~*~Mo~*~

About me:

What can I say about me? Not a whole lot, but then again, I don't want to judge myself by the same measures that everyone else judges themselves...."I'm not good enough, I'm not worthy for this or that, I'm never going to amount to anything".....God I hate that....Why can't we be happy with who we are? I am a happy woman with so much going on..I have a wonderful husband, Eric, who is truly my soul mate and "The Princess Bride" was right, that kind of love is almost impossible to find, and I found it....I have 5 children, six if you count my son, who died 4 years ago as a result of SIDS...It's a terrible thing and I can never make light of someone, enemy or friend, losing a child cause it is the most horrible thing that you can ever go through.....My children, including Corey are: Julian, my 18 y/o stepson....He is so smart and I can only watch in awe at his accomplishments.....Then there is Beckah, my 14 y/o step-daughter...She is beautiful and she plays the flute and is very good at it....I am very proud of her....Then there is Isaac, my 9 y/o step-son, who is the gamer....He LOVES James Bond and I think he fancies himself a world hero like James Bond.....Then there is Faethe, my first-born, who is 8 y/o....She is everything I always wanted to be, beautiful, popular, and happy....I was none of those, but I am honored that I can witness her life and see how she handles it...Then there was Corey, who died at 8 weeks of age...He was my little bubbee who was a total mama's boy and I am happy that he was in my life....He taught me more in his short 8 weeks then I could learn in a lifetime...Then there is Abigayle, my 5 y/o daughter.....She is my butterfly...She helped me metamorphose into this new being after my son died.....She is joy and wonder and awe for me....
So what drives me? My spirituality drives me.....I'm a Christo-pagan....Don't know what it is? Look it up...Educate yourself on other spiritual paths...I don't look to the bible for all the answers cause they can be misinterpreted for the use of controlling others through fear....I look to the supernatural to explain the natural and vice versa....How can I limit God? How can I put God in a box? Who am I to say that God is a he, she or it? Who am I to say that Christ was not married, or that he wasn't afraid, or that he was a class clown? I can't say any of these things because when it comes right down to it, I have no say over God and I certainly don't have a say over what Jesus did.....
I make it my life everyday to make people think and make them uncomfortable in their belief system....I don't mind a good argument and I certainly don't mind ruffling people's feathers cause I tend to learn a great deal when I debate....
I have an intense sorrow for bullies....I was bullied horribly when I was a kid growing up, and I have learned not to hate them, I've learned to pity them....I can only imagine what hate they must have had for their families or people that would cause them to hurt others so they could feel better about themselves.......