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~~~~~....BE4 I SAY ANTHING...YE S I'M in theCLOSET (SO I DON'T have pikz on HERE!!!!!)WAN NA kno what I look like(so don't ask me in a message): I'm BLACK (dark-skinned, dark chocolate, but NOT pitch black,lol),weigh t between 130- 135,height bout 5-7,BODY fairly cut, big kissable dark pink lips(dere r NOT Jay-Z big but big enough 2 be sexi,lol goes perfect wit my sorta square jawline), dark brown eyes,an always lined up mustache w/ a goatee datz sumtimez sideburn connected, short hair(just cut it),NO piercingz,want sum doe & in the earz of course. And lotta ppl say I look old 4 my age,lol I'mma BTTM & not tha feminine type(but i have no prob wit'em) just in case ur wonderin.
Don't EVER expect me 2 send u a message 1st becuz I ONLY speak when u have spoke 2 me(UNLESS I'm just NOT interested in talkin 2 u).I'm really NOT good at startin conversation, BUT once YOU have started it I DAMN WELL CAN continue, I luv being interviewed,lol, SOOO feel FREE 2 ask ANYthing(if i feel like answerin it lol).I'mma kool person 2 talk 2. Born&raised in dis city of Shreveport known to tha ppl who live here as RATCHET CITY .
~~Well although I am able 2 recognize the beauty of a female, I find myself droollin over other dudes.Right now I'm da stage where I'm NOT CONFUSED ANYMORE, BUT STILL really don't like dat part of myself.I wanna be straight honestly, but u can't help the way u feel u kno(just WISH EVERYBODY ELSE could understand dat).I know sum ppl who{if dey had a chance}had the choice 2 be str8 dey would STAY GAY cuz "dat'z who they are" but ME it would take me ONLY A HALF A SECOND 2 SAY"YES I WANNA BE STR8."IF I waz den I WOULDN'T have 2 go through tha TORMENT & the SELF CONFLICT if I waz str8.I'm NOT AT ALL sayin dat JUST becuz a person is str8 means dey don't have problems, WHAT I am sayin I WOULDN'T have dis GAY problem goin on. I kno sum out of the closet ppl think dat in the closet dudes are a disgrace 2 the gay community, well its not easy for US, NOT every1 has the courage 2 show ppl the REAL them, cuz hell WE don't have the courage 2 SHOW OUR SELFS the REAL US.I'm going through A DIFFICULTtime right bout now.I mean SUM of the openly gays look down upon a guy like me(like their betta den ME of sumthing), but look at it like dis THE STRAIGHT community LOOK DOWN upon ALL of US becuz of OUR attraction 2 the same genre.So...I'm sayin WHY? Why we can't stick 2gether(but HEY!,ALL STR8 PPL DON'T STICK 2GETHER, SO WHY SHOULD I EXPECT DAT? lol), cuz THERE'Z ONE thing we all have in common....But anyway I haven't had sex wit a dude,EVER[and it'z KILLIN me inside,lol]AND I'm not on here lookin 4 it. I have had my fantastys. I'm a virgin wit males & females. - I WANT SEX,BUT I'M NOT ALL BOUT SEX, CUZ I'MMA ROMANTIC & DO WANT 2 BE WIT SOMEONE ON A INTIMATE LEVEL.I wanna be wit a dude, but being in the closet HOW AM I suppose 2 get one. I want a boyfriend, BUT not being able 2 show him off would be hard 4 me.On tha other hand I want 2 be a girl, hopefully fall IN LOVE wit her,only den will i at least kno dat I'm COMPLETELY on "other" side(I'm HALF kidding). BUT this is myspace WHO gonna ACTUALLY READ ANTHING,lol.(if u ACTUALLY read dis we can chat, if I feel like it & if ya want.)