I want to first thank the Almighty creator for giving me a strong spirit, the gift to teach, and to be able too write, for giving me a loving talent, and a gift that helps others. My strength is helping others even when I'm down still find the power to give someone strength in area's that is needed. As a young boy coming up in a under middle class neighborhood and a unpredictable world I knew nothing. I knew nothing about crime, wars, selling drugs, using drugs, politics, various bibles, different religions, and many more of the problems that fix or destroy this earth. Even though my grandmother was church going woman, into politics, a everyday news paper reader, and television media watcher who lived in a drug area. My eyes were close to these expects of life. I didn't discover that human beings died until I was about 7 years old , not saying that I wasn't scared of things before this age. I remember I didn't want to go to school when I was 4, my first day ever leaving my mother, aunts, uncles, cousins, or grandmother presents for 5 minutes... I didn't attend preschool to prepare me for kindergarten I started kindergarten when I was 4, because my birthday is in the middle of September, so this was new to me. This is where being frighten came in place for me far as I can remember. My cousin introduce me to what death is. She also introduce me to killer diseases are, as AIDS, she introduce me to fashion, drugs dealers were, drugs are, and how to cook hot dogs. I remember when i was 8 years old and we were coming from Florida on a plane and the plane was shaking, my cousin looks at me in a whisper saying " We're going to die." I looked at her in fear ready to burst into tears. Fear is just like learning right from wrong, you don't no your doing something until your parents tell you or smack you and let you know your in the wrong. A child can be scared of something, but don't no there's a such
thing as death. Same as a Adult, some people have a fear of snakes, but not scared to take deadly risk of another level of substance.
Example: Thug, gangsters, Military men, and many who risk their lives on the battlefield and streets.
These people have a mentality of I'm going to die in what I believe in.
You probably can place a Lion, a bear, snake, or dog in front of a suicide bomb to his body and he'll blow himself up.
One of the area's in this book I have touched on is Emotions, dealing with bad and good emotions and where they come from. I went through bad emotions for a long time and didn't no how to deal with the emotions I was going through. The emotion I was going through really crushed different parts of my life, it taught me a lot about myself and people as well. I recognize who I was and understood GOD more, if someone was going through something emotionally I understood whether it was good or bad. My life wasn't easy I experience multiple achievements in my life, I also experience multiple failures in my life. Achievements can be gaining a new job, someone acknowledging a good change in your life, failures can be learning how to hang out in the streets blaming the world for your problems, to getting fire for not doing your job.
I have sold drugs in the streets, I have stolen, lied cheated, I have done evil things, wicked things, I have turned on people, and I have also changed these bad habits into many of positives.
I had to learn what was right from what was wrong, Good from bad, righteous from wicked.
I had to learn what was truth, wisdom, faith, true knowledge, how to praise, and worship.
I had to understand what God is and what gods are.
Even though I changed my ways there were people who thought I was that person I used to be and still believe that.
Even after 14 years of not doing what I used to do in the past. The past was not my dwelling place anymore. There was know reason for me to steal cars anymore. I did not have that desire anymore, because took that desire out of my heart, he would not allow me too dwell there anymore.
I already gave him me, my soul, I accept hi spirit. GOD is a spirit is a spirit of love. The things I use to do I could not do them anymore, there was know desire, even when i went back to hustling drugs it was not a desire anymore. I smoked cigarettes for a while prayed for GOD to take them
away from me. He took the cigarettes out of my life. GOD took the marijuana out of my life also, the Alcohol as well.
I never was into drugs, because I already experience the drug scenery, I sold the drugs, so I seen how people act on them and how it affect people. Someone told me drugs and everything else that you do in life that is bad for you, are not addictions, but they are wants.
If we get rid of our wants and focus on our needs we would be much better in our walk of life.
GOD is my life, my morning, noon, evening, night, my years, month, weeks, days, hours, minutes, and seconds.
Man can not live off of bread alone, but needs the word of GOD to guide him, teach him, secure him, learn him, support him, to give to him, and
love him.
People, not all but some people take the bible as false, destruction, truth, some what truth, right, wrong, or contradicting.
They believe that the bible is not GODS word, some believe only the old testament is GODS word, some believe that the Qur'ran is only GODS word.
I love music I have always love music it took me a while to step outside the box of go-go music, hip-hop and R&B music.
I have a passion for writing. I have blogs outside of this site that anyone check out, I was writing a book but I held back for a little while.
In this book I discuss Creating a Life, a new life, restoring who you are. following GODS law, eating properly, bad emotions, sin, faith, sowing seeds, deeds (works), vision, attraction, peace, love, fasting, gratitude, and forgiveness.
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