The Bible is the most important book you will ever read! Others are 23 minutes in Hell, The Gospel of Peace, 90 minutes in heaven, Battlefield of the Mind. The current book I am reading is called God's Brilliant Plan By: Mark Drake it just got released and it is incredible!Christian Bookstore
Who I'd like to meet: MY PERSONAL TESTIMONY! WHO WOULD I LIKE TO MEET?? JESUS!
Hi my name is Tina and I would like to share with you my journey with the Lord. My life as a child growing up in a dysfunctional family, living and striving on conditional love from parents and thinking that it was a normal way of living only brought me to a place of loneliness which led to many years of being in torment.
Religion in my family consisted of a few short years of my mother being involved with the Seventh Day Adventist Church. Along with many regulations, laws, and a certain way of living, I had my mother being the self-righteous (good) and my father was a mean, cursing, never show his love, distant and cold towards us.
Really it was like having in a sense Jesus and Satan all under one roof. Mom was saved and trying to work her way to heaven and Dad was not saved and it showed in his actions towards all of us.
My teenage years were very rebellious and I was looking for acceptance and love in all the wrong places. What I found out was I did not find love but others who used and abused me in every way. I wanted so much to just get out of the house I found someone at the age of 16 who was in the army which I loved or at least thought I loved and that was my ticket to freedom but in the end it led me to another road of torment and bondage.
I married when I turned eighteen years old and moved up to Alaska only to isolate myself away from any of my family and friends people who knew me.
I dated my ex-husband for two years before I married him so I thought it was long enough and that I knew him well but I didn’t. He had a drinking problem and I should have seen it before we married but I wanted so much to be away from home or anything that had to do with home I just didn’t think about that being a problem plus when your eighteen drinking is cool no big deal.
He was verbally, mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive to me and for a couple of years I went through ups and downs in my marriage. Things got so bad that I didn’t even care if I died.
We had a little girl during our marriage and I kept thinking to myself I could not see her growing up in this and I wanted a better life not so much for my sake but for hers. She kept me alive and fighting.
I picked up what pieces I had left of my life and left with my daughter. I was angry, bitter, shattered, and lost. I had no hope.
I thought to myself why is it so hard for people to love me why do I have to try so hard what is so wrong with me?
I started to party go out with friends. There I found friends that were cool and that liked me so I was happy well at least for the time being. Dating and hanging out at the clubs was my lifestyle for a few years. I worked hard as a single parent and felt that it was ok to enjoy myself.
I did my duties as a mom well being the provider but then I started asking myself am I really being a great mom it’s not like I had good role models growing up. I smoke, drank, and I clubbed often. Although my daughter was not around any of the lifestyle she did see little of me and more of the babysitter.
I kept the drinking and party life away from the home front but it still affected her. Mom was not around much and that was wrong. I always dated the wrong guy one who was abusive and I could not figure out why I would attract such people.
So long story short abuse after abuse guy after guy it was like I was being gutted from the inside out.
I kept thinking to myself is this it? This is life? This is what everyone goes through, then what is the point of even living?
My sister left the house at a young age also. She was taking drugs, drinking, stripping, and it left her in ruins until God came into her life. God changed her life and I seen that change.
Even though for a long time I did not care but then after a while I looked at her and thought to myself what is going on with her? She is different. She’s happy.
I am not. At that point I had moved from Alaska to Tennessee and had lived there up until just a couple weeks ago when I moved here.
I would visit my sister in Ohio often and every time she would insist I go to church. Well to be honest, I could care less about church and I would get so sick of her bugging me about going I would go just to shut her up.
She attends the Newark Baptist Temple in Newark, OH. Little did I know that all those years my sister prayed for my soul, not giving up hope for me she knew I needed Jesus and she was not going to give up on me.
I could see something happening in my sister’s life and I wanted that also funny thing is I did not want the church, Jesus and I did not want to be the bible thumper either.
I did not understand it was God changing my sister’s life not her changing her own. The first few times I went to the church I felt really out of place everyone was dressed funny and you could tell I did not fit in there.
But much to my surprise everyone was so very nice to me and when I say nice I mean like really nice to the point I was like what is wrong with them they are to nice to me they don’t know me and if they only knew my past oh my gosh they would really not want anything to do with me! If they only knew where I came from that would change their minds.
They enjoyed having me there so much after a while I started to enjoy being there. I started to look forward to going so that I could get all the free hugs and hand-shakes I was like a kid in the candy store! Seems like the place to go I always seem to have people treat me mean so I enjoyed the attention they made me feel loved.
Now I still went out to the clubs and went to parties I even lit the cigarette as I left church services, but that is when things started to change in my life.
In June of 1999 I gave myself to the Lord. I remember it was a guest speaker who sat up on a stool with a lump of clay in his hands and I thought this is crazy what is he doing up there.
I listened and then something in me sank. I felt that I was the only one in there and that the preaching was just for me. I was so overwhelmed and didn’t even know why at that point but I started to cry.
I tried to hold back the tears but I could not I felt so embarrassed and I was so ashamed still not understanding why at the end of the service they did the alter call well I was not going to go I was afraid embarrassed confused well prideful and I was just going to sit there.
But something in me was saying go forth and I felt this pull like someone or something was pulling on my shirt pulling me out of me seat and I got freaked out I was fighting it crying all the way and then the moment came, my sister looked at me knowing what was taking place with tears streaming down her face she says:
“If your afraid I will go with you” and then she took my hand and we left the seats. I confessed I was a sinner in need of Jesus Christ and I got saved. It would take me a very long time to tell of everything Jesus has done in my life and is still doing.
I can not put into words what love can do to a person’s life how it can change. The love of my sister and her church brought me to Jesus. I am humbled at his forgiveness mercy grace and his endless love for me.
One year ago I was told by my husband who is Chris Bradley that God loved me no matter what I have done and that he knew what he got when he scooped me into his arms.
I have had my moments and from my past I had a wrong view of God and his love I thought that I had to earn or work my way to, change on my own, get good to get to God and I knew of him but did not have a relationship with him.
I knew things about him but it was not a personal relationship. I view God like I viewed my parents love as being conditional. If I did good then God was happy but as soon as I messed up then it was run as fast as I can away from God.
But in these few shorts months I learned that it was fear keeping me from my relationship with him. How can someone become friends with another if he or she is afraid of them? It’s possible but not the way God intended.
After learning and the Lord showing me in many different ways just how much his love towards me was pure perfect and complete I started to understand that all he really wanted from me was my heart with no strings attached!
Just me all of me the good bad and ugly even everything in secret. And when I started to fall in love with him I wanted to do things that were pleasing to him not doing them out of fear of what he would do to me.
Now it’s love not fear that motivates me and I am after his heart not his hand. I want to see his face and just simply hang out with him. I want the real deal! And everyone I come into contact with I share what he has done in my life, I want them to know that what he has done for me he will do for them also. Thanks be to God for my salvation and to him be all the Glory.
Yeshua The Messiah Bread: God's Heart Beat Is You! The Lord Never Fails!
In You, O. Lord, do I put my trust: let me never be put to confusion (Psalm 71:1).
The Bible says “Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and forever” (Hebrews 13:8). He assured us that though heaven and earth will pass away His Word will remain forever. That means He can be trusted. You can depend on Him to take care for He’s absolutely dependable.
The Lord never fails or disappoints. The Bible describes Him as the friend that sticks closer than a brother (Proverbs 18:34); He is the very present help in times of need (Psalm 46:1). Learn to put your trust in God alone, and rest your faith on His Word. Let His eternal Word be your hope and the anchor for your soul for His Word never fails. His Word always comes forth with enough power to effect a change in you.
Trust in the Lord Yeshua our Messiah with all your heart. Put your trust in the all-powerful and eternal Name of Jesus. That's The Name that is Higher than any other name, and at the mention of that Name every knee bows, of things in heaven, of things in the earth and of things under the earth. Hallelujah! There are evil forces that rule the dark world, but the Bible lets us know that though we are in this world but not of this world. We carry a great Name and carry the personality of Jesus.
Keep your heart focused on Him alone. His love for you is eternal and unconditional. Men may care for you, and be there for you some steps of the way, only the Lord Yeshua God sticks with you and goes with you all the way. Therefore, never put your trust in men but in God alone! Trust Him with your life, for He never fails.
Prayer Dear Lord Jesus, my trust in you is unshakable and unwavering for I know that you are the only true God, who loves me eternally and cares for me lavishly! I’ll forever put my trust in you because I know that you never fail! You're to me the friend that sticks c
HELLO SISTER TINA, JUST STOPPING BY YOUR PAGE TODAY, TO SAY HELLO AND GREETINGS FROM THE CHURCH FAMILY AN THE CHILDREN. WE PRAY THAT ALL IS WELL AND THAT THE LORD JESUS HAS CONTINUE TO ENLARGE YOUR TERRITORY. WE PRAY THE BLESSING OF ABRAHAM AND THAT GOD CONTINUE TO DO GREAT THINGS IN YOU AND THROUGH YOU. GOD BLESS YOU.
Remember to be a witness for Christ where ever you go. Many people are watching the children of God, in these last days. Let our speech always be seasoned with the salt of the gospel, so that we can draw others to Christ, and not always by our speech, but also by our actions.
A Brother in God's Kingdom have something to say about real True friends are like angels. They are precious and rare, and false friends are like leaves, found everywhere. If I ever saw an angel, it was in your eyes and Friends are angels that come from above. Sent down from God for you to love. So if you are sad, and don't know what to do. Just remember that I care for you and yes When I think rain, I think about singing. When I think about singing, it's a heavenly tune. When I think about heaven then I think about angels. When I think about angels, I think about you and please know that God put you on this earth to show people what an angel looks like you too me is like When you're lost in the dark and the world has turned on you, a friend is the candle that lights your way I believe, Friends are those who know the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten yes, I wanted to let you know... You're in my thoughts ... all the time and God knows just you, just us in my heart, in my thoughts and in my prayer. missing you as your Brother in the Lord Jesus Christ our Savior!
Honesty consists of the unwillingness to lie to others; maturity, which is equally hard to attain, consists of the unwillingness to lie to oneself.--Sydney J. Harris
Thank you for your most supportive comment on my status.
color=#1d1ffc size=5>Just dripping by to say hi. I hope your days are filled with God's peace and love. I pray that you and yours are all well. Here's hoping you have a blissful and restful evening. Love in Christ Leora
Honesty
