Melinda

Hi, my name is Melinda Ross and I am the creator of My Sister’s Keeper. If you are anything like me, the reason why I started this MySpace profile is because I used to be sick and tired of living a life pretending to be happy and not brave enough to say I HATE MY LIFE. I thought making a bunch of money would make me happy…NOT! I thought that being in a relationship, you know, that whole “boyfriend” thing, would make me feel this thing that I was searching for…NOT! I thought living in a beautiful home and having a bunch of stuff would satisfy this…THING…NOT! I just hated living a lie. That’s why I started this MySpace page, because I know that there are millions of you out there like I was who are searching for contentment, happiness, satisfaction, love, whatever…and it did not and is not filling that void. So I want to meet, network, and give back to those of you who are out there that are living the life that I used to dread and now you want to be free from it.

So now I’m absolutely FREE! I have no worries and all of my needs are taken care of. All I have to do is ask. I never have to worry about MONEY and how am I going to pay for this or that. I never have to worry about my future, my path, my direction. I’m FREE! Oh, and lo and behold, I now have the man of my dreams! But I’ll tell you a little bit more about him in a minute. If you want to have the freedom that I have and live and feel what I feel and never worry for anything anymore, READ ON…and I'll give you the REAL secret!



Growing up was hard. My siblings and I were poor. We grew up in a Christian household, but it didn’t feel so blessed to me with all the chaos that was going on. Our father was an alcoholic and a drug addict. Every Friday he would spend his entire paychecks on booze and forget about the family and the responsibility at home. So that meant utilities being cut off, always borrowing from friends and family and just being sooo poor. I began to hate my father and the way that he would hurt my mother. My mom is such a strong woman. She has sacrificed so much of her life for us. She did the best she could.

There was one awful night that I will never forget. I was asleep in the attic. You know how you have a dream and you want to scream in the dream, but you can’t, well, that was me, but I was AWAKE. My father was in my bed drunk out of his mind. I can remember the stench from his breath to this day. How could my own daddy see me in that way? I thought he loved me. I won’t go into details but I will say this, from that night on my entire mindset about men and my self-worth changed forever. My life was changed. I will never forget that night. And it's amazing how that one incident could change the course of my life to literally living in hell, to now being FREE! I am so grateful to have the awesome mom that I have, because after that night, he was out of there for good! (I know you’re thinking, “I can’t believe that she is putting herself out like this”…but hold on, there’s a reason for all of this.)



Wow, my teenager years were crazy. I was out of my mind. I don’t even know how I made the good grades that I did. I was one way in school and completely different outside of school. I always seemed to have the incident with my father looming over my head. It's like his stench followed me everywhere I went. I began to feel just as ugly as that night, which lead me to make some huge mistakes in high school and outside of high school. My self-worth was shot to hell. I felt unlovable, ugly and like I was a mistake. My relationship with my mother was bad, and even though you could have called me one of the “popular” people in school, the inside of me was ravaged. I hurt so many people along the way and did some terrible things because I was hurt. Hurt people hurt people. I was such a horrible person.

In 1997, that’s when everything came to a holt. I was pregnant at the age of 18 and had my daughter at 19, right before I was going to go to Ohio State to become a pharmacist. But my 10 year old is a blessing to me today. I’m sure I would be dead had I not had that interruption in my life.

Welfare, food stamps, government control set in and I was so depressed. I contemplated suicide so many times. But that little girl that God gave me helped me to keep going. I was supposed to be having fun in college. But, no, instead I was knocked up! I was so far away from God. I had left the church, and just lived a horrible life hating myself and everything attached to me. Always a victim and never taking responsibility for my own actions.



So eventually I started going back to church and didn’t make a 360 degree change, but I was at least at 180. I would have some good years, never fully in…you know, sometimes hot and sometimes cold! I turned my financial life around by becoming a court reporter, which felt like a blessing and a curse at the same time. I made a decent living, but I never had time to spend with my daughter and anyone else in my life, and that sent me into a straight depression.

I kept falling in and out with God, but I swear He just wouldn’t let me go. He was like a Spiritual Stalker that wouldn’t go away no matter what! I’m like, Dude, I’m not trying to hear You right now, stop talking to me…lol. But he wasn’t having that…(and thank God he didn’t)

I started doing some internet marketing and made a bunch of money, it was great, but something wasn’t right. I still wasn’t getting that void filled. I was still up and down, hot or cold, still doing what I want to do. So I stopped…but not forever.

SO NOW...

Well, now, guess what, I had to come to grips with myself and say “self, you are a mess. Get help now.” I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ AGAIN, completely. My resources, my body, my mind, my lifestyle, my family, my plans, my businesses, EVERYTHING. NO turning back, Just Hot, everything. And now I am so fulfilled and happy and free and I found out that, yes, Melinda, you are lovable.

He is now that man in my life, the Man of my dreams. He loves me so much that it would make anybody sick. He calls me the apple of His eye. He calls me his fragrance. How great are His thoughts towards me, how vast is the sum of them. If I should count them, they would outnumber the sand. Every single need is met. I never have to worry because my steps are ordered. Everything I want and need he said all the things that I pray and ask for, just believe that I have received them and it would be granted to me. How’s that for a boyfriend…lol.



So what about you? Would you like to be in peace forever? Would you like to live the life of your dreams with all of your needs met, never having to worry about ANYTHING, because you have the Ultimate Resource? What about always being satisfied and loved? What about having a promise that He would never leave you or forsake you? I’ve been through so much in my life dealing with the scars of my father, and I’ve done some terrible things, but He accepted me anyway...Even Me!

No matter what you have done, don’t worry, with Christ you are a new creature. All that craziness has passed away and new things are coming into your life. That’s why I’m free. Jesus gave His life for you and suffered on the cross just for you. The bible says that if you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. And guess what, if you want to be free, you can be free right NOW...on MySpace...lol. Just say this prayer with me right now.

"Heavenly Father, I have sinned against you. I want forgiveness for all my sins. I believe that Jesus died on the cross for me and rose again. Father, I give you my life to do with it as you wish. I want Jesus Christ to come into my life and into my heart. This I ask in Jesus’ name. Amen."

Now, if you said that and meant it in your heart, you’re saved, you’re free! That’s not the only step though. Now it’s time to build a relationship with God. Contact me at melindamross@hotmail.com. I would love to hear from you and give you some tools! There, I can give you my contact information and we can chat. God bless!