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  • Regarding the Road




    Regarding the Road




    I cannot see the road ahead

    each step I take's a mystery

    but still I must continue on

    Regardless


    blind in one respect alone

    I can see the path behind me

    how every step I've taken

    led me to this time and place

    Regardless


    I made my choices

    with the best of intentions

    did they matter?

    I cannot say

    I did not build this road I travel

    Regardless


    so I continue on

    knowing that in a single instant

    everything can change

    Regardless


    yes I continue on

    foreword without sight or knowledge

    what choice is there?

    Regardless?


    the only thing I know

    despite my ignorance

    the road knows where it's taking me

    and I suppose that will suffice

    Regardless




  • aleph




    aleph


    You are the first letter

    of my alphabet

    the lines are neatly drawn

    deep deep within me

    always with me

    already inscribed in me

    before they came to animate

    this envelope of clay

    they were carved beneath the skin

    of my right arm

    and my brow

    written right behind my eyes

    so close I could not see them

    from the beginning

    they brought illumination

    to my inner darkness

    a glowing warmth against the outer chill

    a burning sustained in self-renewal

    a presence felt

    the source beyond my grasp

    your sign engraved upon me

    your stylus cuts me open and I am

    exposed

    revealed

    ashamed of my nakedness


    You are the first letter

    of my alphabet

    carved into my heart

    containing memories just out of reach

    one breath

    one single breath

    carried on the wind

    one sweet breath

    and one alone

    and all the rest is commentary


    A laugh like

    A leaf

    A loft

    All left behind back on the ground

    Ah lift me up if you will

    Ah life




  • Thunder at Darwin Station (Complete and Revised) Part 1

    Back in the good old days of MySpace, I posted a five minute write on a topic given to me by Blackbird, which was Thunder at Darwin Station. To be honest, it took me more like an hour to write, but that's besides the point. After posting it, I decided it would be the first of a series of ten thunders, and each one was written and posted over a period of two or three years. When I posted the last one, I said I'd put together the series in its entirety in one post at a later date. That was right before MySpace imploded. And even though there aren't very many folks left to read it, I recently had the urge to put the ten poems together in one file, and then made some modest revisions, and I figured I'd keep my promise and post the series. Unfortunately, some of the formatting won't stick due to the degraded blogging software here, and they're not letting me post the entire length at one go, so I'm going to have to break it up into two posts. I'm posting the first one second, so they'll be lined up correctly in the blog. So here we are, and here we go:


    Thunder at Darwin Station (Complete and Revised) Part 1


    First Thunder


    Ty ran a sore loser off the field

    lounge lizard living la vida dolorosa

    says, baby do you come here often?

    says, you must be a fossil, babe, because I dig you!


    origin of the specious

    a line of slow descent

    the passion, the way

    don't cross me baby

    don't shoot me down

    the cavalry is coming, babe

    no, no, I ain't joshing you

    survival of the fit test the battle

    so let's go jerry commando

    sow while dotes

    and sects you'll know

    reap production


    and me, I just have to ask

    is it just a random mutation that brings you here tonight?

    is it acquired traits passed down, a remarkable adaptation?

    does the crew see fiction or faction in your story?

    do you see just in theory Thee receive me do you see me?

    have I changed so much?

    have I evolved?

    am I reborn for you?

    I won't kiss and teleologically tell your theology

    No O Sphere!

    No O Globe!

    No O Gaia, my mother, my lover divine!


    Let that meaty ore strike us down

    and we will go quietly into the long night

    between instinct and extinct we will hold lightning in a bottle

    and a mighty roar will echo across the eons and ions:


    Say Shazam now

    let's transform now

    say it with me

    say it now

    say it ten times

    ten times over

    say Shazam now

    say it now!


    reach your plateau

    and I'll be waiting, at the station

    with punctual equilibrium

    I'll be waiting there for you

    I'll be waiting at the station, babe

    I'll be waiting there for you


    when the very last train's leaving town



    Second Thunder


    Scoping out the trials

    and errors

    that brought us to

    the brink. Is it

    evil you shun?


    Standing on the edge

    of Eden's river

    you stare...

    Searching for

    the one?


    Do you fear the grave mother

    who buries us all?

    Do you resist her embrace?

    Do you turn from her face?


    The current flows inside your head

    your reptile brain is roaring red

    but is it anger

    or just appetite

    that keeps you in your place?


    Bloodline manqué

    climbing up

    your family tree

    a clinging I.V. divine?

    Or a poison cup of wine?


    Is it blues that you bleed

    for your once-noble breed?

    Do your ancestors cry out

    in apish descent?


    Swinging from the branches

    going out on a limb

    is the weight too much to bear?

    Do you even have a prayer?


    Take communion with eukaryotes

    and sing amoebal hymns on high

    to the glory and the mystery

    of our divine chemistry

    to Life in all its variety

    and that will suffice for piety



    Third Thunder


    Thomas Henry said to Charles,

    "I will be your bulldog, Sir!

    Steadfast and unwavering,

    Faithful and true,

    Loyal to a fault;

    I shall not falter,

    Neither shall I loose my grip

    As we progress,

    Side by side,

    Shoulder to shoulder,

    Arm in arm,

    To arms!

    Onward Soldiers of Science,

    Marching as to war!

    A Selective Service most natural,

    Fit to survive the Jerichonian fight!

    So sound the horns!

    Signal the attack!

    Let the great trumpets trill and blast!

    Hear the deep rumble leading to awe-filled ascent, O Man!

    Tremors of transformation give rise to a terrible wail,

    As brick and mortar shake and crumble,

    As we call down the walls of ignorance,

    With a word!

    Change!

    Change is the only constant, good comrade Charles!

    Change shall be our legacy, and inheritance!

    And my student, Herbert George,

    Drinking deep from wells of knowledge,

    Shall sing of the shape of things to come,

    Of animals become men,

    And men become predators and prey,

    Of ecological invasion, and the rout of civilization,

    And fabian dreams of one world at peace;

    And my grandson, Aldous, shall shout out warnings,

    Of false Utopias,

    Where industry usurps biology,

    And men are mass-produced in factories,

    Matter-of-factly manufactured,

    Designed ever so rationally,

    And caste into a world where all things are fit to a T!

    And dear, dear Charles,

    Your name will be an ism to end all schisms,

    And some will think it capital to call it social,

    And men will fight and die for you!

    It shall be a revolution most glorious, Sir Charles,

    With protest entry formations

    And pure written pride!

    No pope!

    No king!

    No idols!

    Not of tribe, cave, marketplace, or theatre!

    Their craven images smashed to rubble at your feet!

    No gods to serve, Charles,

    Just You, our Lord Protector,

    Seated upon Your Empirical Throne,

    With Theory Crowned, and Sceptred Paradigm,

    And all shall hail Thee,

    And all shall praise Thy Name,

    Our own sweet modern Charlemagne!"



    Fourth Thunder


    Four fearsome horsemen, come riding down the road

    Hooves striking stones, make a dreadful sound

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    Mutation, Competition, Selection, and Extinction

    Four names, four riders, but one ghastly noise

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    Residing in their grim, equatorial habitat

    Emerging one by one, from their island citadel

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    Their baleful hound leads the hunt

    Relentless beagle tracks their prey

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    Knowing no geological barriers

    They are masters of all they survey

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    Flying fast as the swiftest finch

    Harbingers of doom like the albatross

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    Scornful as the mockingbird

    Born of fire, like the mighty iguana

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    With all the rage of the volcano

    Inexorable as the lava flow

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    Clad in impenetrable armor

    In their invulnerable tortoise shell

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    They scour the four corners of the earth

    They swim the seven seas

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!


    They fly across all time and space

    Feel them breathing down your neck

    Galapagos! Galapagos! Galapagos!

    Galapagos! Galapagos!

    Galapagos!



    Fifth Thunder


    overlife or life over

    overlife or life over


    overlife lives

    over and over again

    over and over again

    over and over again


    life over is over

    and over is over is over

    over and out

    over and out


    when it's over

    it's over

    over here

    over there

    over and over

    everywhere


    she is over him

    he is over her

    over and over again

    baby!


    oh vertical

    or horizontal

    all over again

    until it's over

    it's all over

    baby!


    overlife lives for

    ovaries and testes

    ovaries and testes

    baby!


    overlife lives

    le vivre est sur la table

    reading from the book of overlife

    over and over and over again

    close the covers

    life over

    over and out

    over and out


    survival or sousvival

    undergrowth

    underlife

    undercovers

    under and out

    going under

    going down

    down and out

    under and over

    over and under

    double or nothing

    going under

    going down

    drowning in the pool of life

    eugene!


    overlife lives

    over and over and over again

    replication

    reproduction

    reincarnation

    recycle

    revival

    over and over and over again


    overlife lives


    overlife or life over

    overlife or life over


    that which survives

    survives


    and that which does not

    does not


    and that is all


    over and out



    Sixth Thunder


    I went down to the diner—saw you sitting there

    down to the diner—saw you sitting there

    turned around for just one minute and

    you disappeared


    I went down to the diner—sore and aching, got no prayer

    down to the diner—sore and aching, got no prayer

    of ever seeing you again and

    Lord knows my time is near


    I went down to the diner—source of food, water, air

    down to the diner—source of food, water, air

    don't know what hit the place but

    it's something evil, I do fear


    I sat down at your table but my seat was all wet

    spilled a cup of water and they still ain' mopped it yet

    deep fryers are overflowing, smell of oil fills my head

    the staff here ain' good for nothing they don' care if we get fed

    outside they're gunnin' the engines of their hot rods and their bikes

    inside they're actin' like sheep waitin' 'til the butcher strikes

    it's the twenty-third solemn day and it's shadow that they feel

    darkness fills the valley and the past you're knowin' ain' real

    so I went down to the diner to order my last meal


    I went down to the diner—saw you sitting there

    down to the diner—saw you sitting there

    turned away for just one minute and

    you disappeared





  • Thunder at Darwin Station (Complete and Revised) Part 2

    Back in the good old days of MySpace, I posted a five minute write on a topic given to me by Blackbird, which was Thunder at Darwin Station. To be honest, it took me more like an hour to write, but that's besides the point. After posting it, I decided it would be the first of a series of ten thunders, and each one was written and posted over a period of two or three years. When I posted the last one, I said I'd put together the series in its entirety in one post at a later date. That was right before MySpace imploded. And even though there aren't very many folks left to read it, I recently had the urge to put the ten poems together in one file, and then made some modest revisions, and I figured I'd keep my promise and post the series. Unfortunately, some of the formatting won't stick due to the degraded blogging software here, and they're not letting me post the entire length at one go, so I'm going to have to break it up into two posts. I'm posting the second one first, so they'll be lined up correctly in the blog. So here we are, and here we go:




    Thunder at Darwin Station (Complete and Revised) Part 2



    Seventh Thunder


    Old Farmer Gregor planted his seed

    Old Father Gregor followed his creed


    crossing hybrids

    crossing himself


    celebrates their reproduction

    celibate in his devotion


    records their heredity

    recites his Hail Mary


    discovers their dominants

    prays to his Domini


    identifies their recessives

    fingers his Rosary


    isolates their alleles

    praises his Almighty


    describes their genetics

    confesses to his Jesus Christus


    Farmer Gregor will mend all

    his socks

    in the night

    when there's nobody there


    Father Gregor has men dole

    their wages

    to render unto their lords

    and their Lord


    Singing, peas porridge hot

    peas porridge cold

    peas porridge in the pot

    nine days old


    He cannot see, hear, smell, taste, or touch them

    their genes

    his God


    But faith and reason will suffice for him

    for his principles of peas

    for his Prince of Peace


    Singing, some like it hot

    some like it cold

    and some like it in the pot

    nine days old




    Eighth Thunder


    she's selective, don't you know?

    it's only natural, don't you know?

    it's only fitting!


    she'll pick and she'll chose

    so much to gain, so much to lose

    when she plays the mating game


    and she'll decide

    based on who can best provide

    it's only natural!


    and whenever she'll consent

    to follow the line of descent

    from virginity to maternity


    she'll come into her own

    as she's nesting in her home

    as the maiden becomes the mother of eternity!


    holy holy matrimony

    with this ring

    I thee wed!


    holy holy mater-moany

    with this ring

    I thee bed!


    sacrament of sex

    mixing/matching/recombining

    making a production out of reproduction!


    choose with wisdom

    choose with care

    or maybe just whoever's there?


    whomever she selects

    it's only natural, only fitting

    for survival begins and ends with her!


    out of the pool and flowing through

    swimming upstream and spawning true

    floating down the birth canal here comes the offspring!


    Great Mother

    Mother of us all

    Goddess/Empress/Queen


    Mother Nature/Mother Nurture

    Mother Earth/Mother Ocean

    Holy Holy Mother of God


    Venus Willendorf

    Venus Genetrix

    Danu/Nerthus/Frigg


    Gaia/Isis/Ninhursag

    Durga/Devi/Maya/Mai

    Chava/Eve/Lilith/Lucy


    Miriam/Mary

    The Good Lady Madonna

    And Mighty Mighty Mitochondria


    Mater

    Matrix

    Metropolis


    Mother City

    Mother Land

    Mother and Country (and Adam's Apple Pie)


    Mother Tongue

    Mother Board

    (here comes the) Mother Load!


    from sacred prostitution

    to immaculate conception

    she's the source of competition


    it's her intelligent design

    to make them preen

    and make them sweat


    it's a matter of selection

    gestation and maturation

    survival and transformation


    she's the Virgin/Mother/Crone

    it's only fitting, don't you know?

    it's only natural!



    Ninth Thunder


    Watson, come here, I need you

    I seem to have this crick in my neck

    from gazing up at this stairway to heaven

    this spiraling ladder divine


    Watson, come here, I want to see you

    for I fear that I may go blind

    I have stared into the face of the Godhead

    and unraveled the secret of Life


    Watson, come here, it's elementary

    and the base elements' number are few

    Adenine, Cytosine, Guanine, and Thymine

    four horsemen come writing on the wall


    Watson, come here, it's all quite noble

    it's Adam and Eve joined by a rib

    it's Jacob wrestling the angel

    it's self-replicating Diana Parthenos


    Watson, come here, I must be frank

    for I no longer know who I am

    I've seen these molecular mechanisms mate

    could this be the chemistry of love?


    Watson, come here, I need a drink

    make it a double elixir, if you please

    for I've watched their random recombinant dance

    but I don't know the source of the beat


    Watson, come here, please help me

    for now the Bible of Biology's mine

    I've decoded that script so very sacred

    and read from the Book of Genetics


    Watson, come here, I grow dizzy

    from tracing these curves back and forth

    our origins lies back on this corkscrew path

    our destiny lies somewhere up ahead


    Deus ex ribo

    New clay's breath

    A sign?



    Tenth Thunder


    And so it happened to be

    that fate and accident alike

    saw us gathering at the station

    and huddling close, one and all

    waiting for the last train to arrive

    anxious to catch the last ride out of town

    wanting to make that final getaway

    on the Number Ten line

    on the train they call

    Old Thunder


    I saw Watson there

    heading for a phone booth

    he called his good friend Francis to come down

    and together they waited entwined

    what a pair!


    I saw Father Gregor there

    chanting a prayer

    that his Lord have mercy on us all


    I saw Thomas Henry there

    accompanied by Aldous and Henry George

    with old Charles seated regally

    in his wheelchair


    I saw Great Mother there

    and many lesser mothers too

    circulating with compassion and concern


    I saw four horsemen ride down and dismount

    and wait silently

    with the crowd

    gazing up at the charred coal clouds

    and flashes of electric blue

    Vulcan-forged Jovian-hurled Gaia-piercing

    one struck the old family tree

    and the ash came crashing through the roof

    of the diner

    bringing it down

    pease porridge poured all over the patrons

    time to stop monkeying around, the radio said

    when it's over, it's over

    over and out

    over and out


    I saw Judge Scopes come down from the courthouse

    and find his way into the midst of the gathering

    he left the jury hung on his gallows humor

    declared it a mistrial and error

    close-packed

    suit-case closed

    dismissed and adjourned

    it's not my fault, he whispered softly

    the Law wasn't written by me


    I saw Stephen Jay point to some goo—old, primal, alive

    he said, are you feeling lucky to be punctuated?

    is it a period?

    exclamation or interrogative?

    or are you looking for instant comma

    a colonoscopy

    or just a kissed ellipsis?

    it's all equilibrium lost

    and equilibrium regained

    you know, finding the origin of life

    may be the death of me yet


    I heard Father Teilhard speak

    of God's evolving creation of man

    and I heard Doctor Dawkins discuss

    man's evolving creation of God

    while the monkeys leapt and sang about

    the last train to author C. Clarksville

    as an orchestra played Also Sprach

    and Stanley sat in his director's chair

    filming these final moments of

    a journey through time and space

    I'll leave it for the audience to decide, he said

    I won't spell out what it all means

    I'm just a poor boy from the Bronx

    I'm just a simple painter of dreams


    I heard Kurt say he wanted a nugget

    of a novel idea galloping on

    that the simple shall inherit the earth

    while complexities vanish

    into the tar pits of time


    I heard Mother Mary saying

    should he shell out some coins

    from the purse he carries blithely around?

    for I won the bet with a story

    of thunder that gave electrical birth

    to offspring, a nightmarish breed

    I am galvanized by my triumphant tale

    of the evil that men do when they defy

    Mother Nature's maternal labors


    I saw sweet Jane making gorilla talk

    saying, it's good always to recall

    how humble in origin we are

    the glory of apes in the mystery of ages unfolding

    we must love our neighboring species as ourselves


    I saw Rachel spring forth in silence

    full grown, born from the strange foam

    she was covered in carcinomas

    saying, I am no Cassandra

    I've seen it all in my dreams

    I've seen the danger, the disappearance, the destruction

    catastrophe is coming, can't you tell?

    I'll take that last train no matter the destination

    whither thou goest, I will go too


    I heard Sojourner preaching to inquirers

    saying, the truth seems quite clear to me

    assuming your personal evolution

    has given you eyes that can see

    we must all sit down as one species

    as we face up to the final Judgment Day


    I saw old Karl get on a soapbox

    making his marks as he spoke

    I think it's a capital suggestion

    to look for transformations

    when the means of production

    are subject to progressions

    as populations are the object

    of unnatural oppressions

    leading inevitably to revolutions

    resulting in mass extinctions


    ja, ja, I heard old Sigmund shout back

    ja, ja, mein freund, it's true

    the ego thinks it's super to keep a lid on the id

    we see the return of the repressed

    in the dreaming suppressed

    advancing from oral to anal

    and progressing on to the genital

    moving forward by means analytical

    consciousness itself can evolve


    I saw Ivan feeding meat to his dogs

    his voice sounded clear as a bell

    our environment establishes the conditions

    through punishments and rewards

    we are programmed by natural selections

    to be what we eat

    to be how we eat

    to be where and when as well


    I saw Marshall nodding in agreement

    saying, we're sending and extending ourselves

    orbiting in a global embrace

    we have become our own mediations

    but what is the message of life?

    (Neil and Walter echoed the question)

    What is the message of life?


    I saw Albert sitting at a table

    eying a stein of light beer

    he said, no dice, weisenheimer!

    all that exists in this universe are relations

    it's obvious, just do the math

    we are all just energy dynamic

    flowing through the unified field

    through spacetime together as one


    Pablo twirled a mustachio and grinned

    Pick a sober man to see movement

    Pick a sober man to see change

    Pick a sober man to understand

    nature is an art form, he said


    Salvador dallied a bit, quoting Karl

    saying, all that is solid melts away

    even time itself is melting down

    melting down

    melting down

    melting down in entropic decay


    and I heard good King James shout out, rejoice one and all!

    we are witness to translation's transformation

    and riders on rapid transition's transmission

    revel in the thunders and come circle round

    just as all that blooms must one day wither

    so new offspring will spawn from every end

    swimming upstream to a consciousness risen

    here we go loop-de-loo loop-de-lie

    just say yes, is that not right sweet Charles?


    and I saw everyone turn

    and I heard them all quiet down

    as old Charles slowly rose to his feet

    his frail body swaying unsteady

    as he spoke in majestic baritone

    this train has two destinations

    two and only two directions

    evolution and extinction

    evolution and extinction is all

    and it is written that there shall be ten thunders of evolution

    ten great leaps forward in history

    and it is written that there shall be ten thunders of extinction

    ten events of grim consequence

    are they the same ten thunders?

    perhaps, perhaps they are

    no one knows for certain

    no one knows

    no one knows

    and with that

    old Charles sat down


    and I was waiting at the station, babe

    I was waiting there for you

    saying Shazam now

    let's transform now

    saying it ten times over now:

    saying what Thee

    safer wrote

    of Sovereignty and Foundation

    of Splendor, Victory, and Beauty

    of Serenity, Kindness, and Understanding

    of Wisdom, and of Will


    so we enumerate the emanations

    counting down from ten to one

    or counting up and onwards without end

    will we renew the gestating techcoon golem

    to be born anew anointed one?

    will we repair the vessels

    heal the world tree

    heeding the call divine

    of sacred space

    and time

    and love?

    will we delight in gems of new awakening

    or cry out for a finish again?


    and I saw the writing on the wall

    it spelled out

    Di

    Nos

    Aur


    and I heard a choir singing, Allelelujah!

    as the genee got out of the bottle

    and ran off in a fit shouting

    I will fight no more for heaven!


    and I asked

    is there nothing to show

    for all this sounding fury?


    and I heard the horn blow

    and I saw the walls come down

    and I listened as someone cried out

    is there more to it all than survival?

    is there more to it all than mere chance?

    is there more than random recombination?

    is there more than natural adaptation?

    is there meaning to life as we live it?

    is there meaning, and what does it mean?

    our sciences have no answers to give us

    our religions have too many answers to know


    and I saw the train pull into the station

    the last train now arrived

    and we have to go

    we have no choice

    it's the last train

    and there are no more


    and I heard the conductor call out

    all aboard, he shouted, all aboard

    it's the last call from the station

    all aboard the train, he said


    and then I saw you there, babe

    at the station

    you were lost in the crowd

    just like me

    and you saw me there

    from a distance

    you saw me there

    through the crowd

    and we moved

    across the gathering

    through the crowd

    and towards each other

    as the conductor called out

    all aboard the train now!

    all aboard!

    and everyone boarded the train

    the last train

    the very last train

    and we tried to reach each other, babe

    across the crowd boarding the train

    the vey last train out of town

    we tried to reach each other

    as the last train left the station

    the last train

    out of town





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