So yeah life freakin sucks.So i know im supposed to be all Happy and everything because im getting married in 3 months and dont get me wrong I am. but thats about the only good thing in my life right now. im tired of walking around with a freaking smile on my face when im not happy. I mean as soon as David left for Basic my entire life fell apart. I mean im not even speaking to my grandparents and they used to be the closest people to me next to David. I feel so fat like really fat and every time i try to diet i feel worse. I hate my job right now because im just not motivated at all to even go in plus when im at work i have to plaster a freakin smile on my face and i hate being fake. Everytime Something good does actually come along i fuck it up and not just a little alot... Im really sick of this fucking world i feel like im screaming at the top of my lungs and nobody can hear me... I want out.... David needs to come back because he makes my world sane... only a week and 5 days... i hope i can make it that long.... its not looking good.....
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