Name: Alana Kathleen Bigford Nickname(s): Al; 'Lana; Lanes; Kayte Age: 23 Location: Johnson City, TN Status: Single Here For: Friends Orientation: Cheese. Religion: Buddhist Zodiac: Libra Smoke / Drink: Socially / Socially Children: Undecided Education: In College Occupation: Starving Artist Income: Barely Worth Mentioning.
I'm not your typical girl. But then again, no girl worth knowing ever is. That's not egotism, that's just...fact.
If I was to be honest though, you would never know it from looking at me. Most people would pass me and never think twice about what they were missing because I really don't look like much. It's all in my stealthy disguise, because you know, I actively try and go unseen. Ninja-style. Not really. Actually, I'm the person most people say they wish they knew. They just expect people like me to be...shinier. But people like me? We're all diamonds in the rough, and we like it that way.
It's ridiculous what some people will go through to have a decent looking myspace. In truth, I was never one of those people who bought into this website as a place to meet new friends and have some kind of social life from it. This is where I'm supposed to say "but here I am, a super popular myspace Queen with tons of friends, and you can have them too!" But it doesn't work that way, and anyone who says it does is just looking for a headcount to boast on their main page. Me? I have 251 friends here, 170+ of which are actually bands, both local and serious labels. The rest are people who have left some imprint on my life by actually being in it somehow.
I love music, and over the years I've come to think of myspace as more of a lounge where I can chill, listen to tunes and catch up with the friends I already have rather than foam at the mouth looking for people in my area to hook up with. If I go looking, it's for people I already know. Sure, there was a point in my life where I was excited to meet people I didn't know on here, but honestly? It got old. They message you, they think you're cool to talk to, want to see more pictures, want to meet you in person, and then lose interest just as quickly as they can click the mouse on the delete friend button. Why? Because they can't handle truth. What they see in real life is so much more grotesque and human than what they see on the screen that it makes them sick. They forget sometimes that the person on the other side of their screen is still exactly that. A person.
So. If you want to see a cabinet of fine china or a gallery of perfect portraits, please leave now because you won't find that here. But those of you who can see the beauty in a cracked vase and aren't afraid to love it for what it is, keep scrolling. What you're seeing now is only the entrance to the chasm that is me.
the artwork.
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• Reading •
• Writing •
• Painting •
• The Outer Banks •
• History •
• Philosophy •
• Intelligent Conversation •
• Arguing •
• Pointless, Hilarious Convesation •
• Sand •
• Water •
• Cold Weather •
• Rain •
• Key Lime Pie •
• Singing In The Shower •
• Singing In General •
• Dancing In My Car •
• RPGs •
• Technology •
• New Ideas •
• Twisted Minds •
• People Who Smile •
• Traveling •
• Being One of the Guys On Occasion •
• Cold Showers in Summer •
• The Night Sky •
• Shiny Things •
• Hugs That Take Your Breath Away •
• Random Biting •
• Piercings •
• Tattoos •
• Revolutionary Music •
Things I Hate
• Fake Smiles •
• Limp, Half-Assed, One-Armed Hugs •
• Being One of the Guys ALL the Time •
• Working at WalMart •
• Toenail Clippings in the Floor •
• Brussel Sprouts •
• Gas Prices •
• Extremely Hot Weather •
• The Idea of Being Lost in the Desert •
• Girls Who Ruin Perfectly Good Guys •
• Narrow-Minded People •
• Imitation Cheese •
• Humidity •
• My Hair Being Exposed to Humidity •
• The Fact the Letter Q Cannot Be Used Without a U •
• Super Psychotic Fangirls (Semi-Psychotic Are Exempt) •
• High and Mighty Self-Contained Whores •
Lol I cant remember if i liked it back then either. I have for a while now even though I get sick as a dog everytime I eat it lol. My boy is spoiled rotten I need to get some new pictures of him up, he has changed so much. well ill ttl
I'M BACK.....
JUST WANTED TO LET U KNOW THAT I AM NOW IN A NEW BAND CALLED 10 REASONS TO LIVE....PLEASE CHECK OUT OUR MYSPACE PAGE AND TAKE A LISTEN TO "BREATHE" AND LET ME KNOW WHAT U THINK....PLEASE ADD THE BAND PAGE SO U CAN KEEP AN EYE ON WHAT WE ARE UPTO.
TAKE CARE
STE.
WWW.MYSPACE.COM/10REASONSTOLIVEWWW.10REASONSTOLIVE.COM
Alana, thanks so much for the addition to your friendventory, I hope you enjoy what you hear on my page if you ever stop by, and that you have an excellent day, whatever you do! :) -atp
mom is doing real good...she got remarried and they fit together like peas and carrots...lol she's excited about the new grandbabies and i've never seen her happier than what she is now. where are you livin at now?
doing as good as i can with a screamin 2yr old following me everywhere. boy i've missed you....i looked at your artwork...damn it is beautiful & amazing art. what have you been doing? how's your brother?ttyl
Thanks for talkin, I think it helped me more than you think it did, I am a pretty resilient person when it comes to my emotions but its just been a while since I felt like this so I am relearning these feelings, If I get hurt for real, thats it for the person that hurt me, at that point they no longer exist to me. I right them off completely, I guess thats how I keep it from getting to me
Well I kinda am right now, but that may change just as fast as that feeling came on. I never know what to expect but I try to except it the best I can with what I have to occupy myself. I am just not used to feeling these emotions after such a long time not having them.
Its not that bad, just frustrating me abit, I usually would right this off and forget what is causing it, but I almost feel like I need to see this through
Well I am doing good, and yeah that is the only time we ever really comunicate, Just been stupid lately I guess, trying to understand people and what makes them continue doing things that hurt them and others, even if they are aware of it
my phone doesn't call out or recieve calls. just unlimited texting. lol and we should for sure hang out this weekend :) I'm pretty sure I'll be home. I'm staying in Cookeville right now. I love this place so much. I'm thinking about moving here
