Leah, little needlefeet.
"this was living and being born and coming for your fucking children in the middle of the night, right in front of you."

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Silent Hill, Colorado
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Somebody's gotta be funny around here. Sure the fuck isn't you.

If I'm not ______ enough or if I'm too ______ for you, well then, fuck you, I guess. I think I'm an all right kid, I get along okay.

Alright, look, though. I'm some dead-beat sixteen-year-old art kid who spends the better half of her time waiting for a bus or participating in activities that involve distinct, passionate human emotion. You can't expect everything from me. I'm hideously flawed. So are you, for that matter; it's what makes the world, and people, and situations so interesting. So pull the stick (or your head) out of your ass, and try to experience something, even if it's something simple. Take it in. The way this world is so despairing can be so beautiful, too. But look, hey. I don't have anything to preach or teach, right? I like to think I know things, just, things, but they're things that seem to only work for me. So, however it goes. For what it's worth, I'll like you or dislike you for who you are, not any other reason. So give it a shot. Whatever "it" is.

Facts: I am very anxious, sometimes outrageous, always kind of un-serious, occasionally obnoxious or insensitive, nervous, and ridden with bad habits. I get bitter very easily. I'm known to leave huge, rotting chunks of my life behind in the dust, including all people involved with them; I guess that means I'm real good at detaching myself. I am fiercely individual. I have an addictive personality but I've learned to kick a lot of the bad ones. I'm hopelessly self-destructive and a hypochondriac, but I really fascinate myself. I'm definitely not fearless, I'm terrified of various diseases and infections and cancers. Staphylococcus could be the worst thing, ever. I'm really into home remedies and vitamins. Whatever it is, I'm probably down. Almost everything is an extended metaphor to me, even math. Experiencing new things and expanding myself are things I do well. Feeling sorry for myself is something I'm terrible at. I'm also terrific at distracting myself from problems that I'm convinced I don't have, and convincing myself I have problems that I don't have. I really like people who can spell, and who can keep up. People who can hold a long conversation with me, or people who've been through similar situations that I have. Even more so, people who are far more outrageous that anything, people who know where their center is, and people who aren't like me at all. Train-hoppers, squatters, or rail kids. I get along best with alcoholics and assholes. I like minor chords and metaphors. Please keep your drugs away from me, I can't handle them anymore and that long phase of my life is, to my gratitude, over at long last. I don't dig shit that's boring, which is probably why I change all the time. I'd like to move to a really fucking dirty place that's filled with something, anything, even turmoil and chaos or murder, so long as it isn't here. I want to make a difference because I think this world is fucked up and I want to make it better, if I can. I still have hope that it's worth fixing.
(See what I mean? Individual bias, even with "facts".)

I don't care about labels, label me whatever the fuck you want, it doesn't effect me any. It could legitimately be an educated interpretation of my personality from long-term observations of my speech, actions, and behavior; or, on the other hand, it could be a wild assumption based on nothing but superficial factors, one of which likely being that you have the maturity/coping levels of a ten-year-old, in which case, fuck you anyway.

"Where you goin'?"
"Nowhere. Wanna come?"
---Otis & Henry, in Henry: Portrait of a Serial Killer.

"This was living and being born and coming for your fucking children in the middle of the night, right in front of you."
-Scott Kempner

"He was certain that life consisted of a few simple signals and decisions; that death took root at the moment of birth and man’s only recourse thereafter was to water and tend it; that propagation was a fiction; consequently, society was a fiction, too."
---Yukio Mishima, from The Sailor Who Fell From Grace With The Sea

"Humanity has advanced, when it has advanced, not because it has been sober, responsible, and cautious; but because it has been playful, rebellious, and immature. "
-Tom Robbins.

" . . . our lives are not as limited as we think they are, all things are possible, laughter is holier than piety, freedom is sweeter than fame, and in the end it's love and love alone that really matters."
-Tom Robbins, again.

"People are a bunch of atoms in a cloud of gas, and sometimes they fly along parallel paths, and that's love. It's not forever, cos the atoms go around randomly and break off sometimes, but there's nothing wrong with that. The time you're together is what's important, not what's before or after. Is--- not was ... Maybe it hurts, but it hurts because you love something. That's not something to let go of. Most people die without it ever happening, because they're sensible and logical and sick fucking robots who can't hear the fact that the whole world's howling in pain, because they've got Reaganomics tapes turned up too loud."
-Drew.

"To speak practically and as a citizen, unlike those who call themselves no-government men, I ask for, not at once no government, but at once a better government."
-Henry Thoreau.

"Words can't say this. The one word, love, means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn't communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is."-James Frey.

"So who went out and joined us for the Democratic National Convention? I've never seen so many fucking cops in my whole life. It's like everybody knows when everybody went out there, the only thing we were out there to do is express how much we hate both the Democrats and Republicans because they sold this fucking country out. And by expressing our rights to resist, what do they do?...they open fire on the crowd. I don't care what fucking television station said the violence was caused by the people at the concert, those motherfuckers unloaded on this crowd. And I think it's ridiculous, considering none of us had rubber bullets, none of us had M16s, none of us had billy clubs, none of us had face shields. All we had was our fists, our voices, our microphones, our guitars, our drums, and anytime we get beaten in the streets for protesting, we take it to the court system, and the court system don't wanna hear it. Look what happened to Amadou Diallo in New York, they shot that brother 41 times and let all four officers go. It's time for a new type of action in this country."
-Zack De La Rocha

"One of the great things about young people is that they do question, that they do care deeply about justice, and that they have open minds."
-Zack De La Rocha

"I'd like to say people can change anything they want to; and that means everything in the world. People are running about following their little tracks. I am one of them. But we've all gotta stop... just stop following our own little mouse trail. People can do anything; this is something that I'm beginning to learn. People are out there doing bad things to each other; it's because they've been dehumanized. It's time to take that humanity back into the centre of the ring and follow that for a time. Greed... it ain't going anywhere! They should have that on a big billboard across Times Square. Think on that. Without people you're nothing."
-Joe Strummer

"I don't know why I started writing. I don't know why anybody does it. Maybe they're bored, or failures at something else. . .but if there is an occupational hazard to writing, it's drinking."
-Cormac McCarthy.

"The Edge... There is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over. The others- the living- are those who pushed their luck as far as they felt they could handle it, and then pulled back, or slowed down, or did whatever they had to when it came time to choose between Now and Later. But the edge is still out there."
-Hunter S. Thompson

I am widely interested in the human mind, revolution, and experience.

Star Spangled BannerSCAR STRANGLED CANCER.



Music

Genres, in alphabetical order:
2step, 2tone, '60s, '70s, and '80's rock n' roll, ambient, alternative, big band, blues, cabaret, celtic, dancehall, darkwave, dub, electroclash, experimental, Finnish metal, folk, funk, goth rock, hip hop, house, industrial, jazz (not the smooth variety), j'rock, metal, Merle Haggard, oldies, punk (mostly oi- and anarcho- punk), psychedelic, psychobilly, reggae, rockabilly, rock n' roll, shoegaze, ska, swing, trance, trip hop; all that fucked up shit and mostly everything else too.
Recently played:
The Cure, Lush, The Toy Dolls, Joy Division, 45 Grave, Mark Lanegan, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, The Devil Makes Three, Circle Jerks, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Conflict, HIM, Tom Waits, Cinema Strange, Ween, Nekromantix, Choking Victim, Crass, The Pogues, Leftover Crack, Atmosphere, GBH, Muschi!, Total Chaos, 999, Department of Correction, A Good Story, The Lower Class Brats, The Earaches, Adolescents, The New York Dolls, Cropknox, Hub City Stompers, The Dandy Warhols, Clusterfux, John Lee Hooker, Bauhaus, Chapterhouse.
Don't like screamo. I don't like 90 percent of what is on the radio, either. I do like a lot of really weird subgenres that may or may not have an actual name. HIM has been my underlying favorite band since I was like, ten. Whatever it is, I like it live, and loud. Do I have to prove how cool I think my music is? Fuck you, that's stupid.



Movies
Authors: Cormac McCarthy, Oscar Wilde, William Gibson, Tom Robbins, Hunter S. Thompson, T.S. Eliot, Yukio Mishima. Poetry by e.e. cummings and Arthur Rimbaud, which means I like Patti Smith, too. They're all fucking genius. Some of them went crazy, but they were all mad brilliant at one point or another. READ THEM. They'll change the way you think. Read a mothafuckin book.

Books:
Neuromancer
No Country For Old Men; Cormac McCarthy
The Heart Is A Lonely Hunter; Carson McCullers
All The Pretty Horses; Cormac McCarthy
Sputnik Sweetheart; Haruko Murakami
The Border Trilogy; Cormac McCarthy
The Moon Is A Harsh Mistress; Robert Heinlein
The Road; Cormac McCarthy
Cities of the Plain; Cormac McCarthy
Please Kill Me; Legs McNeil
A Clockwork Orange; Anthony Burgess
A History of Violence; John Wagner
House of Leaves; Mark Z. Danielewski
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas; Hunter S. Thompson
Still Life With Woodpecker; Tom Robbins
Another Roadside Attraction; Tom Robbins
American Psycho; Bret Easton Ellis
Count Zero; William Gibson
Mona Lisa Overdrive ; William Gibson
Priest; Min-Woo Hyung
The Sailer Who Fell From Grace With The Sea; Yukio Mishima
Dance Dance Dance; Haruko Murakami
69; Haruko Murakami
I Have The Right To Destroy Myself; Yukio Mishima
Go Ask Alice; Anonymous
The Things They Carried; Tim O'Brien
100 Bullets; Brian Azzarello
Spook County; William Gibson
A Million Little Pieces; James Frey
The Sin City series; Frank Miller
I have to prove how cool I think my reading material is? Fuck you, that's stupid.
Television
Movies:
The Professional
Lock, Stock, And Two Smoking Barrels
Snatch
Jackie Brown
Pulp Fiction
Barton Fink
Reservoir Dogs
Once Upon A Time in Mexico
La Mariachi
Desperado
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
Wasabi
Fargo
Waking Life
FUCKING... SMOKEY AND THE GODDAMNED BANDIT
Get Shorty
Coffee & Cigarettes
3:10 to Yuma
Magnolia
Sweeney Todd
Sin City
Juno
Trainspotting
A Scanner Darkly
Half Baked
The Wall
Children of Men
Boondock Saints
Mirrormask
The Prestige
Anything with Hunter S. Thompson, drugs, robberies, pre-meditated murder, guns, brilliant conspiracy, and all the fucked up shit. Westerns, slasher films, pulp films, noir, indies. Pulp and Noir really take the cake for being my favorite genres, though. I love Tarantino and the Cohen Brothers, a lot.
I have to prove how cool I think my movies are? Fuck you, that's stupid.

Heroes!
You are the best thing that has ever happened, and it's something more than coincidence that made us siblings. If you hadn't been my mind-reading-best-friend-brother my whole life, I would be literally dead. You've kept me alive all these years--- I mean really, really alive. If there is such thing as fate, I know it's what brought us together--- that huge and wild shot in the dark that made us both adopted from different families, into this one, and paired against the horrors of this earth. We're partners in crime, and I cannot say where I would be without your ass.

1971.74 miles away, and I miss you more than anything. I can't wait to see you again--- I suppose I'll have to start liking Side A without Side B until then. You're my best friend. I love you. We have been through fucking everything, over the years, like fucking Bonnie and Clyde or whatever else. I can't live without you. (you were my mad little lover, in a world where everybody fucks everybody else over--- you who are so far from me--- way across some cold, neurotic sea.)♥







The ones I've never met: Shane MacGowan, Joe Strummer, Patti Smith, and Jim Carroll, Stiv Bates, Iggy Pop, Scott Kempner.

And always, the people who still call me "Lia". ♥
I really hate watching people eat lobster. I love those little guys.
Heroes

     Leah, little needlefeet.'s Details
Status:Divorced
Zodiac Sign:Aquarius

   Leah, little needlefeet.'s Schools
Denver School Of The Arts
Denver,CO
Graduated: N/A
Degree: High School Diploma
Major: Creative Writing
 

2004 to Present



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Hi, I'm Leah! I am a Toy Soldier. I am an absolute mess, and nothing you need; I'm also entirely unacceptable according to most people, and learning to be productively angry. I kind of want to run off to some small town and drink too much, start a shoegaze band and write books. But please, don't take me seriously all the time. If you do, we won't be friends.

"...there was blood on the pages, blood on the strings, because anything less than that was just bullshit, and a waste of fucking time."

I LOVE PASSION.

The most beautiful things to me: newness, tragedy, wildness, change, companionship, despair, freedom, honesty, simplicity, love, constance, sorrow, productivity, expression, nostalgia, inspiration, contradiction, solitude, familiarity, hope, intensity, individuality, starting over, complication, destruction in all of its forms, abandonment, alcoholism, divinity, softness, sound, experience, cleanliness and filthiness both, the coinciding abilities to laugh and scream, and mainly the ability to feel at all.

Here's the thing.
I've grown up a lot, but I still have a lot of fucking growing up to do. I'm learning how to fix me and not fix what I am a part of, right now. The main things that I look for in people I've known and people I meet is a new perspective or new information--- I love to learn new things. I have my priorities set: petty high-school bullshit, working 9-5, extreme materialism, and suburbia are not important to me. Happiness and comfort are what's important. I like drinking too much and writing to beat the devil. I swear too much and I'm way too crass; I've been described as "caustic and belligerent, yet somehow charming" before. It seems to suit me the best.
You're not going to read an accurate description of me if it comes from me, because I am a writer, so I play things off in extremes. You would only see the soul and surface of me, not what's in between. I don't need to piece myself together for you. Getting to know me is way more fun that reading the extremes of me from my perspective, believe me. I'd rather you form your own opinions, anyway. That way I can ignore them if I don't like them, and things are a lot less boring for everyone.

I am fiercely independent, a bit introspective, and extremely anxious, also. I used to be a lot wilder than I am now, but I'm taming, at least for a while, so fuck off.


Who I'd like to meet:


"I'm just following the Irish tradition of songwriting, the Irish way of life, the human way of life. Cram as much pleasure into life, and rail against the pain you have to suffer as a result. Or scream and rant with the pain, and wait for it to be taken away with beautiful pleasure." Shane MacGowan: I will meet you someday.


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Leah, little needlefeet. has 457 friends.
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fucking 12 this is the moon we dont do that here





Oct 7 2008 4:38 AM

sooo... what are you doing this weekend? we should get drunk.
SUKiSUKi





Oct 5 2008 2:53 AM

So I probably won't be able to go to the slam tomorrow night, if you end up going it'd be KILLER if you could like, tell me how it was and maybe some people that performed.
<3
SUKiSUKi





Oct 4 2008 5:45 PM

SUKiSUKi





Sep 30 2008 9:24 PM

Click - The Eames Era (if nothing else, listen to "Copious".

Click - The Brother Kite (listen to anything, but ESPECIALLY "Get On, Me").
SUKiSUKi





Sep 24 2008 10:52 PM

I left them in the CW room so that WOULDN'T happen. But don't worry - I left them in the special place where we keep everything else important. In other words, they're safely tucked inside the copy machine.
wandering star





Sep 24 2008 10:27 PM

God yes. I haven't felt this alive and happy in about a year and a half. It took about a half a year for him to break me. But now I'm free and I'm trying to reconnect with everyone and reestablish my life. So we must hang out again it's been too long.
wandering star





Sep 24 2008 9:03 PM

Hey Leah, I finally left the abusive asshole boyfriend.
Which means you, Clay, and I can finally hang out again! Hurray for freedom!
T. Bickle





Sep 24 2008 4:34 PM

That said, it has the same charm as he did....I dunno.
T. Bickle





Sep 24 2008 4:30 PM

Fuck you, I thought it'd be a bit like The Streets or something....
stiv





Sep 24 2008 3:36 PM

love it to death...
Mark Ronson - Oh My God
T. Bickle





Sep 24 2008 3:09 AM

For some reason I thought it was something else entirely...Eh.
T. Bickle





Sep 24 2008 1:15 AM

Ah, you would post that on my page.
What group now?
emmy t.





Sep 24 2008 1:03 AM

Hey, how far are you on your contract?
SUKiSUKi





Sep 23 2008 1:55 AM

YES I WILL.
<333
NIX █▓▒░





Sep 23 2008 1:46 AM

i don't hate it, i just don't like the atmosphere!!

you should turn on your phone
and bring my magazine tomorrow!
NIX █▓▒░





Sep 23 2008 12:35 AM

sry!
i just asked where you were... but i din't want to go to JW
T. Bickle





Sep 22 2008 5:43 AM

Who is it? I bet I know, huh? Hah, my flaps are now a semi kilt with motorhead and adicts prints....
T. Bickle





Sep 20 2008 8:25 PM

That is amazing.
QT





Sep 20 2008 8:08 PM

Mann im sorry :/
My parents have my phone. I can't hang out, I'm in some pretty deep shit to be honest.
Sorry :(
mimi





Sep 20 2008 10:15 AM

hey i was just watching leon, & i realized where you got that quote you always used to have on yer page - I dont have time for this mickey mouse bullshit! i never knew where it came from but i always remembered it & now it all makes sense! thats one of my favorite movies but for some reason i only just now caught that line. things are connecting tonight, i feel like i should be on mushrooms but im not.
how are you?
QT





Sep 20 2008 4:04 AM

ugh well my parents are still undecided :/

But well, I would have my lisence by now but I havent been on the best terms with my parents, you know how they are.

I have well enough money for a shit-ass car but I probably wont be able to drive until im 18.
banríon gáire





Sep 20 2008 12:52 AM

aww yay!
umm...you decide
:)
i love you very much
QT





Sep 19 2008 8:47 PM

okay I'll see what I can't do.
I kind of got into some trouble with my parents last week, but I hope they are over it.

I work from 5-close tomorrow so we can chill before then, I hope. I'll let you know when they return home.
QT





Sep 19 2008 8:41 PM

Leeeeah
When can we hang outtt :]
Annie





Sep 19 2008 7:31 PM

its all good.
haha i'll talk to you tonight then.