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I suppose you can think of me as a porcelain doll. I have pail skin, break easily, and love sitting pretty in the corner of the room. Of course though, I do have a somewhat human side to my existence. Here's a bit of information regarding that side of me;

I am a quite intelligent young lady, and have a well above average IQ. I've been tested by a certified psychologist.
I absolutely detest stupidity unless it's funny, though a rare occurrence. I'm known for my artistic talents and ability to call out bullshit in an instant.

I'm a bit socially-impaired. When out in public, I tend to panic and become very tense and speak loudly to try and psych myself out of my discomfort and phobia of social situations. This problem, however, does not stop me from going out and having a good time. Common places you will see me is at concerts, shows, clubs and various conventions.

While we're on the topic of conventions, I might mention that I'm 100% certified geek/nerd. My interests range from anime/manga, hentai, Star Wars, Star Treck, card collecting, computers, books, video games (especially my beloved Super Metroid!), comics, D&D, WoW, Fantasy Novels, etcetera, etcetera. I'm not ashamed at all, and wear this geek/nerd label in honor; and besides, I feel that those considered a geek/nerd always have the most fun!

I am single, if you haven't noticed already. This is mainly because I'm a loner who barely ever leaves her house and spends all day drawing and writing little stories that will most likely never be published... ever. I do, however, get asked out a lot when I am out or online for some reason. My answer to that question usually is based on how many strawberries or batman toys you can offer me.
-Though, I WILL settle for candy on occasion. Mmmm... cccaaaaaandyyyy. =3

Moving on....

If you cant tell already, my all time favorite band is THE CURE!!! I've been listening to them while still withing my mother's womb-(she is, as well, a HUGE fan of The Cure)-
I've seen my beloved band live twice, and plan on seeing them again and again until they're ready to move on with their lives and retire. One day, I hope to meet Robert Smith in person. He's been such an inspiration to me, and cant even put it into words.
While on the topic of music... I can't seem to pick a second favorite, because I have so many to choose from, BUT, The Tiger Lilies, The Toy Dolls, The Birthday Massacre, Iron Maiden, Emperor, Dark Tranquility, Emilie Autumn, Dead Can Dance, and Skinny Puppy are WAY up there with The Cure. Plus many others. How can one decide?!?!?!.
I've seen many bands play live, and have met many of them. The first concert I ever attended, and I was only 6 years old, was The Creatures (Siouxsie & Budgie of Siouxsie and the Banshees- I still remember sitting on my daddy's shoulders as Siouxsie waved to me. I feel very privileged to have seen them at such a young age, and be able to say that was my first concert, while other kids my age went to go see Nsync or Brittney Spears- bleh.
These are some the bands I've seen live:
The Creatures, The Cure, BLOOD, Lacuna Coil, Dragon Lord, Arch Enemy, Children of Bodem, The Birthday Massacre, Dir En Grey, Rob Zombie, Megadeth, Into Eternity, Creature Feature, Opeth, The Rolling Stones... and the list goes on. -this include bands I would have rather NOT seen, like AFI- yuck, KORN- even worse, and Lamb of God- someone shoot me. ... There's more, unfortunately.

I'm also a classical music fanatic-including opera -(opera singers have a REAL voice of talent, which is unfiltered by Melodyne software)- I have a hidden radio in my room that plays the classical music station 24/7, I've been doing this for years, I can't seem to sleep without it, but the sound is so faint, you must listen closely if you wish to hear. There's many composers out there in the world, however I'm especially intrigued by the works of composer Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. I'm also a fan of the works of composer Jean Sibelius, Joseph Haydn, Pyotr Il'yich Tchaikovsky, ans SOME of the work by Johann Sebastian Bach, and of course many others.

Now let's talk fashion =D!
First off: I only label the style of clothing I'm wearing, never myself.
I'm obsessed with lolita styles, especially gothic-loli, kuro-loli and aristocrat-loli. I was actually informed about lolita style two years before it even became popular in America, thanks to my Mom. Soon after that I met a friend in middle school and turned her onto Lolita fashion. We used to build crappy page-builder web pages all about anime and Loli styles, and though, she grew out of it quickly, I've become completely obsessed. I even created my own style which I call loli-clown- that's also my Alias when I'm putting on an act or show; Loli-Clown! Speaking of which, I love dressing up like a clown, hell, I love dressing up like anything! But dressing like a clown especially. I like how you can never tell what a clown is thinking, all you see is the make up, which masks all emotions. The whole psychological aspect of it has really intrigued me. It's a good way to scare people. Oh, and by the way I make most of the clothes that I ware, or I buy them at vintage thrift shops, and sometimes I modify something rubbish, and make it into something wearable. I like one of a kind items, though, I am guilty of shopping at some of those more expensive places and some department stores.

As most people do, I have my own set list of phobias and fetishes and these include:

PHOBIAS:
♣ Atychiphobia- Fear of failure.
♣ Obesophobia- Fear of gaining weight.
♣ Telephonophobia- Fear of telephones or talking on a telephone.

FETISHES:
♣Coulrophilia- Sexual attraction to clowns.
♣Arachnophilia- Arousal from spiders or other arachnids.
♣Capnogalia- Arousal from smoking or watching others smoke.
♣Pediophilia- Arousal from dolls.
♣Vampirism- Arousal from consuming blood.
♣Phlebotomy- Arousal from bloodletting.

It's a pretty big list, but let's move on....

Ever since I was a young girl It has been my biggest dream to scare people. I choose to do so with art. Whether it's a drawing or dressing up and performing, I always find great joy watching the horrified looks on peoples' faces. I specialize in macabre, and my biggest influence is the amazing Edward Gorey. Another big influence of mine is human anatomy. I'm obsesssssed. I find it fascinating, and beautiful, which is often why a lot of the characters I draw have some form of elaborated body part in it. I also love to draw characters fairly thin, and naked so the veiwer can see the bone structure underneath the skin. Amazing.<3
Although art is a passion of mine, I'm also studying in the fields of forensic psychology, forensic anthropology and arachnology. It's a long journey and will take years to achieve, but in the end, I feel it will all be worth it. While I'm on said journey, I REALLY would like to full fill my dream of becoming either an owner of a side/freak show, or travel with one. I would be so very happy if I could make this dream come true some how.

DO NOT EVER kill a spider in front of me!!! It's one thing that people do that really pisses me off. I fucking hate it when people intentionally kill them because they're "scared". Spiders happen to be one of my favorite animals and I adore them, big and small, shiny or fuzzy. When I was a little girl, my great grandmother taught me to never kill a spider, and to this day, even though she's passed on, I still respect what she taught me. Why kill something because it's different from you, why not learn to love it for it's differences?! I feel the same way towards people, and I judge people on who they are NOT what they are. So in other words, I don't care if you're skinny, fat, obese, anorexic, black, white, asian, a cyclops, have four arms, a tail or a bazillion pimples on your face; if you're a good person inside, I'll be more than happy to be friends. >^.^<
I have love for all animals, and I have many pets which include, currently, two rats, four cats, a rabbit and a snake. I love them all dearly, and they're my no.1 priority in life. I feed them before myself. ♥

I am highly spiritual; I practice a combination of the religions Celtic Wicca & Nocturnal Witchcraft. So yes, I am a witch. I was thankfully raised by very open-minded parents. My mother had even briefly practiced it when she was younger. Before you ask, I DO/AM NOT the following; have green skin and warts, wear pointy hats, fly a broom stick, do hexes/curses, sacrifice animals or poison apples. Thank you. I live by the rules of the Wiccan rede; "An Ye Harm None, Do What Ye Will"- meaning, basically, do to other as you would yourself. And bluntly.. Karma's a fucking bitch. =D

I am a pescatarian. Meaning, I don't eat any land animals. I dabbled with the idea of vegetarianism in the past, but couldn't give up my beloved sushi. I also eat a gluten free diet. I was officially diagnosed with celiac spru when I was 12 years old. It's a disease that limits you to eating things that do not contain gluten. So, most grains are off limits. I'm fine with all this, because my favorite food is strawberries and tea, both which contain no gluten ingredients. My current diet usually consists of Strawberries, Coffee (and anything from Starbucks), tea, salads, chocolate (especially dark chocolate), various fruit and sushi + other Japanese treats.
As I stated before, I have quite the medical history. I have many physical and psychological difficulties which include, Type 1 Diabetes, Celiac Spru, Hypertension, High blood pressure, Dismorphia, Depression... and many others that I don't wish to state publicly. Because of my problems, I've spent about 75% of my life in the hospital.
Because of so many admissions, I feel hospitals are like a second home to me. They're so comforting, I've been known to make myself ill just to get into one. I suppose you can say this is Münchausen syndrome, that's what others call it anyways. I prefer to not label it. ♥

~Misty Rose (Loli Clown)