ellie is what i prefer to be called, unless i tell you otherwise. its really difficult for me to talk about myself. i just can't sum myself up... that sounds like i'm interesting, but i don't think i really am. my entire life is an irony. i appreciate a lot of things in life that you may find insignificant. i hide the tender emotions as much as i possibly can. you will never see me cry. there are a lot of things inside of my heart. "we only truly exist in each other's hearts". music is an enigma of feeling. it is the strongest, most beautiful, most unexplainably powerful thing in the world, and it holds me together. i love to make people laugh and laughing myself. i don't drink excessively or do any drugs. i love passionate people and things. i love performance art. i can be a very flakey person, due to the fact that i can be a very unstable person. my best friend mandi put it best - "when you're okay enough to be there for someone, you're there for them 100 percent." if i could help each and every single person in the world find some solace in their life for when things get too rough, i would. "you may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough" frank crane. i try my very hardest to help everyone who asks me for it. i like cloudy days better than sunny days in most cases. i love lake michigan and the city of chicago. i love kenosha, wisconsin. i love my cat kiara. i love my nana. i love every single person in my life. i've been playing guitar for years and i'm decent, but i'm no hero. i love the 3 stooges, the lion king, and the blues brothers. if there were three things in the world that i could have with no limitations, they would be the following: one, a beautiful singing voice, some cross between patrick stump, hayley williams, and jemina pearl. two, a full, gorgeous smile that goes fantastically with my genetically given features. and three, eternal wealth and love for all of my friends and family. call me whatever you'd like, but if you can't back it up i don't give a f*#$ :D. i'm italian and very proud of it, which explains why i love food so much, both eating it and preparing it. to tell you the truth, there are very few things i am absolutely certain of at this point in my life. i have reached a very twisted road, with storm cells constantly brewing in the sky above, and tectonic plates shifting frequently, but always unexpectedly beneath. i'm re evaluating a lot - mainly myself - and working to get on the right fucking road again. it's gonna be a long one. i don't really hate anybody, i just find certain aspects and traits in people unattractive, and if i stumble along a person that has one too many of them then i will keep my distance. you can go ahead and hate me if you'd like, but do me a favor and have a good reason for it. i think the first thing you need to do in life is find whatever makes you want to live it, then do it until the very end.
if i want you to have my aim, i'll give it to you.
fair warning: when i was younger, i had no self esteem or confidence in myself. since the beginning of high school, i have slowly been recovering, and today i am no longer afraid of what anyone has to say about me. my shell is thick and i'm laughing and smiling a lot. i think my intentions are always good, and i can be a pretty fun chick sometimes... however, i still have a lot of self hate, and i can still be inexplicably shy. there's a lot i won't tell you. i know i seem complicated, but i promise i will always try to seem less confusing than i really am, and spend more time outside of my head than inside of it.
textersations. sarah likes that word. she will use it in the future. along with her new favorite word skank box.
hay girl hay!!!!! hahahahahahaHA. i thought id use kalnai's greeting when he sees a female. god he is such a homosexual. damn gays and their homosexuality
u know? sarah is very offended that a certain white girl with tattoos and piercings coming out the ass hasnt talked to her in a while. the only thing she feels more than offense is amusement at herself for speaking in the thrid person and possibly confusing said white girl
i TOTALLY was! i couldnt put the book down! i read from where we left off in the car to the end this morning! i was wayyy to into it. and now i have the third one from rachael so HA ill be further than you for once =]. AND GUESS WHAT! I bought the entire series online today. all 4 books should be at my house in 4 days =]. hahahah. im obsessed at this point. and OKAY ill add your other one.
we got HOME at 630. how rediculous! stupid chicago traffic. i love my city, but they need more lanes on the tollway! AND i finished the book! HE PURPOSED!! i want the third one, like, right now.
ellie is what i prefer to be called, unless i tell you otherwise. its really difficult for me to talk about myself. i just can't sum myself up... that sounds like i'm interesting, but i don't think i really am. my entire life is an irony. i appreciate a lot of things in life that you may find insignificant. i hide the tender emotions as much as i possibly can. you will never see me cry. there are a lot of things inside of my heart. "we only truly exist in each other's hearts". music is an enigma of feeling. it is the strongest, most beautiful, most unexplainably powerful thing in the world, and it holds me together. i love to make people laugh and laughing myself. i don't drink excessively or do any drugs. i love passionate people and things. i love performance art. i can be a very flakey person, due to the fact that i can be a very unstable person. my best friend mandi put it best - "when you're okay enough to be there for someone, you're there for them 100 percent." if i could help each and every single person in the world find some solace in their life for when things get too rough, i would. "you may be deceived if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you do not trust enough" frank crane. i try my very hardest to help everyone who asks me for it. i like cloudy days better than sunny days in most cases. i love lake michigan and the city of chicago. i love kenosha, wisconsin. i love my cat kiara. i love my nana. i love every single person in my life. i've been playing guitar for years and i'm decent, but i'm no hero. i love the 3 stooges, the lion king, and the blues brothers. if there were three things in the world that i could have with no limitations, they would be the following: one, a beautiful singing voice, some cross between patrick stump, hayley williams, and jemina pearl. two, a full, gorgeous smile that goes fantastically with my genetically given features. and three, eternal wealth and love for all of my friends and family. call me whatever you'd like, but if you can't back it up i don't give a f*#$ :D. i'm italian and very proud of it, which explains why i love food so much, both eating it and preparing it. to tell you the truth, there are very few things i am absolutely certain of at this point in my life. i have reached a very twisted road, with storm cells constantly brewing in the sky above, and tectonic plates shifting frequently, but always unexpectedly beneath. i'm re evaluating a lot - mainly myself - and working to get on the right fucking road again. it's gonna be a long one. i don't really hate anybody, i just find certain aspects and traits in people unattractive, and if i stumble along a person that has one too many of them then i will keep my distance. you can go ahead and hate me if you'd like, but do me a favor and have a good reason for it. i think the first thing you need to do in life is find whatever makes you want to live it, then do it until the very end. 
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