Music, Film, Parties, Drunken Field Trips, Clubs, Pornography, Pain, Piercings, Tattoos, Deviance, Cheap Wine, Stimulants, Spanging in NYC, Stalking the Troma Team, Antisocial Interaction, Making Out, Living Like a Rockstar on a Poor Girl's Income, Making Light of Horrible Situations, Drugs (Street and Prescription--Mine and Yours), Blood Drives, Public Sex, Scrabble....
Music
Industrial, EBM, a little goth, the occasional silly rap song and lots of random other stuff. A Few Favorites are: Skinny Puppy, Genitorturers, Fiona Apple, KMFDM, Mindless Self Indulgence, Rasputina, Amber Asylum, Recoil....
Movies
Gregg Araki: The Doom Generation, Nowhere, Totally F***ed Up.... John Waters: Pink Flamingos, Cecil B. Demented, Desperate Living.... Lloyd Kaufman: The Toxic Avenger (1-4), Tromeo & Juliet, Terror Firmer... Actually, pretty much anything Troma puts out is great. Lots of random other stuff like Donnie Darko, KIDS, Ma Vie En Rose, But I'm a Cheerleader....
Books
Cottonmouth Kisses by Clint Catalyst, Valencia by Michelle Tea; Exquisite Corpse by Poppy Z. Brite; The Wild Girls Club: Tales from Below the Belt by Anka Radakovich; Girl, Interrupted by Susana Kaysen...
On the reading list for the near future is Brazen Femme: Queering Femininity Edited by Cloe Brushwood Rose and Anna Camilleri, and Pills, Chills, Thrills and Heartache Edited by Michelle Tea and Clint Catalyst
About me: I'm a bit of a mess. I'm a reckless ex-activist girl. Vegan, but not self-righteous and far from straightedge. I smoke, I drink and I drug a little. I can get all dolled up to go out and I can crash in the park for days with homeless friends. I've got a few piercings; septum, labret, navel and nipples. I'm generally up for anything. I think morals are silly, but I find myself clinging to a few so I can justify my anger. I'm still trying to find the ambition and direction I had before I graduated high school, but in the meantime I keep busy by making a huge mess of my life. What have I got to lose?
I'm not a sweet girl. Well, that's not true. If you're looking for sweet-as-pie sweet, look elsewhere. I'm sweet like an Adderall drip. When I go out, I drink more than I should and wear less than I should. I think German is sexier than French or Italian. I don't live with my parents and I went from working in a porn shop to doing porn, so I don't tone down. It's hard for me to have a normal conversation without getting into some gross sex story. I actually can pull off the mature, responsible act for job interviews and family gatherings and whatnot. I'm articulate and thoughtful enough to relax (read: fool) parents, despite my appearance.
Yes, I did say I do porn. That doesn't mean I'll sleep with you. That also doesn't mean I'm a desperate whore. I don't do anything for money that I'd be horribly opposed to doing for free. I do it because I love sex. I do it because I feel like a whore getting $7.00 an hour to wait on irate assholes with a million coupons and no reading comprehension skills while their ten kids tear apart everything in sight. So many people insist that women should be using their minds to make money and not their bodies, but I've been told I was smart all my life. I'm confident in my mental ability. Body image is something I struggled with for a long time. No matter how smart you are, you're stuck in your body. If you're unhappy with it, it carries over into everything you do. I go for opportunities if they'll help me to grow as a person, regardless of what other people think. I've learned that the people who are really important in life are the people who can understand the things that are important to you, or at least respect your choices and support you in your efforts because they know how much it means to you.
Oddly enough, I'm really shy in certain situations, and people tend to assume I'm just stuck up because it's so random. I'm terrible at expressing emotions, but when I do, I'm logical and rational about it. If I can't say it, I don't expect anyone to get it. I don't do the passive-aggressive thing, and I don't have time for it. I'm sick of people who are emotionally reckless. If you can't deal with your problem, don't take it out on people who have nothing to do with it. Be direct and honest if it's something someone needs to know. If someone upsets you, let them know or suck it up.
Hmmm, well now I feel I need to end this section with something more positive, so I'll tell you some things you might not expect. I really like kittens. I secretly like to cuddle, though I'll rarely initiate or ask for any kind of affection. I still sleep with stuffed animals. There are usually at least two teddy bears in my bed (sitting amongst all my sex toys). I tend to be shy around most girls. I'm very aware of the fact that I don't think like a typical girl, and for some reason it takes me a while to get comfortable with them. They just make me feel like I'm walking on eggshells. I love gardening and fresh vegetables. I also love to cook, and I'm really good at it...though that's my only domestic skill.
Oh, and you can see me naked here:
Who I'd like to meet: Bad boys and dirty girls. You know, some foul-mouthed, deviant scumbags. I need someone to be a bad influence. I want to meet people who can shock me. I'd like to meet someone who's able to recognize the difference between aversion and inhibition and knows how to get past the latter. Somehow I've acquired a reputation for being a bad girl, and I guess there's some truth to that. I know they say opposites attract, but in terms of romance, I want someone who can keep up. It seems like bad boys are all looking for good girls and vice versa, and they just want to change each other. Call me lazy, but I'm not into fixer-uppers. I don't want to find myself in some miserable marriage in a few years writing and re-writing letters to Dear Abby in the bedroom while my husband spends nights on the couch watching shitty porn and drinking beer. Okay, you're right. It would probably be the other way around, but still....
That's not to say that I have no use for the happy and wholesome though. I wouldn't mind meeting people who would just be willing to go see indie movies and play Scrabble. We could go to art galleries and yard sales. We could rent videos and order Chinese food. Yeah, that would be nice too.
Oh, I don't want to meet any more liars. As it is, there are so many dishonest people in my life that I can't even get rid of them yet without finding myself really lonely. I've just learned not to trust most people or to limit my trust to certain areas. I'm probably the most understanding person I know, so there's no reason to lie to me. I don't even appreciate tiny lies to protect my feelings, because it just ends up making things worse when I find out the truth. Again, I'm terrible with emotions. I tend to not say anything about a lot of things, but I'm not stupid and I don't appreciate dishonesty for any reason.
Now that all that's out of the way, feel free to send me a message and/or add me, though if there's not much on your profile that tells me about you, please send me a little note explaining why you'd like to be my friend. I swear I'm a nice girl for the most part, a little shy even. Chances are I'd like to hear from you.... If not then I'll try my hardest to tell you gently that you bore me to death or I think you're a fucking jerk. If I don't get back to you right away, I'm probably just really busy or I've forgotten. If your message was, "Wuz good ma," or something similar, I'm probably just not interested though.
Hi! I used to have this clip on my profile. Its the strangest bite of dialogue from one of the strangest movies ever made....and one of my favorites too.
Please share this invitation to join Voices of Diversity as we bring special guest Ignacio Rivera to the 4th annual Hudson Valley LGBTQ Community Center's annual conference, Come OUT & Find OUT. Saturday, November 7, 2009. Kingston Holiday Inn, 503 Washington Avenue. 9:30am - 4:30 pm.
Gender Talk, Ignacio Rivera
Ignacio Rivera, who self-describes as a "queer, gender-shifting, trans-entity, Black Boricua, lecturer, activist, filmmaker and performance artist" will share their* own story of gender identity and fluidity. Ignacio’s story will lead to a discussion of the differences between sex and gender, and the often oppressive gender issues that affect us all.
*"Their" is a gender-neutral, gender-inclusive or epicene pronoun that neither reveals nor implies the gender or the sex of a person.Ignacio Rivera has consulted with various LGBT and non-violence organizations on topics including racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, sexual liberation, violence, and more. Ignacio’s film credits include Crossing, an experimental short, and They, which debuted at Mix New York City Queer Experimental Film Festival in October 2008. Ignacio is one of the founding board members of Queers for Economic Justice, a progressive non-profit organization committed to promoting economic justice in a context of sexual and gender liberation. Visit our website for details and registration info: www.LGBTQcenter.org
Please share this invitation to join Voices of Diversity as we bring special guest Ignacio Rivera to the 4th annual Hudson Valley LGBTQ Community Center's annual conference, Come OUT & Find OUT. Saturday, November 7, 2009. Kingston Holiday Inn, 503 Washington Avenue. 9:30am - 4:30 pm.
Gender Talk, Ignacio Rivera
Ignacio Rivera, who self-describes as a "queer, gender-shifting, trans-entity, Black Boricua, lecturer, activist, filmmaker and performance artist" will share their* own story of gender identity and fluidity. Ignacio’s story will lead to a discussion of the differences between sex and gender, and the often oppressive gender issues that affect us all.
*"Their" is a gender-neutral, gender-inclusive or epicene pronoun that neither reveals nor implies the gender or the sex of a person.
Ignacio Rivera has consulted with various LGBT and non-violence organizations on topics including racism, sexism, homophobia, transphobia, sexual liberation, violence, and more. Ignacio’s film credits include Crossing, an experimental short, and They, which debuted at Mix New York City Queer Experimental Film Festival in October 2008. Ignacio is one of the founding board members of Queers for Economic Justice, a progressive non-profit organization committed to promoting economic justice in a context of sexual and gender liberation.
This year's Come OUT Find OUT Conference will be held at the Holiday Inn on Washington Avenue in Kingston from 9 AM - 4:30 PM on Saturday Nov 7. The conference features national and local speakers, discusses hot issues and the changes that are happening in our community. Come out and find out all the latest about Our World, Our Community, and Ourselves! For more information, check out the conference program.
Hudson Valley LGBTQ Community Center Inc. 4th Annual Educational Conference “Come Out & Find Out” Saturday, November 7, 2009 – 9:30 a.m. to 4:30 p.m. Holiday Inn, 503 Washington Avenue, Kingston, NYThe Holiday Inn is wheelchair accessible.
national speakers, hot issues, changes happening in our community! Come out and find out all the latest about Our World, Our Community, Ourselves!
Registration, including lunch, is:
$25 for General Admission
$20 for Members, Seniors, or Students
Please pay an amount that is comfortable for you – pay more if you can, and less if you can’t. Everyone is welcome! Scholarships are available.
This year's Come OUT Find OUT Conference will be held at the Holiday Inn on Washington Avenue in Kingston from 9 AM - 4:30 PM on Saturday Nov 7. The conference features national and local speakers, discusses hot issues and the changes that are happening in our community. Come out and find out all the latest about Our World, Our Community, and Ourselves! For more information, check out the conference program.
To kick off Unity Through Diversity: Shifting Our Focus, the New York State Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Health Summit, In Our Own Voices is hosting an Opening Reception on Thursday, October 15, 2009 from 6:00 to 9:00 PM at the Desmond Hotel and Conference Center in Albany, NY. The Opening Reception is FREE and open to the public! This is a fun, free evening of music, food, and networking!
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you and dave pretending to be gargoyles. damn no wonder the police got involved. that days sucked but this may be the funniest picture I've seen all week
We are looking for eclectic alternative models that are women of color, all shapes and sizes to be apart of Blacque Widow Dolls online social network!
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Tickets for the Chicago "FESTIVAL OF FIENDS" is now on sale. With the purchase of a weekend pass you will get. Access to the show and all events. One randomnly inserted autograph card, one autographed 8x10, a free dvd(see site for sample titles, and finally the April 2009 issue of Autograph Magazine featuring the Forrest (Famous Monsters Of Filmland) Ackerman collection. While supplies last.The Festival Of Fiends weekend pass also gets you entrence to the PRICK OR TREAT TATTOO FESTIVAL being held in the same hotel For more info head over to http://ultimatehorrorcon.com/
Gender Talk, Ignacio Rivera 
