MySpace.com - Leah, little needlefeet. - 16 - Female - Silent Hill, Colorado

Alright, look, though. I'm some dead-beat sixteen-year-old art kid who spends the better half of her time waiting for a bus or participating in activities that involve distinct, passionate human emotion. You can't expect everything from me. I'm hideously flawed. So are you, for that matter; it's what makes the world, and people, and situations so interesting. So pull the stick (or your head) out of your ass, and try to experience something, even if it's something simple. Take it in. The way this world is so despairing can be so beautiful, too. But look, hey. I don't have anything to preach or teach, right? I like to think I know things, just, things, but they're things that seem to only work for me. So, however it goes. For what it's worth, I'll like you or dislike you for who you are, not any other reason. So give it a shot. Whatever "it" is.

Facts: I am very anxious, sometimes outrageous, always kind of un-serious, occasionally obnoxious or insensitive, nervous, and ridden with bad habits. I get bitter very easily. I'm known to leave huge, rotting chunks of my life behind in the dust, including all people involved with them; I guess that means I'm real good at detaching myself. I am fiercely individual. I have an addictive personality but I've learned to kick a lot of the bad ones. I'm hopelessly self-destructive and a hypochondriac, but I really fascinate myself. I'm definitely not fearless, I'm terrified of various diseases and infections and cancers. Staphylococcus could be the worst thing, ever. I'm really into home remedies and vitamins. Whatever it is, I'm probably down. Almost everything is an extended metaphor to me, even math. Experiencing new things and expanding myself are things I do well. Feeling sorry for myself is something I'm terrible at. I'm also terrific at distracting myself from problems that I'm convinced I don't have, and convincing myself I have problems that I don't have. I really like people who can spell, and who can keep up. People who can hold a long conversation with me, or people who've been through similar situations that I have. Even more so, people who are far more outrageous that anything, people who know where their center is, and people who aren't like me at all. Train-hoppers, squatters, or rail kids. I get along best with alcoholics and assholes. I like minor chords and metaphors. Please keep your drugs away from me, I can't handle them anymore and that long phase of my life is, to my gratitude, over at long last. I don't dig shit that's boring, which is probably why I change all the time. I'd like to move to a really fucking dirty place that's filled with something, anything, even turmoil and chaos or murder, so long as it isn't here. I want to make a difference because I think this world is fucked up and I want to make it better, if I can. I still have hope that it's worth fixing. (See what I mean? Individual bias, even with "facts".)

I don't care about labels, label me whatever the fuck you want, it doesn't effect me any. It could legitimately be an educated interpretation of my personality from long-term observations of my speech, actions, and behavior; or, on the other hand, it could be a wild assumption based on nothing but superficial factors, one of which likely being that you have the maturity/coping levels of a ten-year-old, in which case, fuck you anyway.

"Where you goin'?"
"Nowhere. Wanna come?"
---Otis & Henry, in Henry: Portrait of a Serial Killer.

"This was living and being born and coming for your fucking children in the middle of the night, right in front of you."
-Scott Kempner

"He was certain that life consisted of a few simple signals and decisions; that death took root at the moment of birth and man’s only recourse thereafter was to water and tend it; that propagation was a fiction; consequently, society was a fiction, too."
---Yukio Mishima, from The Sailor Who Fell From Grace With The Sea

"Humanity has advanced, when it has advanced, not because it has been sober, responsible, and cautious; but because it has been playful, rebellious, and immature. "
-Tom Robbins.

" . . . our lives are not as limited as we think they are, all things are possible, laughter is holier than piety, freedom is sweeter than fame, and in the end it's love and love alone that really matters."
-Tom Robbins, again.

"People are a bunch of atoms in a cloud of gas, and sometimes they fly along parallel paths, and that's love. It's not forever, cos the atoms go around randomly and break off sometimes, but there's nothing wrong with that. The time you're together is what's important, not what's before or after. Is--- not was ... Maybe it hurts, but it hurts because you love something. That's not something to let go of. Most people die without it ever happening, because they're sensible and logical and sick fucking robots who can't hear the fact that the whole world's howling in pain, because they've got Reaganomics tapes turned up too loud."
-Drew.

"To speak practically and as a citizen, unlike those who call themselves no-government men, I ask for, not at once no government, but at once a better government."
-Henry Thoreau.

"Words can't say this. The one word, love, means too little for what it is. It means everything and that is still not enough. It doesn't communicate even a fraction of the feelings involved. Love. The word is not enough for what it is."-James Frey.

"So who went out and joined us for the Democratic National Convention? I've never seen so many fucking cops in my whole life. It's like everybody knows when everybody went out there, the only thing we were out there to do is express how much we hate both the Democrats and Republicans because they sold this fucking country out. And by expressing our rights to resist, what do they do?...they open fire on the crowd. I don't care what fucking television station said the violence was caused by the people at the concert, those motherfuckers unloaded on this crowd. And I think it's ridiculous, considering none of us had rubber bullets, none of us had M16s, none of us had billy clubs, none of us had face shields. All we had was our fists, our voices, our microphones, our guitars, our drums, and anytime we get beaten in the streets for protesting, we take it to the court system, and the court system don't wanna hear it. Look what happened to Amadou Diallo in New York, they shot that brother 41 times and let all four officers go. It's time for a new type of action in this country."
-Zack De La Rocha

"One of the great things about young people is that they do question, that they do care deeply about justice, and that they have open minds."
-Zack De La Rocha

"I'd like to say people can change anything they want to; and that means everything in the world. People are running about following their little tracks. I am one of them. But we've all gotta stop... just stop following our own little mouse trail. People can do anything; this is something that I'm beginning to learn. People are out there doing bad things to each other; it's because they've been dehumanized. It's time to take that humanity back into the centre of the ring and follow that for a time. Greed... it ain't going anywhere! They should have that on a big billboard across Times Square. Think on that. Without people you're nothing."
-Joe Strummer

"I don't know why I started writing. I don't know why anybody does it. Maybe they're bored, or failures at something else. . .but if there is an occupational hazard to writing, it's drinking."
-Cormac McCarthy.

"The Edge... There is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over. The others- the living- are those who pushed their luck as far as they felt they could handle it, and then pulled back, or slowed down, or did whatever they had to when it came time to choose between Now and Later. But the edge is still out there."
-Hunter S. Thompson

I am widely interested in the human mind, revolution, and experience.

~~Star Spangled Banner~~SCAR STRANGLED CANCER.

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