Man, with his voice, his acoustic guitars, his pianos, his flutes, and his cellos, makes some of the most beautiful sounds i've ever heard in nature, along with the birds, the wind in the trees, and water moving over pebbles in the bed of a stream.
my family, music, poetry, spoken word, visionary and folk art, literature, mythology, depth psychology, homeschooling/unschooling, autism awareness, nature, wine, vegetarian/veganism, animal liberation, crafts/sewing, gardening, herbalism/holisitc healing, astrology, alchemy, the occult
Music
a short list of favorites: Radiohead, Silverchair, Pearl Jam, Rasputina, Led Zeppelin, The Beatles, John Lennon, Tsunami Bomb, Bright Eyes, Bjork, The Toadies, The White Stripes, Neil Young, Muse, The Cure, Smashing Pumpkins, Beck, Leonard Cohen, The Clash, The Pogues, Type O Negative, The Cranberries, Rob Dougan, The Violent Femmes, Rage Against The Machine
who made, who made up, made up the myth/
that we were born to be covered in bliss?/
who set the standard, born to be rich?/
such fine examples, skinny little bitch/
model, role model, roll some models in blood/
get some flesh to stick, so they look like us/
i shit and i stink, i'm real, join the club/
i'd stop and talk, but i'm already in love
-Eddie Vedder, from "Satan's Bed"
Television
Books
Carl Gustav Jung, Joseph Campbell, James Hollis, John and Caitlin Matthews, Edgar Allen Poe, H. P. Lovecraft, Anne Rice, Tom Robbins, George Orwell, William Shakespeare, Charles Dickens, Ernest Hemingway, William Butler Yeats, William Blake, Rumi, Jewel, E. E. Cummings, Henry David Thoreau, Rainer Maria Rilke, Charles Bukowski, Henry Rollins
Heroes
I Know You
I know you/
you were too short/
you had bad skin/
you couldn't talk to them very well/
words didn't seem to work/
they lied when they came out of your mouth/
you tried so hard to understand them/
you wanted to be part of what was happening/
you saw them having fun/
and it seemed like such a mystery/
almost magic/
made you think that there was something wrong/ with you/
you'd look in the mirror trying to find it/
you thought that you were ugly/
and that everyone was looking at you/
so you learned to be invisible/
to look down/
to avoid conversation/
the hours/
days/
weekends/
ah the weekend nights, alone/
where were you/
in the basement?/
in the attic?/
in your room?/
working some job?/
just to have something to do/
just to have a place to put yourself/
just to have a way to get away from them/
a chance to get away from the ones that made you/ feel so strange and ill-at-ease inside yourself/
did you ever get invited to one of their parties/
you sat and wondered if you would go or not/
for hours you imagined the scenarios that might/ transpire/
they would laugh at you/
if you would know what to do/
if you would have the right things on/
if they would notice that you came from a different/ planet/
did you get all brave in your thoughts/
like you were going to be able to go in there and deal/ with it/
and have a great time/
did you think that you might be "the life of the party"/
that all these people were gonna talk to you/
and you would find out that you were wrong/
that you had a lot of friends/
and you weren't so strange after all?/
did you end up going/
did they mess with you/
did they single you out/
did you find out that you were invited/
because they thought you were so weird/
yeah, I think I know you/
you spent a lot of time full of hate/
a hate that was pure as sunshine/
a hate that saw for miles/
a hate that kept you up at night/
a hate that filled your every waking moment/
a hate that carried you for a long time/
yes I think I know you/
you couldn't figure out what they saw and the way/ they lived/
home was not home/
your room was home/
a corner was home/
the place they weren't- that was home/
I know you/
you're sensitive/
and you hide it, because you fear getting stepped on/ one more time/
it seems that when you show a part of yourself that/ is the least bit vulnerable/
someone takes advantage of you/
one of them steps on you/
they mistake kindness for weakness/
but you know the difference/
you've been the brunt of their weakness for years/
and strength is something you know a bit about/
because you had to be strong to keep yourself alive/
you know yourself very well now/
and you don't trust people/
you know them too well/
you try to find that "special person"/
someone you can be with/
someone you can touch/
someone you can talk to/
someone you won't feel so strange around/
and you found that they don't really exist/
you feel closer to people on movie screens/
yeah, I think I know you/
you spend a lot of time daydreaming/
and people have made comment to that effect/
telling you that you're "self-involved" and "self-centered"/
but they don't know, do they/
about the long nightshifts alone/
about the years of keeping yourself company/
all the nights you wrapped your arms around yourself/
so you could imagine someone holding you/
the hours of indecision/
self-doubt/
the intense depression/
the blinding hate/
the rage that made you stagger/
the devastation of rejection/
well/
maybe they do know/
but if they do/
they sure do a good job of hiding it/
it astounds you how they can be so smooth/
how they seem to pass through life as if life itself was/ some divine gift/
and it infuriates you to watch yourself with your/ apparent skill,/
and finding every way possible to screw it up/
for you, life is a long trip/
terrifying and wonderful/
birds sing to you at night/
the rain and the sun/
the changing seasons/
are true friends/
solitude is a hard won ally/
faithful and patient/
yeah, I think I know you/
I'm a social critic and a hopeful cynic. I recently quit smoking. I don't like technology. I'm a hypocrite. I sometimes suffer sleep paralysis upon re-entering my body after random bouts of involuntary astral projection. It's a terrifying experience every time. Out of a desire to remain connected to a sense of my own humanity i do not where tampons or shave.
Due to my flighty Gemini nature and the fact that my priorities are ever changing from day to day i will no longer be keeping a blog anywhere on the internet. I have taken up pen and paper writing in a journal instead.
Since i am part Seer and part Warrior i must have a strong constitution, even if my nerves are weak.
Who I'd like to meet:
The world is full of beautiful, perfectly flawed people.
i dont have cell phone service. :( so now i really have to come to your house tomorrow. so if you want to talk to me email me, until they turn off my internet.
yo just saw that you posted the thingy on my front page never said nothin about new comments so i am just now seeing this oh well.... as you probably surmised no i did not make it out to the show and yes I was breaking my back, my legs, and pretty much my whole body, thank god for beer once i get home though
She has 2 more to go , 5 total, I can't seem to find anything about permanent effects since it's such a "you HAVE to do it" thing I guess people don't want to look into it? ugh. She started the regular shots too, a few months ago, once we realized we'd travel internationally to places she'd [in my opinion] really need them. Hell even with the rabies, the last death in the state was a kid who was bit by a puppy in India.
I hope we can afford to go to Texas this year, I still have no friends here. the main thing so crappy about that being how many friends Amelia would have in Texas, she stalks other kids in stores and stuff going "a baby" "right there" "a girl!"
Greetings! Thanks so much for finding us here on Myspace. We couldn't be happier than to have you as a friend! If you have any questions, comments or even a fleeting thought, please give us a holler! Herbal cheers to you and be well! ~Mountain Rose Herbs~ www. mountainroseherbs. com
Alex Grey an Giger, nice! I wonder if you were the one to introduce me to Giger. He is one of my favorites. :) You would love Royo, I'm sure you know his work though. It was good to see you too, it has been way too long. Its been almost a month now. I've tried this many times. It works for awhile then I revert back to smoking. heh Thank you for the support. :)
Hey! I wish we could have stopped by last weekend, Mom went to the hospital though. I'm hoping I will get to see Tristan before I leave here *I'm in LE* if Jas wants to stop by there Sat before we leave, we'll call! Miss you guys!!!!
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