=The Loch "Nessie" Monster=

About me:

A young girl, at the age of 15, moved with her mother from her home state of Michigan to her Grandmother's house in Virginia. Many things happened in her life in Michigan, both good and bad. She had great friends, a loving mom, an ignoring dad, and God. Although she was the thing she hates today, she wouldn't want it any other way. God was in her life, and she knew that, but she never fully knew Him. She went to Church, said she was a Christian, but didn't walk the walk. She listened to secular music, in all it's swearing and bad message glory. It was all she had, it was all she knew. She wanted more, but took what she could get. She always kept her standards though, so apparently God had that part of her life in control. But, she still did not have Him as the center.

Her parents got a divorce when she was 5, and her and her mother moved away from her Dad. They stopped talking, because they no longer lived with him. That's when their relationship went downhill. She realized his true heart. And yet, her mother was still very much around.

After the move, things started to change. People were coming around that had no business being around. She had to see and hear things no 7 year old should see and hear. But God still had His hand on her, whether she knew it or not. Her and her mother went to Virginia for the summer, and when they got back, they noticed their place had been broken into. Lots of things were missing, including her mom's money. Lots of it...

In the 5th grade, her and her mother moved again, this time with a guy. Her mom had been with him for a while, since 3rd or 4th grade. He wasn't the nicest guy. He "went away", and her and her mother moved, yet again. It was back to where it all began... sort of. They moved to a place about 10 minutes away from her dad. She thought this would help them, but he still did not call or come over. The only time they would see each other was when she would call him up to take her over to her friends house, and when he would drive her home.

Some time later, the guy came back again, and things started to go downhill. The girl got depressed, and her mom wasn't doing too good either. They went away for a while, the depression left, but the problems didn't. When they got back, the guy was still around and making matters worse. And for the girl, her dad, who not only never took the time to call her up and talk to her or see her, put her down for crying. He said it was stupid and there was no reason to cry. This caused her to be emotionally wounded for the next 2 1/2 years.

Her mother was getting sick. The guy was gone again, but her mom was still feeling the pain. Day by day, she lost more and more weight. It soon got to the point that she was 90 pounds, couldn't eat, couldn't drink, and couldn't walk. And the girl did whatever she could to help her mother. She was the only one who stuck with her, and now it was her turn. After about 6 months, when nothing was getting better, they ended up having to live with the girl's dad. Even then, they were still distant.

Her mom got better, a little bit, and they moved back. They went down to Virginia for the summer. When her mom went back to Michigan, the girl got a frantic call from her mother saying their place had been broken into, and this time, it was worse. That was it, the girl's grandma opened up her house to them. So they packed up, and moved to Virginia.

Though something's gone, there's nothing wrong with my changing world...

Once they got settled in, it was time for God to settle in too. God put them near two amazing Christian radio stations. The girl, after feeling the way the songs made her feel, never listened to secular music again. Even to this day. One morning, at 12 or 1 o'clock, the girl was listening to the radio. At the first note of the guitar, at the first sound of the violin, this song captured her attention. The words started flowing into her ears, and the feeling started flowing through her veins. She knew this song was going to be very significant in her life. The song ended, and she was left wondering who sang it.

She waited up every day to hear that song, she listened to that station 24/7, waiting to feel that way again, waiting to be mesmerized by the words and the sounds and the rhythm. Soon she found out who it was, and soon she had the song in her hand. She listened to that CD for days, even months. She bought CD after CD of artists that gave her new feelings and spoke to a different part of her. Magnificent joy came to her when her mother told her he was doing a concert near them in December.

That concert changed her life. The songs were amazing, and exactly what she needed at that time. The time came for God to work through the singer to touch the girl. The atmosphere changed, and her heart had been touched. She didn't know what had happened, but she started to cry. The first time, the first meaningful time, in 2 1/2 years. She left there feeling like it was for a reason, like it was supposed to happen. A few days later, he was back. And again, at that same time, the atmosphere changed, and her heart had been touched. She cried again. She left there feeling empty, yet full. She left there feeling like the wall, the emotional wall, was coming down.

That June, her aunts (dad's two sisters), were going to be staying with her dad to help clean out their mother's house (her other grandma, whom her father lived with). So, they invited them up to see them. They, her mom and her, accepted. And, found out there was a festival going on at the same time. For 3 days. They packed up and went on their journey.

That week was not the best week of the girl's life. Even while walking around in the same house as her father, even being in the same room as he was, even talking to the same people, he didn't notice her. He didn't pay any attention to her. He didn't talk to her. He was more concerned with her 10 year old cousin. Her mother took her over to her friend's house for a while. When she picked her up, her mother told her what her father did... or didn't do. Her mother told her that she brought her absence up to her dad, and he didn't even notice she was gone. The girl was sad. She was heart broken, but she knew what was coming up.

The festival was amazing. She found new artists she had never heard about before, and had a blast. Then she saw him again, but this time, this time it was different. He got to that part of his set when the girl's heart was, yet again, being touched. But, this time something else came with it: God's voice. He spoke to her. She heard Him. He had her look up at him, the singer, and He told her that He put him in her life to be her father figure. He was to be the one she went to for help. He, the singer, was so willing and open, that he was the best person for God to speak to her through. That day, at 16 years old, the girl had a new look at God.

Today, the girl is Christ centered, spiritually strong, and resting in God. She is growing everyday, learning new things and seeing God in different and powerful ways. She rests in His word, and knows she is loved by the King. The singer who helped her break her emotional wall 3 years ago, is still helping her break boundaries and get through each day. He is still the one she goes to for answers, understanding it is God who is speaking to her. She knows He is there, no matter what. When she wakes, when the sun goes down, He will be there.

She lets life take its course, because she knows God has made it. She knows that with God as her focus, nothing can hurt her, nothing can get in her way. She knows that her life will turn out right, and she knows that if she ever strays, ...He will take her back....

~All I long for I found finally at the end of me~

"Stealing Cracklin' Oat Bran is a big deal"- Chap Stique (Really Real Show #23).
"Where, where, where did he come from?"- Mom (as Hootie).
"Love is not a fight, but it's something worth fighting for"- Warren Barfield ("Love Is Not A Fight").
"The more accurate my view of Jesus is, the more amazed I am of His awesomeness, I don't need to picture 'bling' around his neck, or picture him as [an] action figure to make Him seem cool in my book. He just is so incredible"- Tub-O.
"Come to me weary now, and I will lay you down"- Brandon Heath ("I Will Lay You Down").
"I'm thinking of you when I kill a good man"- House of Heroes ("In The Valley Of The Dying Son").
"You can't lift your hands to Him if you're holding something heavy"- Chris Tomlin.
"You have a mouth, and I know you know how to use it"- Mom (to me).
"People want the truth until it's true. Then it becomes offensive"-Me.
"Don't just tell the truth and not love, and don't just love and not tell the truth. Tell the truth and love"- Jeremy Camp.
"The outside doesn't feel what the inside knows is real"- Ivoryline ("Be Still").
"Feel free to comit more cat crimes"- Bryan.
"God freakin' bless you"- Bryan (to me).
"Fill all these bones with achies"- King Prospero (The Tempest).
"Still wondering why I'm here, still wrestling with my fear but He's up to something"- Brandon Heath ("Wait And See").
"I get scared that somehow I'll cease to belong anywhere. So I need You when it all starts to show, when I'm alone"- Brandon Heath ("When I'm Alone").
"Almost dying changes nothing, dying changes everything"- House.
"It's a guy thing. We're stupid that way"- Alex Trebek.
"I know I'm not good for the screen, that's why I don't rub myself on it"- Mom.
"We're all surrounded by pictures. It's your decision on which ones you're going to take"- Mom.
"Elbows in the face make everything better"- Matt.
"It's necessary to hide the vacuum cleaner from the carpet"- Brittany.
"Maybe if you eat more comfort food you wouldn't have to go around shooting people"- Hurley (LOST).
"Congratulations, would you like a hat?"- Bryan.
"Stop saying packet, it makes me hate you"- Vicky (to Mr. Ruano).
~"Mr. Hubble, what are reindeer games?"- Paul
~"Marbles, because their poop is really small"- Mr. Hubble.
~"Pretend like you're teaching"- Vicky
~"... how do I do that?"- Mr. Ruano.
"Que estas? What is you?"- Vicky.