Brian Matthew Kessler -- keyboards, vocals, bass, voice, editor... and full time maniac.
Influences
Industrial bands such as Einsturzende Neubauten and Killing Joke. Shock rock bands such as Alice Cooper and GWAR.
Sounds Like
If my work could be fit in a box, I would stuff it in one and lock it away in the basement, waiting for the next flood. But, if someone put a machine gun to my head, I might try passing it off as noise, industrial, tribal, ambient, or experimental.
Too much to list here -- moreso since I'm feeling
lazy. But some of my favourites are:
Souxsie and the Banshees
Einsturzende Neubauten
Killing Joke
Sisters of Mercy
Black Sabbath
Deep Purple
Judas Priest
Alice Cooper
Nine Inch Nails
I also make some of my own music. Check out Nil
von 9wo at Acid Planet.
Movies
Again, too much to list, but some of my favourites
are:
It's a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World
The Producers
Falling Down
Star Wars (original saga)
Fifth Element
Marx Brothers
Monty Python
Television
Evil technology. I watch it more than I prefer to
admit to myself. Particually fond of drama, sci-fi, and
British comedy. If my TV is on, it's probably tuned to
TNT, USA, the Sci-Fi Channel, or WLIW.
BTW, look for
me on TLC's upcoming TV show, "The Veil Trail". Not a
reference to the "Black Veil", its a show about women
questing for the perfect wedding dress. I helped my
friend Ardra to find one. [I think this will be about my
10th and largest appearance on TV.]
Books
Sometimes I'm a complete
bookworm... other times, I haven't the attention span to
make it through a page. When I read, my interests are
ecclectic: Fantasy, Sci-Fi, Horror, Drama, Historical
Fiction, History, Sociology, Psychology, Politics,
Religion, Magick, Mysticism.... My own writing is about
as ecclectic. I don't currently have any books out
though I have numerous pieces ready for publication,
including two stage plays and two screen plays. However,
I have a poem published in the National Poetry Society's
"Mists of Enchantment" and I will have an philosophical
essay published in Rakasha Books forthcoming
"Sanginomicon".
Heroes
I have found myself sympathetic to:
Aleister Crowley (best known for Thelema ["Do as thou
wilt shall be the whole of the Law. Love is the law,
love under will."] and his tarot (jointy designed by
Frieda Harris) -- his ideas, even unto "Thank God I am
an Aethiest" and "Doubt even you are doubting" are ideas
which strike a cord within my own sole and no words are
more uplifting than "Remember all ye that existence is
pure joy; that all the sorrows are but as shadows; they
pass & are done; but there is that which remains."
[Liber Legis 2:9].
Eric Blair (better known as George Orwell, best known
for "1984" and "Animal Farm") -- turning his back upon
the values of the capitalist class to which he was born,
he friended the poor and lived by choice among the lower
classes, although always as an outsider because he
always had a home with wealthy parents he could return
to. He saw the folies of political ideologies and the
parties that would practice them. And he saw too how the
media was the government's puppet.
But as I sit here trying to list named, I realize
that I can only mislead you by naming these people. For
I am not these people; not by a far cry. And if you have
any notions about these people, they may not be the same
notions I have about these people. If I tell you
"Marquis de Sade", you'd likely think S&M (unless
you've studied enough of him to know better); I, on the
other hand, sympathize more with his logic, his
relevating ethics, his love of truth and learning, and
his extremely large imagination and the ability he had
to shock and disgust his contemporaries.
Ancient wisdom teachs that knowledge is an illusion.
I've "known" many for years, decades, only to find them
stangers. Then I'll meet you and look into your eyes and
"know" that I have "known" you for centuries. We have no
need for facts, merely truths. The heart speaks volumes
while the mind utters mere non-sense trying to sound
impressive. What would you know of me? That I'm a rich
man without money? That I'm free without being
independant? That I'm a nocturn that loves the sun? A
libertarian and a fascist? An aetheist with many gods?
That I'll support both the cause of chaos and order?
That I spend every second living and dying? That I live
in the crossroads of Heaven and Hell? I spend my life
alone in a crowd and with abundant company when on my
own? Paradox after paradox it might seem... that's where
knowledge gets you. Every one of these statements and so
much more is true for I have ever been a paradox without
contradiction. Now I seek a key to open a door that
isn't locked, to free a bird that has already flown...
It's a key I'll never have but never be without... it's
such an obvious thing despite it's clever hiding space.
These are the things you should know. Or maybe not...
maybe you should never know these things... can you bear
to know them? Can you live in a universe where these
things can be true and still make sense? Perhaps it is
better if you know merely my heart, that it is so ready
to love when I find a woman ready to accept that love.
Perhaps you should merely know my mind, full of patience
and understanding, ready to aid you on a spiritual quest
even as you aid me on my own. There is so much to
know... and it is ultimately so much of nothing. Make of
it what you will... These are only so many words and as
much as I enjoy words, they are nothing but a means for
deception and miscommunication. The heart sounds nothing
but a quiet beating and that says it all. Listen to my
heart and I shall listen to yours. That is all I ask
for, all I want, all I need.
I enjoy making love to wonderful women and
occasionally merely having sex with those who are merely
beautiful; it is always best when I can combine the two.
;) I also enjoy philosophy, politics, history,
psychology, sociology, religion, mythology, and any
subject I can sink my teeth into for a good debate. I
enjoy being disagreeable, but it should never be taken
too seriously nor personally. I enjoy playing games,
especially those that can really make you feel involved
and/or challenge your mind. I enjoy writing about
anything and everything and reading about almost as
much. I enjoy drawing designs and occasionally cartoons.
I enjoy designing and wearing clothing that looks
appropriate to "The Road Warrior" and similar movies. I
enjoy a movie or film with a good plot, good casting,
and good director. I enjoy a dry, dark, and/or sarcastic
sense of humour. I enjoy eating spicy foods and drinking
a woman's nectar, preferably from the source. I enjoy
travelling: seeing new places and meeting new people. I
enjoy doing things I have never done before. I enjoy
long walks and long drives. I enjoy various types of
music. I enjoy the moon at night and the sun in the day.
I enjoy listening to drum circles. I enjoy the company
of lunatics and freaks. I enjoy a day in Washington
Square, Thompson Square, or Central Park. I enjoy
museums of art, history, nature. I enjoy lending my ears
to whomever needs them. I enjoy lending advice even to
those who will never take it. I enjoy looking at women,
especially those with a full figure and a nice face. I
enjoy getting lost in my thoughts or lost on the road. I
enjoy everything so long as there is something to enjoy
and when there is nothing, I can enjoy that too. I enjoy
theatre and live performances. I enjoy Life, Love,
Liberty, and EnLightenment in whatever degrees I may
obtain these unobtainable things. I enjoy sharing my
experiences and hearing the experiences of others. I
enjoy knowning that those I love and care about are
happy. I enjoy making music though I have neither skill
nor talent at it. Same will billiards and darts. I enjoy
both hearing and telling truth to the point where many
would complain "that's too much information". I enjoy
hearing lies just to see how ridiculous people can be. I
enjoy carving my own path in life. I enjoy knowing that
death no longer scares me even though I have no wish to
die. I enjoy knowing that I have no idea where tomorrow
might take me and I make no effort to find that out. Any
suprize which does not kill me makes me happy.
My highest ambition in Life is merely to Love and to
be Loved. It is not that I have no other goals, but
rather that I perceive all other aspirations as being
significantly lower. Without Love, there is...
...Nothing at all.
Who
I'd like to meet:
Someone who can inspire artistically.
Someone challenge me intellectually.
Someone to love.
Someone to lust for.
Someone who will requite such affections.
Someone to make me feel vital (in more ways than
one).
I am looking to make new friends and acquaintences
here, before I shoot of for parts yet to be determined.
If a bond is formed so strong as that I might stay,
well, so much the better.
I'm an adventurous sort, so my definition of activity
is fairly broad and open minded. However, not being
inclined towards decadence and falling squarely within
Plato's "most unfortunate class", it does have
limitations. But those are things we can discuss.
I guess, in the strictest, most basic and benign sense of the word: to relate. Sometimes I think I want something more meaningful... on rarer occasion, something more carnal, but if I ever bother to contact someone for the later sake, I certainly come off as far too cerebral and perhaps even emotional to be used as a short-term plaything: never mind that sometimes maybe I do just want to be used, or maybe I just want to know or remember what it feels like to be used. Sometimes I'm looking for a savior, to help me forget my solitude and worldy woes. Other's I'm looking for someone to take me by the hand and walk me into a world of decadence and depravity which I'm not inclined towards entering on my own or even with just anybody. I think ultimately, I want someone who is some complex mix of all the above who will complicate my life immeasurably.
Mostly, I am looking for someone to inspire me. As an
artist, I'll work with most any medium: drawing,
writing, music -- just give me a muse. (Allow me to say
I consider making Love the highest art, but few women
can inspire me such.)
wanted to wish you a happy all saints, lord samhain has no humor or is it too much ,taking souls to avalon is a fun time, do make a list. have fun and remember your biggest costume is yourself..laughs..happy halloween hugs
holly anne archangel aurora hekate,
you know they do think the name matters...laughs when do words matter to me
LOL! It looked that way. I'm not a fan of heights but that view might have made me change my mind. I'm glad you are well:)> You're in my thoughts often. Have a beautiful weekend!!
hello, i have run away to co, the air is thin..i might die,laughs. i have a burn and it is snowing tomorrow, yesterday was 85, home is fun. note disowning family is fun. beware a short man...too much face hair, lisp, weird accent..germanic. has a weird gate...see him in a store....music?? not sure, has an agenda..my brain is odd, sorry if you need more let me know...its dark...foggy..very warm..air is so humid its ....think greece
greetings...i do hope the easter bunny hits you up good. funny being shut off in your own body. mirrors are revealing are they not? turn the lights off , the dark reveals all. happy spring..and happy rain day...laughs
Hello , happy spring. this time of year brings odd memories but i can say for the first time in a long time, no pain. Our dear claiel says to remember she is still the bitch and the boss. take a moment to reflect about the past and for the first time, let it go... let it go. We dont have to live it again.. and as always we are mo-better than mo..laughs. love you .. be good
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