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the Empress card. The Empress is the archetype of the Mother. She creates and nurtures
life. She represents the abundance of Mother Earth. The Empress is capable of using nature
in a productive way. She espouses art for art's sake. Her planet is Venus, and she embodies
love of beauty and a strong value system. Here is also found initial sensation. This is the
first really physical experience of the world that The Fool has entered. The Empress has a
rich understanding of the world based on her five senses. In a reading, The Empress
represents pregnancy, actual or metaphorical. She indicates an act of creation and a
sensual experience of beauty. The Empress is a nurturing force that wishes to see the
product of her experiences reach the next stage of development. Image from A Photographic
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I will read just about anything if it holds still long enough.
I love fantasy, Sci Fi and mystery novels, though.
Heroes
TOM!!! Tom is my hero. The smartest, kindest, most loving man I have ever known. His intelligence completely awes me sometimes, yet he is so quiet and unassuming. I have always thought of myself as a kind, caring, loving person, but Tom has shown me how to be even more so. He showed me when I was being petty or vindictive, and helped me to not be. When he would have every right to be bitter and angry over something, instead he handled it with acceptance and grace, telling me that anger was just a waste of energy. Words I had said myself, but, honestly, rarely put into practice. Until his example showed me how to let it go. When I was estranged from my family, he constantly urged me to rebuild my relationship with them, telling me that he knew my family was far too important to me for me to be truly happy without them. And then he helped me to rebuild that relationship, and to accept my family for who they are and not who I wanted them to be. I have watched him become a wonderful father to my sons, loving them unconditionally, and teaching them by his example to be good men. And he is also the most gorgeous, handsome man I know, although he is just as assuming about that, and honestly has no idea why (or sometimes when) women flirt with him. He has always made me feel safe, and very loved. Because of his love, I was able to trust again, when I never thought I would. He saved my life, he mended my heart, he saved my soul. That is why Tom is my hero.
Layla Spelldreamer Atropos-Gone but not forgotten 's Details
Layla Spelldreamer Atropos-Gone but not forgotten 's Schools
Lindsey Hopkins Technical Education Center
Miami,Florida
Graduated: 1993
Student status: Alumni
Degree: Associate's Degree
Clubs: HOSA Judge; President, Health Student Council; Class Vice President; Co-Valedictorian; Nursing Lab Assistant
1991 to 1993
Ati Career Training Center
Fort Lauderdale,Florida
Graduated: 1989
Student status: Alumni
Degree: Associate's Degree
Major: Emergency Medical Technician/Paramedic
Minor: ACLS/PHTLS/PALS
Clubs: HOSA
National Registry of EMTs
School was then called
MEDICAL ARTS TRAINING CENTER
1988 to 1989
Georgetown University
Washington,Washington DC
Graduated: N/A
Student status: Alumni
Degree: None
Major: English Lit...mostly
Minor: Greek Mythology and Comparitive Religions
Clubs: Just hung out with the cool kids
Belonged to the group of horny adolescent girls who watched the rowing team every morning at dawn.
Had to leave after changing my major for the 11th time---folks were fed up!
May not have gotten a degree, but I DEFINITELY got an education!
Greek:
Zeta Epsilon Nu
hey tom its katey, my mom wanted me to let you know that shes been trying to get a hold of you but your cell phones disconnected. she'd really like you to call her whenever you get a chance. i hope everythings going well for you =]
Oh my gosh. I am broken up to hear you are gone...my heart aches, yet I know you are with your son Korey...I wish I had got to meet you in life, you helped me a lot through my Dads passing. Tell him I said Hi ok. Im so in shock, I was just checkin in to see what was going on...Rest Forever in Peace, with a beautiful eternity...All my love forever, Jenn
Tried calling your mom, got hung up on about 3 times. Called again- got Charlene from American Xprss? Anyhoo, left a voice mail. As for Nannie- I'm homebound right now. Really sick. Don't want to get Nannie sick. I'll try Tony's cell 2nite. Love u!
hey baby gurl! glad you're ok. been super worried about you and yay my laylasita is coming home! woot! time to get my eric clapton out. bonfires. full moons. ale. woot. woot. tried calling tony bologna but he's skateboarding- figures- so I'll call you tomorrow ok? LOVE YOU A MILLION TIMES!
Well, stopping ALL treatment I dont think is good, unless you have alternative ways of dealing with the physical pain. I completely understand that passive death wish you were talking about. It was like, I dont care, so if I drink too much, or take some other med then I die on accident, well...you know the rest. BUT I dont want to leave my sister. I couldnt do that to her. We lost our Dad, it wasnt just me, it was her too, and I couldnt leave her. So when a few things went down I realized Id better get in a program before I do kill myself on accident. I really got scared because I took a methadone pill combined with a lot of alcohol, and my regular meds...klonopin, seroquel, and celexa. The mix could have killed me, Anna Nicole Smiths son died of an accidental combination of similar drugs. I didnt know that. The only problem with this program is that I have to stop taking my klonopin which I need for night terrors and anxiety attacks. I can get something else, but I just dont know what else can take its place and still be non narcotic or whatever they said. And if i go into the residential program I dont want to be waking up the other women in the program with screaming from my night terrors! But, you have to do things , obviously, that you dont want to do sometimes. ( like grieve...) Anyway. I hope you are feeling all right. Talk to you soon. Love and Light to you and yours. Jenn
THank you...you are very much a bright burning torch in this dark tunnel I have reached. Im also going to be going in to recovery for some drug&alcohol problems. I realize I cannot even begin to deal with my fathers death if Im all F***ed up.I mean, I am anyway because hes gone, but making it worse and trying to numb the pain isnt going to get me anywhere. I was trying to go around the mountain, and like you said, it wont work. You just have to go through it. Thanks for being a friend. I really appreciate you. I hope this finds you in a good place. Take care and I will keep in touch. So many people just dont call, or write, or even seem to care, and you do, and like I said, I appreciate you so much for that. Youre an angel to me for just talking to me, people dont realize that just a few words can mean the difference between a day spent in bed, and getting up and making your bed for the day. I think you know what I mean. Lots of love to you and yours. Jenn
Beads would be great ;) Ive been in a terrible state lately without my Dad. I just have no idea how to live the rest of my life without him. (Which Im sure you can say the same of Korey.) God, Im so sorry. I just sit and think, how do I do this? How do I go the rest of my life without seeing him? Talking to him? Hugging him? I just dont know. Its been a few days over 3 months, and as time has passed, I guess as the shock has worn down, I realize that I'll never see him again. Anyway. Im glad you had a good time, and got some messages from Korey. Thats special. And you made me laugh with the midget flying off the roof (or something like that) comment...and my laughs are few and far between nowadays so thank you for that. Hope you are doing ok. Big hugs and lots of love to you and yours.
I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking about you and praying for you, Mom! I love you so much. I know you must be hurting and missing our Korey today. I am right here with you.
Hey Mom How are you and Tom and my little brothers doing? I have been thinking about you a lot lately. I know this time of year is really hard for me as I am sure it is for you all as well. I want you to know that I love you so much. Korey lives on in you and his brothers. Never forget that!!!!
Theres a quote that stood out to me a lot in the book Tuesdays With Morrie. I dont know if youve read it...I got through part of it then watched the movie...lol. But the line is something like, "Shouldnt the world stop? Don't they know what has just happened to me? But the world did not stop. It took no notice at all..." from there, it reminded me of the song "Paint it Black" by The Rolling Stones or redone by Vanessa Carlton and the line "Like a newborn baby it just happens everyday..." I was driving last week and looking at people in cars around me wondering why they werent all going to therapy too, wondering why the world didnt stop when my dad died, when Korey died, why didnt the whole world know that the universe had just ripped wide open? How could they ignore the crack in the sky? Maybe some of them are going through mourning too...maybe some arent...who knows. I look normal day to day, unless Ive been crying, but usually I only cry when Im alone. I dont know if its to spare others to see me in pain, or what. I really dont get it, but I just cant or dont want to cry in front of anyone. Its weird. Anyway. My doggies are running amuck and I need to go see what they are doing. And my ribs are killing me (bruised or something..??) Thank you again for your kind words. I appreciate you very much. Love and Light to you and yours, Jenn
It is sad to to see you go through what you are going through. Some How, i hope you find the strength to get through it all. In my life, I have never suffered a loss such as you have, my full understanding is not as it should be, but i am trying.
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