The desert is an awesome place to visit, but I sure don't want to wander here much longer!
Music
I've been listening a lot lately to the songs and memories of my youth. I'm remembering dancing to James Taylor's "Fire and Rain" with Jason tucked beneath my chin, or Heather's head on my shoulder while we swayed to Carole King's "You've Got A Friend."
And Jackson Browne. Lot's of Jackson Browne. The last line in this song, "These Days", really defines my life thus far.
"Don't confront me with my failures. I have not forgotten them."
Last year, Heather turned me on to Jason Mraz. While Sarah was in labor, working so hard to bring her beautiful baby daughter into this life, we danced again. Sarah leaned her head against Heather's shoulder and they swayed together until the contractions passed. I was awed and amazed to see them together like that in birth.
I wonder who will sing Heather through her birth? Whoever it is, I know the music will be strong and powerful. Like She is.
And this year, she turned me on to Colbie Caillat. No matter what kind of mood I'm in, I cheer right up when I hear "Bubbly" and remember the week we spent in Jersey...the casinos, the beach house off season, the sunset, chasing antique shops in Cape May...turns out it's the last time it'll be just us. Next year we'll be at the beach with her little guy...singing "Baby Baluga" and blowing bubbles.
Movies
I love old musicals: The King and I, The Sound of Music, Fiddler on the Roof.
When the kids were little, we would string popcorn balls at Christmas time while we watched Dr. Doolittle and Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. To this day, we are liable to break into a rousing chorus of "High low, everywhere we go, on Chitty Chitty we depend! Bang Bang Chitty Chitty Bang Bang! Our faithful fendered friend..."
Television
My absolute, all time favorite,is Dr. Who. The kids and I would sit up all night on Saturday, drinking herbal tea, snacking on Mint Milano cookies and trying to stay awake through all seven doctors. One memorial day weekend, there was a Dr. Who Marathon on PBS. We put a mattress on the floor and ate pizza and chips and drank soda and lived in our pajamas all weekend.
Books
Right now, I am reading everything I can get my hands on that might help me save my marriage - and my husband - from the grips of the devastating addiction that has ravaged our family.
Heroes
My six kids...they rescued me from a life of boredom, sameness and normalcy.
My husband, John (he's that gorgeous scotsman in the corner with me!) He taught me that love isn't supposed to hurt...but sometimes it is the most excruciatingly painful experience one can endure.
University Of Maryland-Baltimore
Baltimore, MD
Graduated: 2005
Student status: Alumni
Degree: Professional
Major: Law
Clubs: Chief Justice, Clarence Darrow Chapter - Phi Alpha Delta Law Fraternity
Greek:
Phi Alpha Delta
1999 to 2005
Morgan State University
Baltimore, MD
Graduated: 1999
Student status: Alumni
Major: Political Science
Minor: Pre-law
Clubs: Treasurer, Pre-law club;Alpha Lambda Delta, Phi Eta Sigma, Grant Brent Promethian Kappa Tau, Alpha Mu Gamma and Golden Key National Honor Society.Endowed the Jennifer Kerr Scholarship Fund for single parents. Go back -- Give back.
1994 to 1999
Arlington Hs
La Grangeville, NY
Graduated: N/A
Student status: Alumni
Somebody's Grandma is experiencing the full joy of life (even the hard parts!) like I haven't felt it in twelve years without apologizing for my happiness... view more
There are times in life when you wake up and wonder, "What happened? How did I get here?"
For me, that time is now.
I know that this is meant for me...the struggle, the pain, the fear. I know that it is meant to sharpen me, refine me, remake me...remind me. We didn't get here overnight. We will not escape it in a day. But we have a promise, a covenant. We will survive. In what form, I do not know, but we will survive. Because it's what we do. It's what "family" means.
I get so tired of fighting the battle sometimes...I just want to run and hide. I wake up and think, "I just can't do this even one more day." I pound my fists and scream at the walls and kick against the bricks. I don't want to be here, I don't want to go through this. It just HURTS!
But I know that there is something more waiting for me when all this is over. When the battle is won and I can finally lay down my sword, I know that there will be rest.
Peace
Brothers and Sisters Personality Quiz
Yep! That's me!
Who I'd like to meet:
I've already met the only person I longed with my whole heart to meet: My son, Jason.
Jason Paul Lang was born on July 8, 1982. Due to escalating violence and threats from his biological father, I was forced to do the only thing I knew to keep my son safe...I placed him with another family. On February 23, 1983 my beautiful child was placed into the arms of his adoptive mother.
On February 25, 2005 I received a late night phone call. "Which one of my kids is calling at this time of night?" I wondered aloud. Little did I know.
What I remember most about that call is the beautiful deep voice on the other end of the line saying, "The name on my birth certificate is Jason Paul Lang and I think you're my mother."
Exactly one week later, in the lobby of a hotel in Baltimore, I held my son for the first time in twenty-two years. This is the story of our reunion.
I would also like to meet Chris Gardner!! Until I heard his story, I thought I was pretty much alone in this world and I was deeply ashamed of my life. He has given me the strength and the courage to tell my story. I only hope that, in the end, it is told with the same grace and dignity he has shown. Thanks, Chris!
Oh! and I'd also like to meet a really good literary agent who can get me through this.
Mom - I never could have done what I did without you. I am SO glad and thankful you were there with me - I would want no one else in the world except my mommy at a moment like that. I am so glad you were there to witness and help me birth my beautiful daughter into the world - I just hope I can be as supportive and loving and magical to her as you have been to me.
I love you and thank you - I never could have done it without you.
I love this picture...espec. now when I feel like either a cow or a beached whale (depending on if Im standing or sitting/reclining, its nice to remind myself that I looked halfway decent months ago...
I got a few new pics today of the baby - omg, she totally has my little pug nose and full lips! I'm so in love I can hardly stand it and I cant WAIT to meet her!!! I feel like she wont come soon enough!
She weights 2 pounds 6 oz already and Im measuring 28 weeks! Right on track!
Oh my gosh...I just read through the updates you did in your page...
Can we try not to make me cry?
Sniff, Sniff, Sob! Waaaaaaahhhhhh!!!
As a funny side note to crying for no reason at all, the other night I burst into tears at the WaWa because thier blue slushies (actually, all thier slushies) were not frozen. Seriously, its not a big deal in general, but I just started crying. The guy at the check out didnt seem to understand.
God, I cant wait for Ritas to open on March 17th...Chocolate Gellati anyone?
Thank you for the comment...I just changed my pic...speaking of which, can you please send me the photos from my birthday? I'd love to put them on my page and Jenny is asking for them too - says she needs them for something? LOVE YOU!
B) deciding wether Mac & Cheese with Hotdogs are really that important,
C) Visiting Slurpie.com to see if they ship thier Icees in 1 gallon tubs or
D) Frying my brain out of useless TV and posting random stuff on peoples mypspace.
If you guess any of the above, EERRR you're wrong! I just had a 3 minutes while my Microwave pizza was "baking" to send you a message...What? The baby is hungry! Its been like 2 hours since he ate last....
I love your story and the positive outlook that you have on life. Thanks for sharing your story with the world. Your reunion with your son was very touching. Peace!
Just wanted to let you know again that you REALLY are inspirational to me. I started the new job - I love it!! Thanks for coaching me not to be so Lang.
i took a census and the result was (drum roll please)...the althought slightly odd looking its a "smokin' hot picture" and "damn sexy"...I promised some people I would put it up, but only for a few days lol...then back to the skinny pic lol...
umm...yeah, so I have to move again...this makes number 4 in the month of August...i'm becoming a pro at this!! I got my room all done, looking svelty, cute, fun...actually got a dining room table (WITH matching chairs! haha) and my roommate comes home last friday and says, "Yeah, so...my boyfriend, like, wants me to move in with him. So Im breaking my lease. You have until the 31st. Love ya!"
Oh well, I'm good at it at this point...Hell, I still have my boxes from the last move...Im starting to feel like a should just condense everything into a plaid sack and carry it on a stick...I'll put gemini in sun glasses and we will wander the streets, drifting in true style. Meet Fabulous people who find me entertaining...So much so, that they decide to make a movie of my life. They find it facinating and so interesting. They sell the rights, make MILLIONS, which they give me like 80%. Instead, I'll donate it all to charity and and keep wandering, with my little sack and my pussy...wait, I mean, my bag and cat...wait, that still sounds dirty...
thanks about the profile...took me forever to "hook it up" lol...just needed something exciting to spice it up!! I love that new pic too...I look skinny!! HAHA
Thank you for gracing my friends list; it is a pleasure to include you. May God continue to bless you, your endeavors and your family, and may He continue to bless you to be a blessing to others,
