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I've been back and forth between a lot of shit in my life, like most people.

I look for honesty, integrity, intelligence, loyalty, an open-mind, humor, sense of security, compassion, and happiness in other people and within my self. I'm a good person with a big heart, though like most everyone I can be a bitch. I forgive, but I never forget. I don't give a flying fuck what people think about me, nor am I going to change for ANYONE.

I grew up in Northwest Indiana (region rat?!), specifically Portage, IN. I moved up to Wisco when I was 19 with my parents, and they have successfully started a small farm, not exactly a business but we do raise animals for slaughter. We have registered dexter cattle and a plethora of different breeds of sheep. So essentially I have been in two different extremes in life, urban life and rural life.

I listen to a variety of music. Country is a no-go for me, sorry (Johnny Cash, Loretta Lynn, and Garth Brooks being the exception to that rule, haha). Metal, indie, and everything in between in the rock genre is what I like. My favorite artists include, but aren't limited to: The Smashing Pumpkins, Coheed and Cambria, Say Anything, Gojira, Lamb of God, Queens of the Stone Age, Ben Folds, Kaki King, Brand New, and Devendra Banhart. The new Pearl Jam album is fantastic, might I add. I do enjoy classical and classic rock a lot, along with folksy stuff as well.
I read a whole shitton, though lately I've fallen out of that habit. I don't watch a lot of tv, but I do like watching movies, though I don't do that much of that either, honestly. I love video games! I have a Wii and DS which are neglected at the moment, but I'm more into two-player games then anything. I love pokemon, get over it.

I'm long-winded.

I'm so fucking shy it isn't funny. I have no social skills when it comes to just going up to someone and striking a conversation, and I realize that most of the time I must come off as a bitch because I don't know what to say most of the time when someone DOES talk to me. Once you get to know me though, I'm usually pretty talkative and open. I'll probably tell you way too much that you don't want to know or need to know; I'm pretty open about my life, not exactly about my feelings. I can be an emotional mess, I have my baggage just like everyone else. I like to pretend I'm intelligent. I'm spastic, I like to have a good time, I like to sit at home, I like to go out, I look for adventure but it's hard to be an adventurer unless I have someone else with me. Admittedly I'm dependent on people, I don't like going anywhere alone. But I like being alone, sometimes. It's hard for me to find someone that I can spend 24/7 with, and when I do I get pretty attached. I play games but I can be more serious then you (as it seems) when need be. I love energy drinks. I'm hellaciously stubborn, but I'm far from being bratty and having to get my way all the time. I like to work and I love to drive, I pay my bills on time. I'm used to creepy guys creepin' on me, let me tell you...I've had more then one myspace stalker-turned real-life stalker, for whatever reason. I grew up with the LGBT community, if you have a problem with that then gtfo →→→. Admittedly I have guy friends, and I don't fuck a single one of them, nor will I now or in the future. People are seriously whacked, it's what I believe in. I can love like that's all I live for, and I can hate you so much I want to disembowel you (if you do me/my friends serious harm) and feed you to a pack of wolves. I don't believe in fakes, lying, deceiving, and backstabbing. I have done a far amount in my life time, not saying I'm prefect :) But I'm over the drama, the haters, the bullshit, and the cheaters. I'm thinking I have to wade though a lot of crap to reach just one single person who is exactly like-minded to me. We shall see.

If you read all of this, then you deserve a dozen fucking cookies of your choice.
I'm not looking for anything but friendship at this time, if you want to get to know me, send me a freaking message. If you totally creep me out I won't respond which means don't keep flooding my damn inbox. But whatever. IDGAF.