About me:
I've done a bit of everything in my short life, from the boring; school, working in Tesco's and all that, to the rather more exciting; snowboarding, driving through shop windows in vans, karting all over the UK at speeds touching 90mph, escorting a US Army HMMWV through some streets with a big arse gun, destroying evil robots whilst dressed in a lycra cat suit on MTV, abseiling down canyons in Australia (extra fun when you're scared to death of heights!) and pretty much whatever else I can do that involves stupid amounts of adrenaline!
I
was going down the educational route as I always found school pretty easy to get decent grades and I fancied a successful career and plenty of money just like everyone else, but then I realised that's really not me, and being true to yourself is all that matters. Ultimately I don't think anyone can be happy if they try to shoe-horn themselves into a template-life with deluded desires and promises of pride and wealth, so for better or worse, I'm building my life around my essence and just take each day, day by day.
My reclusive and introspective nature has helped me develop as a person and achieve fantastic depth and perspective. Whether or not this is a good thing, I'm undecided. I see the the physical world as petty and irrelevant, but this rejection of it has left me unable to function within it - I'm not "living" unless I'm developing and/or fulfilling myself spiritually. Most of my time nowadays is spent focusing on writing and music as I am passionate about both and I find both can bridge the gap between the spiritual and physical. I'd rather kill myself than neglect this side of me.
It does get pretty hard, like right now for example, as I'm trying to save up to move to London later this year to work on my writing... but... playing my guitar, zoning out, and spending time with people I have amazing connections with are pretty much all I can manage each day as anything else destroys me and sends me towards where I don't want to return.
I've always wanted a dog since I was a kid but my mum never let me have one... I'm hoping I can get one this year... I want a husky but realistically I'm going to have to get something smaller because I clearly won't be able to look after a husky.
My favourite game in the world, EVER, is to throw really big HUNKS of food directly at dog's faces; they always make a snorty kinda choking noise as the food hurtles into their throat before they can chew it. It cracks me up SO MUCH - entire pizza slices are pretty well suited to this game. Another of my favourite games is to walk up the down escalators at rush hour at any of the major tube stations with a pretend invisible suitcase with me. The result is that I take up the whole width of the escalator and have to shove people up the down escalator to get passed with my invisible suitcase. I've only ever made it a quarter of the way up before being body checked against the side or someone's tried to push me down...
You're probably here because you've seen me on MTV - maybe as the "Introspective Emo Ranger" or doing something else emo-related. You can check oot Emo Rangers
here. FYI, I ONLY use myspace, facebook and now
bebo; all other social networking profiles under my name are faked by people with nothing interesting to write about themselves so they pretend to be me.