naynay

They say things in life dont always go your way, but if i had to choose id get my way every minute, and every second of every day. Ive been told im spoiled, a bitch, and every other name in the book. Well guess what get over i might be some things you have heard but most likely you will never know, so dont plan on it. I probably am fake but when you think about look around isnt everyone? No one is perfect so dont try to compare me or tear me down because look in the mirror your not much better are you? I try my best to make the people in my life happy constantly even when it ends up not being good enough. Im a christian. I believe in God. I believe things happen for a reason. I love my nikon, my prada glasses, and my teddy bears. Im a six year old in my heart, ask anyone they all know. I act out I am not scared to start a scene if you make me mad most likely ill yell. I still wine to my mother. Sometimes I am a brat. At least I admit it. I go and swing at three in the morning just to catch a quick glimpse of the stars. I have my mommy pick me up a thing of chalk and draw on my street with it. Bubble baths, rubber duckies, balloon fights, and jungle gyms. Gummy bears, candy corn, hello kitty, build a bear. Glow sticks, cotton candy, saturday morning cartoons. Dancing in the rain, splashing in puddles. Nintendo, pokemon, Tim Burton movies. Ice cream, cookie dough, and scooby doo. These things are what make me smile. I wont smile for you. If i do feel lucky, I must like you. I have a ton of walls built up and most people will never see who I really am. Ive had a rough life, but honestly I can deal with it. It has made me stronger and weaker in different aspects. Im a pisces, the water sign, I am happiest near the ocean, near the beach... but one of my biggest fears is also the ocean. I have a lot of love/hate relationships. I dont have many real friends. I dont mind it either. I know the ones I do have care in a way that most people never will. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve, I am a hopeless romantic, and I get hurt. Alot. Im a bitch when i want to be watch yourself because I am not scared to say stuff on my mind. I get depressed easily and I have panic attacks frequently. Alot of people cannot deal with my moods. Im a critical person at times. I'm a ditz and sometimes I act really stupid. At times I am extremely insecure, and alot of times I wont show it. I am obsessed with my looks. I will look at myself in anything reflective just to make sure I look alright. My life consists of school, photography, art, music, my friends and the boii. I started smoking again, to much stress. I overanalyze everything front to back, top to bottom. Most of the words out of my mouth are obscene. Dont waste your time if all your going to do is fuck with my head and tear me to pieces. I will be as true to you as you are to me. Lie to me, I'll lie right back to you. People need to grow up and stop shit talking things they dont know anything about. Im scared to grow up in this town, scared the past will keep me from moving on. Tattoos and piercings amaze me. I get told to grow up every day of my life. I refuse to explain myself half of the time, I know people just wont understand how I think. Im not a party person, Im obsessed with junk food, and shitty mtv dating shows. I am a hair stylist and Im a student at point park. I get lost in books trying to escape my reality. This is who I am. Love me. Hate me. I dont care. I will always be me. I refuse to change for you. So try me and we will see who wins.