simple i am a messenger and i work for Prometheus and other Powers to help rekindle the spark of omniscience...it means that you don't know everything and neither do i but the synthesis and synergy of our knowledge is limitless and we are all of us tied into that 'database' known as the Jungian Unconscious...i am only a facilitator in reminding people that, that spark exists and sometimes i help remind that spark but i never own it no person owns it because its not a possession its a gift...there is so much more that i could say but for now i will go with what i have
Who I'd like to meet: the one(s) i Love who will Love me back...
i am looking for a Goddess to be with me in a mutual reciprocity i want someone who will appreciate me for me and not try to force me to fit a mold. i too want someone who is similar to me but i am not going to 'make' someone be like me, or do what i do.
i have decided over time that i do not want to date meat eaters or ciggerette smokers, i do not have a judgment about them as people, it is the activity that i do not want to surround myself with especially in an intimate (kissing) relationship.
the people who know me know that i have a sense of humor but it is not the kind of humor that is easily understood, i want someone who can have an equal regard for both seriousness and for hilariousness. i would like someone who has a zest for life and a PASSION for the fullness of its flavors.
socially i would like to meet people who are interested in having and participating in intentional community with an honest appreciation for what that would mean and why it is vital that we return to the 'archaic' or to the neo-archaic revival of respect for the earth, ourselves and each-other.
i am trying to start a tribe of people with a focus on healing and creating liberation, it is like a seed that will, in time bear much fruit...
My friends are the rebirth of light They are the bridge to the next hope A new undersatanding of Humanity They are light and you are one of them I am blessed as your friend
my normal blog is nostoppingplace. blogspot. com so u know... dont know if you have seen it. anyway miss you... hope california is interesting.stop by LA 4 me and check out the movie stars.. just the thought of you going up to Paris Hilton to talk about violence or ants or Prometheus or godesses or... the next part is for my laughter
I had the strongest urge to call you the other day on the bus to bothell getting strong vibes and reading a book called spiritual light and learning re-learning what i already know.. want to speak with you want to see you. love you
i think you would find interesting the book i am reading 'living with joy' by sanaya roman and orin her spiritual guide...very interesting and resonating very close to home..
PS. I love your music choices.. Sometime I need to download some of your stuff and you can get some of my stuff... I have a lot of classical stuff you might like and you have a much more extensive rock/folk/whatever band collection...
i dont want to love anybody anymore because nobody wants to be loved and i am sick. as lorca says, free me of the torture of seeing myself fruitless. Dave the violinist, the guy who i always thought of as the reincarnation of wittgenstein, is just nothing but information. he is staying here and he is exhausting me with the way he is incapable of the simplest kinds of reciprocation and he is trying to control everything and wont stop. seems that most of my friends are incapable of reciprocation completely, i just didnt notice until...i did something that would make dave the violinist hate me, which is do drugs. and do something to make dave cutright hate me, which is become am escort. and do something to make sonya hate me, which is show too much vulnerability and honesty it makes her annoyed. andmake burrow hate me by wanting to be loved and expecting that he had more in him than nothing. and make amy hate me by asking how i could love her. why is everybody so hung up on cruelty? d the violinist still hasnt figured out i am an escort and fuck guys for money. today was the worst guy i've ever seen that is why i am wrtiting this email to more people who dont care. so you can read this and laugh and not care too. because that's how much faith i have in people now. i no longer care if i reach anybody. nothing is good enough. just keep beating me for taking too many chances and i'll care even less. or ignore me and this email and guess how i feel? sick. evertime somebody doesnt respond to my "oh please pay attention to be bullshit" (is that what you think it is? then I knew you were an asshole and wrong to the core) then i just lose some respect, and i lose a part of myself.
I'm so sad my dear.. they tear me to pieces over again. I have moved out, but now my closest friend says over and over that he is the smartest person he knows. anybody who says that must not be very smart. please read my latest journal entry. it is a letter to michael. i am very sad. love, your friend.
GOT YOUR MESS. -age. SHIT FUCk shiT FUCK SHIT FUCK I JUST GOT THIS MESSAGE IT IS WED. I MEANT TO SEE YOU SEVERAL TIMES B4 YOU LEFT BUT THEN AGAIN I STILL DONT HAVE MY APARTMENT. IM SO SORRY ABOUT THIS. WHEN YOU WILL BE BACK MY DIGNIFIED UNICORN? COME BACK..... TOGETHER WE COULD CONQUER ROME. AND THE WORLD.
ps. I am seriously in love with your new layout. I think it's the best one I've seen so far on myspace. I'm not kidding you..it's prrrrrfect .
ok beautiful, have an awesome experience- no i dont know much about the fest- but im sure you will fill me in when u get back- have a safe trip xxxxxxxxxclaud ps im expecting to be in your neck of the woods this time next year- which is sooo soon its crazy...:)
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