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i'm sleepy right now. microscopic bugs have been eating my skin for a month. if all goes to plan, they are dying on my person as i type.

for some reason people think i am a rather dirty [hygiene-wise] person, but allow me to reassure you, i shower daily [when available, road trips are a different story].

i really really really love bicycles, especially children's trick bikes.

i would like to find a job that i can enjoy, and that i am qualified for, and i'd like to know where i could find it. if anyone knows how one goes about getting a job at a think tank, please let me know, i think i would enjoy doing such a thing.

i've been unemployed since august [2006] and don't feel there is anything i really want to do. concurrently, i'm becoming quite a shut-in. that is digging me a deep hole that i've grown far too comfortable in. i'm currently attending the university of colorado at denver. the idea was to actually learn about what interests me / what i'd actually consider a career in and i've rapidly lost intrest.

i'm sad as it feels as though my traveling days are over, and that is what i would love to be able to do constantly. i've made too many friends and so few of them live anywhere near me. it also feels like some of the ones close by aren't too interested in me at all these days. it's hard as there are numerous new places i want to experience / explore, but at the same time, i want to go back to many of the places i've been.

i was born to two sometimes rad, other times infuriating parents in the suburbs of lancaster, pa. they used to be hippies, but have been sucked into whatever they are now, blue collar hard workers, blindly so it feels. sometimes it saddens me because they're chasing the american dream so rabidly that they have admitted they don't know what they'll do once/if they ever retire. i have an older sister in grad school in washington state. we don't talk much, but i feel we have a strong bond. i grew up feeling over shadowed by her as she always excelled in school and what not, but now we live our lives and i don't see things in that respect any longer.

not dead. anything else is questionable.

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