ashleigh zombie

About me:

i randomly add people on here, sorry if thats a problem. i figure, no harm in getting to know other people. i'm not a lurk though, i can converse too. i used to write a lot of blogs when i cared about a lot of things. i might start again, but anything else is just the past. my name is ashleigh and i feel pretty confident in saying that i'm an experience. to be honest, you probably won't want to know me. it would be an understatement to say that i'm complex. most people don't get me, i guess because they aren't me, or they just don't have the full capacity for someone like me. maybe they just can't handle it. i'm a thinker, i'm always in my head. i'm an existential, metaphysical and mereological nihilist, a rationalist, and a realist. i am logical. i am a bit of a dreamer, though. i am a pisces. i don't like to play games. i do not appreciate ignorance or stupidity. i've been told i'm negative, but i think people have negative perception. i'm pretty blunt, honest, and straightforward, which can get me in trouble. i'm also kind of abrasive and sarcastic, and a lot of people don't know how to react or handle that (or can't take a joke). i probably don't know how to conduct myself around people, but i'm fine with that because i don't want to stoop to their level. when i'm alone i like to be with my son, evan, who is 2 years old and amazing; or take in some internet time to chat with the few people that help me stay sane. i like to cook and eat because food is my vice. you can talk to me until you're blue in the face about your religious "views", but i'm not going to reciprocate your feelings, i can think for myself. i don't smoke, actually, i'm pretty anti-smoke and practically allergic to it, so please don't do that around me. (i won't hate you if you do) i'm not much of a drinker, but sometimes you just need to escape for awhile, its human. i'll party with the best of them. i am drug free, so, thats whatever haha. i like to read, write, count, and think. i'm obsessive compulsive and it has probably devoured me, but its not so extreme, and i don't consider it a fault. i'm not very materialistic and i enjoy doing things that don't cost, but at the same time i have a weak spot for replacing my wardrobe every few months or buying new makeup. i thoroughly enjoy nature, and water, but i like my indoors too. (i'm not a fan of insects or southern humidity though, blech!) i'm not fake, but i have been known to wear masks, hide my emotions, i mean. i have pretty decent judgement of people with two faces, or who go along with things, or have no idea what they are talking about. just because i don't let YOU in on ME knowing about it, doesn't mean i don't. honestly i just adapt to the people around me, observe and retort, i suppose you could say. i'm not going to try to have a stimulating conversation with people who have nothing to talk about. i'm not looking for someone to tell me how hot i am or how they want to bone me, i'm not interested in a fling. not to say that i'm not a sexual person -- actually, its quite the opposite. i am a pisces so i am pretty extreme when it comes to all areas, emotional, physical, mental, intellectual, etc. i enjoy being intimate with someone i care about, someone i can laugh with and just lay with and inhale the sweet smell of our bodies mingling together. i don't have drunken one night stands with people who will never talk to me again. i do tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and this gets my heart broken and my body used occasionally. i am very conscious of everything going on around me, very observant and analytical, and i almost always go with my gut, unless my heart jumps out first. i wouldn't really label myself as anything, i'm sure people have a lot of things to call me but i dabble in and study a bit of everything, or a bit of nothing, its all in your perception of things. i appreciate all forms of beauty, all types of people, places, things. the worst thing, personally, that a person could do to me, is let me down. this is bad because i expect too much out of people. a lot of times, i expect things that would help benefit a person for themselves though, or expect people to keep their word to me. i get let down a lot. its not hard to gain my trust but its not hard to lose it, either. physically, i'm not very vain or anything, but i'm 6'1 and plus size. i'm not morbidly obese or anything, but i could stand to use a few pounds. this comes from getting pregnant and having a child, mostly. i'll get back to where i want to be, eventually. hope is not lost! i have no idea what my relationship status is because i fall in love easily and just as easily wind up heartbroken. its not worth putting on my profile really. i am trying to be more active in a social life, so if anyone wants to do anything, try your luck. but i would prefer not to sit around and do nothing, so have a plan! i really like to try new things, and meet new people. i'd love to meet more kickass alternative mommies in my area, someone to window shop and thriftstore shop with, someone to wipe the sweat off my face at shows, someone who gives good hugs, etc. i'm not very superficial but i can appreciate a hot chick. i like pin-ups and the ways of the "old", zombies, a ton of various kind of music, most movies, abandoned buildings, big fields, the sky, gore, make-up, and lots of other crap. the best things in life aren't things, though, right?

● IF YOU ARE IN A LOCAL BAND & WANT TO ADD ME - PLEASE SEND ME A MESSAGE. I HAD TO DISABLE BAND ADDS BECAUSE I HATE SHITTY MUSIC!

● if you have more porn stars on your top friends than i can count, chances are i won't add you! especially if you are 35+. and its nothing against pornstars, i just don't need to be friends with people who are that far into the stuff. keep it private, seriously!