life, love, family, friends, laughter, music music music, knowledge, art, security, sex/sexuality, logic, insanity, fire, past, ego, present, change, companionship, future, fears, passion, noise, hate, street kids, electicity, granparents, water, power, poverty, getting the last word in, kinkyness, tears, daughters/sons, selflessness, addiction, old people, squatting(no not the kind of squatting you do on a toilet), drum sets, silence, opinions, relief, the rich, smiles, money, homeless people, spirit, cities, mountains, home, holidays, super natural, significant others, blood, animals, dirty needles, inteligence, cuddling, death, beliefs, chaos, books, mothers, school, conseption, youth, tragety, fighting, sickness, sisters, skulls, uglieness, god or something like it, traveling, compassion, drugs, children, fantisies, cruelty, integrity, relationships, guns, loyalty, stars, cheese, nature, memories, intuition, work, brothers, controle, t.v., health, movies, technology, mankind, lust, abandonment, nicotine, innocence, sun rises and sets, candy, thrills, chicken, lost lovers, pirates, recovering junkies, not so recovering junkies, autumn, willow trees, portland, frisco, colorodo, every place i have been to, fathers, war, sleep, luck, movies, beauty, nieces/nephews, arguments, history, air, ice cream, miracles, but most of all.....motherhood and my sobriety!!
Music
neutral milk hotel, the mars volta, the descendants, the strokes, any surf rock left over crack (choking victim), beck, the white stripes, sage frances, melt banana, acid bath, agents of oblivion, dystopia, radiohead, knives, penis envy, black eye peas, patsy cline, coheed & cambria, mindless self indulgence, the killers, alkaline trio, lovage, velvet underground, cage, pavement, missy elliot, necro & ill bill, delvic, the mofos, bright eyes, despresidos, justin sane, outkast, thursday, stone temple pilots, bell & sebastian, franz fedinand, m.o.p., ok go, hole, the clash, young michel jackson, at the drive in, lil jon and the east side boyz, led zepplin, sex pistols, the ramones, the beatles, ween, god speed you black emperor, weezer, pharo monch, bob dillon, club house, sonic youth, they might be giants, they used to be giants, spanish reggae, faith no more, brian adims, buckithead, jethro tull, devo, the vines, les claypool, rise against, neil young, frank zappa, the cardigans, poison the well, sparta, from autumn to ashes, blue oyster cult, elliot smith, blind melon, primus, nervana, foo fighters, the donnas, the meat puppets, queens of the stone age, the doors, chemical brothers, janes addiction, david bowe, the cure, blues brothers, ludicrous, modest mouse, jurassic 5, sublime, biggie smalls, jeff beck, pink floyd, snoop-dogg, the used, lil' kim, john zorn, my chemical romance, atmosphere, the 7,8,9s, the who, run dmc, pussy cat dolls, ani difranco, 30 seconds to mars, emenem, velvet revolver, obbie trice, grease soundtrack, incubus, chris issak, james brown, all american rejects, neptune, the eagles, iron maiden, old lenny kravits, the teriyaki boys, system of a down, sly and the family stone, hot chocolate, mikie t-bags and the suckas, d-12, old afi, the cars, jimi hendrix, the temptations, blondie, rick james, fat boy slim, prodigy, ciara, the cranberries, alice in chains, elvis, lynyrd skynyrd, the supremes, tomahawk, secret chiefs 3, jennifer charles, dinosaur jr., flaming lips, dashboard confessions, butthole surfers, creedence clearwater revival, jay c, red hot chili peppers, neco, big pun, janis joplin, the police, the sainte catherines, gorillaz, nofx, tlc, nine inch nails, deftones, bloodhound gang, madonna, iron butterfly, dr. octagon, the rolling stones, lords of acid, lou reed, a perfect circle, kanya west, mr. bungle, smashing pumpkins, motley crew, the verve, dj scribble, dir en grey, rammstien, no doubt, atrayu, taking back sunday, the misfits, the abandoned hearts club, cannae, caligari, kitty, alian ant farm, rage against the machine, lit, mike patton, ac dc, gg allin and the murder junkies, queen, elton john, iggy pop and the stooges, hawthorne heights, the pixies, a tribe called quest, tenacious d, crosby stills and nash, guns n roses, krs1, santana, fat joe, jonny cash, the fugees, ray charles, circle jerks, jay z, bikini kill, muddy waters, garbage, tool, wu tang clan, liquid swards, lamb of god, blood brothers, gym cass hereos, panic! at the disco, chiodos, kill hannah, phantom planet, ted nugent, cheep trick, ragina spaktor, lily allen, foreiner, bad company, elton john, steppenwolf, grand funk, dan the automator and alot of other good stuff. i LOVE music, all music!
Movies
fear and loathing in las vegas, wild at heart, falling down, clockwork orange, bio dome, cloverfield, 28 days later and most zombie movies in general, haven, dawn of the dead, labrynth, adventures in baby sitting, napolian dynomite, candy, goonies, sid and nancy, royal tenenbaums, amelie, run lola run, magnolia, lost in translation, super troppers, office space, near dark, whats eating gilbert grape, all evil dead movies, adventures in babysitting, nacho lybre, drop dead fred, waynes world movies, vs., the notebook, the descent, sin city, ali g, borat, half baked, domino, drug-store cowboys, tromeo & juliet, creep, beavis and butthead movie, baskitball diaries, SLC punks, buffy the vampire slayer, one flew over the cukoos nest, spun, american history x, jay and silent bob strike back, cheech and chongs movies, requiem for a dream, american beauty, tremores, adaptation, resevoir doggs, full metal jacket, the life of lenny bruce , i am sam, lost boys, fright night, kill bill volumes 1,2, and 3, donnie darko, U turn, once upon a time in mexico, pulp fiction, the usual suspects, saw movies, transpoting, from dusk til dawn (the first one only), natural born killers, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, four rooms, planet terror, death proof, to many to remember..
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Television
prison break, the riches, nip/tuck, rob and big, house, er, beavis and butthead, cold case, family guy, all of adult swim, metalapocolyps, tim and eric awesome show, venture bros., squidbillies, home movies, aqua teen hunger force, sea lab 2020, charmed, reno 911, sureal life, top cheff, how its made, progect runway, modern marvels, buffy, dirty jobs, scrubs, myth buster, city confadetial. the upside down show is the shit!! I also watch blues clues, backyardagans, jacks big music show, little bear, dora, diego, max and ruby, angilena ballerina, wonder pets, and lazy town on a regular bases with my beautiful daughter, Sophie May. most t.v. sux now a days but i have got way to much time on my hands so I end up watching it!
Books
hunter s. thompson, v.c. andrews, orwell, james patterson, william burrouhgs, stephen king, jack kerouac, go ask alice by an unknown author,(my favorite book is) please kill me; by leggs mcneil.
Heroes
my mother, my sister sarah, and my daughter sophia may. i also admire anyone who has delt with all of the pain, sadness, and most unpleasant parts of life, and can take it all in and rise up out of their own personal hell and become a better person for it.
About me: Every human being has different chapters in their life and every chapter makes a pretty remarkable story and every story is so extremely different. Some stories are dreadful and some are joyous. Though in most cases, there’s a little bit of both. Sometimes we do horrible things to ourselves and to the ones we love. And sometimes we perform amazing acts, filled with love and kindness and sincerity to/for those around us and ourselves. It all depends on what kind of person you are I guess. For me, as the person I am today, I think I’d rather be one of those people others enjoy being around, instead of one of those people others run from. But we are all just human, prone to make some mistakes. I know I have.
I have stolen from my loved ones and those I've never known. I have lied to get what I want and just lied for the hell of it. I have cheated on past lovers and cheated someone out of what was rightfully theirs. I have been vindictive to someone who has knowingly hurt me and to someone who had never known they caused me any pain. I have been cruel to the women who gave me life and cruel to the "man" who’s tried to take it away. I have hated someone so much I prayed for the death of them and I have hated my self even more than that, in the past. I have drove the ones who care for me insane and I have drove myself into a type of insanity. I have done many dreadful acts in the past (and sometimes even in the present).
Then again, I have done many a beautiful and good intentioned acts in the here and now (and a few in the past). I have given back to my loved ones and to those less fortunate than me. I have told the truth, even if it causes me some troubles and I have told the truth just because. I have been loyal to my lover even if they have not been loyal to me and I have been a loyal friend, sister, daughter, aunt, niece, cousin, grandchild, and mother as well. I have been merciful to those who have caused me true pain and also to myself for causing so much pain on others. I have been a kind daughter and mother and I have been kind to a complete stranger. I have loved someone so much I could only wish them the best in life and I have learned to love myself as well. I have helped someone, that I care for, hold on to their sanity and I have finally found some sanity in myself.
I have tried so hard to be a good person and do the right thing. Hopefully the good will outweigh the bad and hopefully my dreadfully sad and days are done and over with. Its funny though, even when I look back on all those years upon years of chapters involving mayhem, self destruction, addiction, insanity, and causing pain to the ones that I love, I don’t really regret to much of it. Because those actions have made it possible for me to be the person I am today.
Who I'd like to meet: Most of the people I would like to meet are dead and gone. Its to bad. But then again, even if they were alive I probably wouldnt be able to meet them anyways.
Demon tied to a chair in my brain Blackbird a tappin' on the window pane Sick man smilin' at a stray dog in the rain Demon tied to a chair in my brain Demon tied to a chair in my brain Lovers burnin' ghostly draggin' their chains Met eyes from the window Of that midnight train Demon tied to a chair in my brain Demon tied to a chair in my brain Demon tied to a chair in my brain Mad shriekin' woman weepin' my name My skeleton is meltin' My soul is in flames Demon tied to a chair in my brain "Dax Riggs"
actually i dont come out my house where i walk around freestyling and talkin to myself tellin myself that god does love me and this is only a temporary curse of depression. i smoke my roomates weed and cigaretts for free all day and i go to therapy
Yeah I had a blast with you! I've been buisy going to mohegan sun and the beach on my vaca but i def want to chil with u and sophia and kaydence. Its just hard with weekends. but call me and we'll set a date to do sumthin! I love you! No sleep I waz tellin liz about that way 2 funny!
Thanks, the 'hawk's been a fun time away from being clean cut, nothings funnier than scaring the hell outta old people just by walking in a room. Life's been ok, things are kinda up and down. Been forever since chillin' in the KIA. Good to hear things are going good. Mike
hello, how have you been? how is the new place? sorry i haven't written in a while. been busy busy. hope everythings alright. i really would like to chill sometime be4 i move outta state. well i'll ttyl
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sorry i forget how to even change that shit someone else changed it for me i still dont really know how to do this whole myspace shit. did u have fun this past weekend going out i cant wiat to do it again
