Rachel Gunn

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Rachel Ok, I know what you are thinking. Another myspace bimbo with big boobs, right? Wrong. My name is Rachel Gunn and I suffer from Ugly Duckling Syndrome. Ugly Duckling Syndrome is when a presently attractive woman spends her childhood and high school years being unattractive. To compensate for that she develops a good personality, big heart, and soul because that is all she has. She carries this feeling with her into adulthood even though she has developed into a beautiful woman or at least what society considers “beautiful”. This is me even though I cringe when describing myself as beautiful. I didn’t grow up pretty. I was overweight, had acne, wore glasses. I wasn’t popular or part of the in-crowd. I wasn’t a cheerleader, class president, or homecoming queen. The boys didn’t like me and both the boys and girls teased me. My own best friends told me I was ugly, called me thunder thighs, told me no boys would ever like me. Boys yelled out of their car “Jenny Craig is that way!” I was called pizza face. I hated myself, despised myself, was ashamed of myself. I let others dictate who I was and how I felt about myself. To this day I’ll never feel pretty and that is the honest truth. No matter how vulnerable that makes me appear or how many haters it attracts knowing that I’m an easy target for criticism I have to tell you the honest to god truth of how I feel. If my suffering can help one person out there know that they are not alone then my job is done. Life has been a definite struggle. I have been lied to, abandoned, dumped, lost houses and cars. I’ve been abused emotionally and physically and those scars will last a lifetime. I’ve been forced to give up dreams and found myself empty and desolate because of it. What I have found though is these setbacks, these stumbling blocks, can be used as tools to build yourself higher than you’ve ever been, to achieve those goals you had never thought you could accomplish. My favorite quote is “when you are going through hell keep on going”. You have to keep on going to get to the other side – the good side. Looks don’t determine who you are. Looks fade. When I am an old woman peering through my thick bifocal glasses staring into the mirror examining each, wrinkle, each crevice, each crease who has made me who I am it won’t be my big boobs, my blonde hair, or a cute face staring back at me. It will be my heart, my soul, my character that will be staring back at me through that mirror. This is what lives eternally – the spirit of an individual. I am most proud of my big heart, not my big boobs, and anyone who encounters or gets to know me always tell me that I have a big heart. Modeling is my passion. It is my art. Art is that which makes you feel less alone and modeling and writing do that for me. My accomplishments are Maxim Hometown Hotties Contestant for 2007, March 2007 Unrated Vixen for Unrated Music Magazine, Cosmic Cutie in Cosmic Tribune, Miss My Space USA September 2007, Toy Box Fox of the Week for the band Toy Box Heroes, Babe of the Week for BNRX.FM, April’s Ride Free Girl on www.Ridefreeus.com, Model of the Month for www. www. chasing74. com, Riverfront Times Cover model for July 16th-23rd, 2008, and Winner of the Motion Picture Model Search. Photographers I have shot with are Ken Mierzwa, Jesse Gater ,Tom Kruse, Sheila Cronin, Sarah Cayson from Xaria’s Photography , Mark Schwig, Gabor Mayer, Aloha from Bewitched Studios, Michael Draga, EDP Images, Ron Barlow of Barlow Productions, Scott Harrison , David Fish, Seth Garcia, Brian from Eyeworks Photography, Sal Cincotta, CLC Photo, Amit Photo, and Staff Photographer for the Riverfront Times, Jennifer Silverberg. I was 1st place winner for a poetry contest featured on www.tnjpoetry.com and am author of a book coming out in paperback at www.chipmunkapublishing.com. My modeling website is www.rachelgunn.com. I definitely believe a girl should conduct herself with class and not be trashy. I rather sit at home and read a good book then go out and party, get drunk, and act all crazy. I have two girls and two stepchildren who I have to set a good example for and I believe strongly in that. I've never been a "girls gone wild" kind of girl. I am usually the shy and quiet girl standing in the corner observing what is going on. Contrary to what some might say about my modeling or what I represent I do not believe in objectifying women. Women are people, not sex objects and should be treated that way. I use my modeling as an art form to express myself. Women actually do have brains and should be treated as such. I think the hardest lesson I’ve had to learn along the way is to not let other peoples' opinions bother me. If someone thinks I’m ugly or some other girl is prettier than me then let them think that. Why does their opinion even matter? The only opinion that matters is your own. You almost have to desensitize yourself from what other people think because if you don’t then you will be miserable. It's hard to do that when you have a big heart but if I can do it believe me - anyone can. A very special person taught me this and if you follow this advice you will be so much happier. A fact in life is that you are not going to make everyone happy no matter what. It’s just something you have to accept. One thing I can’t stand is fakeness. If someone doesn’t like me I rather them tell it to my face then act all nice and stab me in the back. I’ll have more respect for you if you are real. If something you say bothers me or I don’t like you I will probably tell you to your face. Not that I don’t have tact. I do. I am not going to hurt someone’s feelings or put them down but if for example I heard you said something bad about me and you try to be all nice to me I will check you on it or most importantly if you disrespect women or say something “piggish” to me I will check you on it also. I do not let anyone talk down to me. No one is better than you are and you should never ever let anyone talk to you like that. A couple more things about me: I have manners. I always say please and thank you, call people sir or maam, hold doors for others, let others in front of me in traffic, and wave a thank you when they let me in, etc. I like when people do the same for me. I treat people how they would like to be treated. On a lighter note I have a great sense of humor, sometimes goofy, sometimes sarcastic. I have two daughters who are my life. They are two precious angels who can do no wrong in my eyes. I love them unconditionally and am happy if they are happy and healthy. I have two great step children also who accepted me from the beginning and I will always be grateful for that and I am married to Mike, the love of my life. We knew we were soul mates from the beginning and no matter how hard times get they are still pretty great as long as he is there with me.