Last Betrayal

About me:

Every Once in a while, I'm saved by a noun; lifted from the funeral pyre and given to cast a shadow. Eventually however, I am always head first in the noose, waiting for the ground to come undone beneath my feet, trying to get a hard on one last time to die with some Fucking Dignity before the death dealer makes my pains his prey.

No time to kindle, round round, dont think that this wont stop me, dont think it will, dont even think, your not good at it. youre boring blunt and weakness cunts, you think you're so tall and I'm not the shit so dont sit or spin, stand up. I am the punk of the ages, no faces, they all just erase. this place engraved, its heavy yet hollow. dont think just drink, it all comes tomorrow, you never dream, just follow, you me and ours. we fight we feed, we fuck, we bleed, we live we die, we lie, we try! blink, just blink your lies away, just blink the time away, just blink your life away, just blink your eyes away. choking up power, theres no worse glower than the one you give you live and you lye. Just die, make way for the pain and the reign of your tears and the loss of the life of the hearts you've desired. for your heavy hearts and hollow souls, make way for your stepping stones; you call them "love".

deep somewhere down or is it up and to the right? a portal long since locked away now tempts its fate with a gilles de rey as infatuous thoughts threaten to rip out through a cell shaded keyhole. enamorous thoughts so hard to outdue... Lark there hear you not the sound of my feet but instead the sharp metal chains around my soul as they rattle with every footfall. I am dark twisted shadow, sadistic massicistic and a little on edge. I hold the darkest shadow in the brightest room, the flame of the shadows, but not a pyro, i just like to watch fire burn. Bend once break twice, slice and dice my heart in spades, re-captivate and sate my hunger for the pain. Pain i live and pain i give. sorrow brings such sweet parting. Happy is...Denial? My heart once thought it knew the revered happy and love quartets, Four Eye was twice too trusting, thrice mistaken. But mostly I am tired. Tired of the heartstring dance, exhausted with twice shy, exasperated by love and hate, and lonely by and by. I live by days and count with months, when all i really want is "love", yet the heart i still do not trust.

And I feel so inspired with a gun pointed to my head that I find it hard to joke instead about the times that we both fled from Monsters, Dreams, Feelings and Friends. Cut my loose ends, suck your flashy trends, A search for something alive in a constantly moving world of decay. Its all about those moments, those incredible moments where everything slows down, and for a second time almost stops.That wonderful place where muses and familiars often tread, that fragment in time where happiness resides. There are few ocassions in my life where I have space in the corners of my mind enough to focus on the past but when it does it becomes this calling card which we all carry, becomes so inescapable, the things and the people we miss, the Nouns we run from. To just really love where you are in life, knowing theres so much more to live, such powers lie within us to change within an instant...

overwhelmed by heartbeats and skin on skin. butterflies and bloodspeed, 3 hearts I'll bet on winning the heartraces, yours, mine, and ours. nothing i regret more than causing pain of mind, only pain of body i want to cause is my own, but id rather die for you love, Dodge trains and bullets to be with you, Jump in front of them to save you. Never take friendship personal, Love is what matters most. To live is to love, life without it is a pain of mind worse than death. time spent on insults and stupid attempts to be "cool"; who cares about other people and their thoughts...

Brush my teeth thrice before I call you up, I’m still afraid you can smell my breath through the line. You’re walking on candlesticks, I’m trying hard to follow, your so careful not to fall, but my heart’s too heavy, I’ve hit the floor…. You say you don’t want to hurt me but with each new step another flame burns out and you’re getting farther and farther away... I feel hopeless, is love only for the hopeless, or the non?

My Love is the greatest there is...My love is passionate, immeasureable, unconditional, irresistable, irreplaceable, if you chance to come upon it, you will always have it, and if you return it, it will encompass you forever and be all you'll ever need....But Despair, Potentials, for my love is not so easy to come by... it must be earned. If you think youre ready for it you must seek it out, i will not show you where it lies... you must work through my hate, make sure im still alive, love my strawberry fields make your wine...

I Hate People Who say Shit Like "I've learned who my real friends are, and who I can trust." My Friends Are Everything To ME. I Would Do Anything For Them, I'd Gladly Die For Them.

My Anger is not misdirected, Unless It Somehow Misses You. I Fuck to Feel, I Bite to Bleed Such Sweet Agony the Flesh Inflicts; Tongues and Hips and Fingertips, the Pleasure of Pain's Intensity... We Live in this World as if it were what it should be, To show it what it can be... Tear Me Up Baby.