KoMiKaZe E

About me:

People ask me, “What does your Tattoo mean?” Well... Here’s what it means: I was born in Thailand into Buddhism. My mother was very young, had 4 kids, and lived in a shack. I use to go to the river to wash clothes because we had no running water. While there, I saw dead bodies floating down stream because right across the river was Vietnam. My real dad was in Vietnam... no idea what happen with him. My mom married an American soldier. He adopted two of the kids, my sister and I. Growing up, we traveled the U.S. & Pacific abroad. Back then... I dealt with a lot of racial discriminations, a foreigner going to American schools, so... I got into a lot of fights, and that was elementary... lol. At 11 yrs old, my best friend Scott, hung himself. At 12, I joined a gang to get protection. Stole my first car at 14. I started dealing drugs. Got busted at 16, so tried to live right. I got a High school diploma, went thru Tech school and college. I tried to have regular job. That stuff did me no good... went right back into gangs, dealing & stealing. Again, back into fights, got stabbed, got shot at, in & out of jail. Most of friends were either dead or in jail. After awhile a clientele was built up and began living a lavish lifestyle. I got married in 91', she knew and enjoyed the rewards. 92' had a son, I knew then I needed to change. I took the dirty money and started investing. Needless to say I got robbed on a lot of the investments. My wife was a Christian. 96' we started going to church. We tried to start changing our lifestyle, being legal that is. May 27, 1997.. I received the baptism of the Holy Spirit! JESUS radically saved me! ..>
.. -------------------------------------------- I thought because now I'm a Christian that I wasn’t going to have anymore troubles. Quickly did my thinking changed. Three months later I was set-up & sent to jail. I spent more time than ever. I would usually be out within 24-72 hrs. Not this time. I was pissed at God. Cussed him out. My thoughts were, this isn’t supposed to happen to Christians... WTF!! While temporarily incarcerated, I got into fights & of course, got solitary confinements. One of my gang friends’s stabbed another inmate & he disappeared. I got beat down by the guards. I thought my life was over... that I was gonna get 20yrs for something I didn't do! Well I knew I was going to heaven so I tried taking my own life. That didn't work either. God saved me again! So I began reading the Bible, what else can you do when you're locked down & can only come out for 30min for a shower.... After awhile, I understood.... it wasn’t God’s fault for the circumstances... we are the cause of our own demises, whether directly or from our ancestral line.... Prayer works... charges were dropped & I was released.... Problem... I had lost everything I owned. My cars & house got repo-ed. The Feds confiscated my property. I only had the clothes I went to jail in also had lost contact with my family and several friends. My wife had passed away. She had overdosed on prescription drugs; Xanax, Foricets & Vicodens. My 7yr old son, the government took away my rights & took him to foster care & put him up for adoption. I didn’t know where he was. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Fast Forward to this year 2009 - IN MY LIFE….. Jesus is real and alive. Buddha never saved me. God has restored everything and then some! I adopted my son back. I have a couple of legitimate businesses, New cars and toys, Nice house…. but those are just material things that don’t mean crap! People ask, “Would you go back and change anything?” My reluctant reply, “Probably not… I am who I am today because of the S#!+ I went thru yesterday, makes me a stronger person for tomorrow!” Anyone can change... it's got to be in their heart & will... take some time... read for yourself the bible... especially the book of John, Acts and JOB (He went thru some crap!) I’m not gonna preach to ya... I’m still under construction... That was my hell... What was yours? ..............PeAcE---><))> .KoMiKaZe ..

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