I am a very PROUD mama!! I have 2 children, who are the craziest, cutest kids you'll ever meet! They are adorable no matter if they have just waken up, just got out of the pool, or are going to bed. I love muh babies, and am so glad things worked out the way they did. Wouldn't trade my life for anything. You can see their picture,just scroll down... Lessons have been learned, and trust me when I say that I am a better female today because of the things I have been through.
God has truly blessed me!
I have two sisters, Shannon and Misty, and one half sister Katie all of who I love VERY much!!
I work downtown for a two of the BEST criminal Attorneys in town. I absolutely love my job. I know that I have found where I need to be.
I am newly single so it is VERY exciting for me. I am having a good time right now and couldn't really ask for much more... Well maybe to win the lotto, but you know what I mean!!!
so its 2008 now and i am hoping this year will be alot different for me. I am officially a smallwood girl again and am hoping that the changes i am going through, and have made will only make my life that much better.
its been crazy and fun and relaxing really... I have always said that i felt like i needed a vacation... well its like i have been on vacation. i do have a special friend these days... and well he makes it that much easier to wake up everyday. i smile more often which is a change i enjoy... a change i needed. it is the perfect balance between life and love. and well, its about time i found out how to smile. its not that hard believe it or not. we live and we learn i guess.
soooooo here we are in april, almost may and things have definitely changed!!! im single again ... well for now :D kids are great, im smiling more often these days than im used to, which is a good thing. good for the soul, you know? i am missing my family like crazy right now... i gots 2 nieces who are both pregnant and live so far from me :( i have 2 sisters who i need to hug right now and cant! damn you girls LOL all in time i guess... keep lovin me like you do and hopefully i will actually make it. you neva know............
ok so its may almost june and what you ask is going on in my life?? well for the most part, im dealing with haterz on a daily basis. jealous ass females who need to know their role and quit trying to take my place. you really find out who the TWO faced ppl in your life are when things start to get better for yourself... its all good though. they give me the strength i need to keep being me. clearly im doing something right if they wanna pay all this attention to *lil ol me* LOL!!!! im a down ass female and have dealt with haters my whole life but this is just.... funny.
one thing ppl should know about me.... im straight fire. best believe that. you come at me, dont expect me to hold my tongue or to back down. you come at me, expect results. first and foremost, im a grown ass woman with two grown ass kids. i dont tolerate disrespect especially if i know i aint done shit to you. thats just how i am. love it or hate it, im here to stay baby....
as for my trues friends.... i love you all and you know i do. you guys i havent seen since high school, i think about you lots and wish you and your families well everytime i see you online. which is often.
ALRIGHTY HERE WE ARE AT THE BEGINNING OF SEPTEMBER, AND I AM TRULY, LOVING LIFE... ALL THE HATE I HAD IN MY LIFE IS GONE, THEY SEEMED TO HAVE MOVED ON TO OTHER UNSUSPECTING SOULS LOL ... WELL THIS UPDATE HERE, IS A VERY HAPPY ONE. I LOVE MY JOB, I GOT THE KEYS TO MY NEW CONDO TODAY, WE'RE MOVING TO DOWNTOWN AUSTIN, CLOSE TO WORK AND PLAY HAHA!!!! GOD IS BLESSING US EVERYDAY, AND I AM SO THANKFUL FOR IT... ALL WE HAVE TO DO IS GET MY MOTHER'S HEALTH BACK ON TRACK AND WE'RE SET. FOR ALL OF YOU WHO KNOW ME, LIKE REALLY KNOW ME... YOU KNOW I'VE BEEN STRUGGLIN FOR A WHOLE MINUTE. AND THAT MINUTE HAS COME AND GONE, AND NOW THAT ALL IS ON TRACK... I CAN ONLY KEEP GOING ON UP...
UNTIL NEXT TIME......
welllllllll..... october here. mom just died... cant believe it. she was fifty frickin six... i love her. i miss her. my kids adored her. elena had a real hard time with it... below is a pic of my mom... have decided its time to do us from now on. going to the gym and keepin my kids busy... tired of these men, no real ones around at the moment. well... one but not sure i wanna give in LOL.. Only the LORD knows whats in store for me. will keep you updated...
so... its a year later. everyday is hard without my mom. its amazing how losing someone that important in your life changes the family in whole... my oldest sister and i have no communication, on purpose. was toxic to have contact. life is good as far as kids, job, home, and love... i am grateful to have people in my life now who do truly care about me and love me to no end. forever aint enough and he knows it. to my loyal friend April i owe you such a big bill for your therapy sessions lol i am eternally grateful to you for getting me through this passed year. i know i could not have done it without you!! as for the people that tend to come and go and anyone reading this i do have a little piece of advice on life in general...the saying at the top of this page sums it up -- those who dont matter mind and those who matter DONT mond! so be YOU and dont waste time with people who make your life hard or difficult. in my life there is someone who i have to deal with on a daily basis who i feel takes me for granted and takes advantage of me and well i realized that i have to just take it day by day and not let their negativity bring me or my children down. i find im constantly having to defend myself and justify WHO I AM when i talk to him but you know what? that is his issue not mine. if you apply this to you and your life things might just run a little smoother for you.. much love and respect to all. PEACE .V..
oh yea i would like to take yawl to my church.. n they care bout u trust me they do..Y they dont care bout u, who r they to judge any1, u did nothing wrong..
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!!! ~Maribel~
